#thegoodyears

[betterdaysareatoenailaway]

The Good Years

My ex-partner has eyes that give her almost a perpetually awake expression, a crisp bluegreen brightness that seems to stare right into you. I miss looking into them and I miss them looking into me.

This isn’t loneliness. I miss her and only her. It’s a specific kind of longing and a specific kind of misery. I’ve thought the same thing about heroin, but heroin just takes and takes from you, whereas love...the true kind of reciprocal love, is endlessly replenishing. Like lasagna in an old Garfield dream. I know it’s problematic and I know I’m a piece of shit but I still have yet to come across a bit of writing that does a better job of describing how I feel these days, than this scene from season 1 of True Detective. "Do you know the good years when you're in ‘em? Or do you just wait for ‘em until you get ass cancer and realize that the good years came and went? Because there's a feeling...you might notice it sometime...this feeling like life has slipped through your fingers. Like the future is behind you. Like it's always been behind you. You know, I cleaned up, but maybe I didn't change. Not the way I needed to. Remember what I said about the detective's curse? The solution to my whole life was right under my nose. That woman. And I was watching everything else. See, infidelity is one kind of sin, but my true failure was inattention. I understand that now."

(I didn’t cheat on my ex-partner btw, but I lied and stole money to maintain an addiction that I also lied about, so if we’re talking generally about fidelity to the truth...THE truth, not this newfangled namby pamby concept of “MY truth,” you could say that my behavior constituted infidelity. And you would be speaking the truth.)

My problem with this whole “thank you for speaking your truth” attitude is that it allows for alternate realities to exist alongside each other. I’m as shocked as anybody else that such an idea has proliferated amongst left-leaning liberal progressive people in an era of Trumpism and fake news and “alternative facts.” A rape survivor discussing what happened to them is not “speaking their truth.” They are speaking THE truth. To say otherwise is to play fast and loose with the notion of truth itself, which devalues the entire fucking enterprise. Let’s stop with this “your truth” and “my truth” nonsense. We’re not undergrads in Philosophy 101. We’re not searching for a mutually agreed upon definition of what truth is. I want to live in a world where everybody plays by the same rules. For this to happen we have to acknowledge an objective reality outside our own subjective experience, otherwise we’re all just brains in a vat muttering to ourselves. And that’s the truth.

#truedetective #nic pizzolato #thegoodyears #betterdaysareatoenailaway

[waynelvslcy]

It's National Beer Lover's Day! Enjoy a cold frosty one today! Cheers! #lucilleball #thegoodyears #nationalbeerloversday #frostyone #coldbeer #cheers https://www.instagram.com/p/CThcsI8HIHT/?utm_medium=tumblr

#lucilleball #thegoodyears #nationalbeerloversday #frostyone #coldbeer #cheers

[patriciamaureenphotos]

Wishing a very happy birthday to @stuartnadeau May this year being so many wonderful things!!! 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉✨✨✨🤼‍♂️🥇🥇🥇🎈🎈🎈🎈🎁🎊🎊🎊🎊🎊 . . . . . #happybirthday #birthday #27 #thegoodyears #primetime #inyourprime #itsyourbirthday #celebrate #haveagreatday #patriciamaureenphotos #patriciamaureenphotography #sales #wrestler #birthdaywish #makeawish #celebrateyou #todayisyourday (at Los Angeles, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/B4MYFXKJ8m-/?igshid=11hrvj7tw9rh3

#happybirthday #birthday #27 #thegoodyears #primetime #inyourprime #itsyourbirthday #celebrate #haveagreatday #patriciamaureenphotos #patriciamaureenphotography #sales #wrestler #birthdaywish #makeawish #celebrateyou #todayisyourday

[crystalmayetta1]

#thegoodyears #justdont #onlyanumber https://www.instagram.com/p/B1OPp4AF3Lo/?igshid=dettygc9xgjj

#thegoodyears #justdont #onlyanumber

[lilmskoifish]

Throwback to the gangsta Asian baby years when I was raised in Chicago by my Dang family. #throwback #thankful #blessed #thegoodyears #oldfindings #personal (at Chicago, Illinois)

#thegoodyears #personal #blessed #thankful #throwback #oldfindings

[roxcreek]

David Bowie - Life On Mars

#music #bowie #thegoodyears

[reseeparis]

Minimal Inspiration #90s #harpersbazaar #tonnegoodman #thegoodyears #resee

#thegoodyears #90s #resee #harpersbazaar #tonnegoodman