#they are genderfluid but i took the liberty to tag it as trans as well because it fits the trans experience too (i think?)

[mymistakewriting]

“Just A Taste Of Who We Are” - Haikyuu

So... I know I said I wouldn't write for Haikyuu!! again until after I did my note-taking rewatch but??? It's National Coming Out Day! (For like... three more hours where I live) And so, I decided I'd take some liberty and write an au kinda thing?? Listen, if you go to my ao3, I have written stories like this before - my only thing is if you're gonna start shit and say that it's not canon, you can get the hell off my blog??? Sorry, I'm not trying to be rude but I need to say that before the actual story or I'll have people bothering me about it. This is likely going to be terrible, I'm sorry for the mischaracterization of these lovely babies. Also!!! Everyone's experience is different, please keep that in mind. I myself am not transgender - I'm genderfluid, actually - so for the sake of using a realistic viewpoint, I actually got in touch with one of my high school friends who is currently going through HRT and asked for their help! That said, I hope you enjoy ^^

@fandomsandshipping100 Hey! So here's the story, I said I'd tag you. Don't judge me for my horrible writing for this fandom, k thanks!

Suga honestly shouldn't be so worried about telling the team, he knows that. It isn't the first time he's ever told anyone about him being trans, and he knows it's probably important that they know and he wants them to know but.. But it's terrifying to even imagine it. Because he cares way too much for the other boys to be able to stand it if they hate him. The closest comparison he has to how he currently feels is when he told his parents - he'd been anxious and shaky and about two seconds away from a panic attack once the words were out in the air and met with stony silence. But that had turned out fine, and he was stubbornly trying to think that that's the only way it could turn out this time too - he already felt like he was about to break down crying from his nerves as he headed to the clubroom, if he thought about it going bad he would start crying and he'd never get the nerve back up to tell them. It isn't even like no one else on the team knows! He's got three other people he knows are on his side, but it's still horrifying and leaving him a mess. But he'd been talking himself into this for weeks now, he knew they'd noticed something was up - his fledglings were nothing if not observant and damn if he didn't hate it at the current moment. He could hear Noya talking excitedly through the door as he approached, and almost managed a fond smile at the sound. If Noya knew what was happening and could still be himself, then why was Suga having such a hard time trying to convince himself to open the god damned door between him and the boys he'd chosen as part of his family? As soon as he gets the nerve and opens the door, entering and moving to set his bag down, shrugging his jacket off as he did, it fell quiet. He gave it roughly ten seconds, and as soon as they had passed, Tanaka had spoken up, voice just as excitable as usual but more... restrained? Worried, Suga corrected after a moment. "Suga?" Suga glanced over his shoulder at him to see everyone else staring at him worriedly. Finally, Daichi took pity on them and spoke. "They're worried about you, you've been acting a bit off recently," Suga nodded his understanding, settling down facing them. "Sit, we need to talk," "Just know you don't have to do this right now, okay, Suga?" Asahi said worriedly, giving the ash-haired setter a concerned once over. "It can wait if you want," It can wait. Boy, if that didn't sound amazing and tempting and Suga wanted to wait, to never have this talk, but... "No, I need to do this now," No arguments came, and so they all settled into the talk that Suga was dreading and excited for all at once - Daichi, Asahi, and Noya chipping in at the harder details when he needed a minute to recompose himself. Silence fell as soon as everything was said and the anxiety formed a hard ball in Suga's gut, tightening the longer it lasted as they digested the information they'd just been given. Tsukishima was the first to react at all, and he just hummed before he got up and continued getting ready for practice. "Alright, let me know if you need something," It took a minute for Suga's worried thoughts to process the easy acceptance those words were backed with, and as soon as it had registered, he was up and moving to hug the first year tightly, causing the blond to sputter in surprise at the sudden - not agreed upon - affection he was being treated to. No one else said anything - well, besides Daichi's warning of "if I hear about any of you giving him hell for this, you'll be removed from the team."

It was probably the hardest of the times he had to tell anyone, but he was glad for it. And he pretended not to notice the others keeping a careful eye on him during practices and games when he was actually binding, making sure he took breaks and would prompt him to go ahead of them to get out of the constricting material so he didn't cause himself any damages. When he told them he was getting top surgery, they all either sent him a message, called, or showed up to the hospital to support him. He couldn't have wished for better people in his life.

#haikyuu!! #trans suga #happy coming out day! #look I spent two hours on this #I know it's bad but pretend it isn't for me??? #thank!