#the thing is also that I’m arospec (ig demiro might fit as a label but I just prefer the vagueness/inclusivity of just ‘aro’) but not ace

[tragedykery]

attraction is so weird man. I just realised I might actually be into one of my best friends after knowing her for six years. only realised that now she’s gonna study in germany. I might have a slight crush on one of my other friends or at least I find her very pretty. another friend I have no idea if I like romantically or just have a platonic crush on (I know I find them hot but that’s just like. objectively there’s no way around it). and I’m somehow inexplicably still thinking about the girl in front of me in the queue at a theme park almost a week ago. I didn’t even talk to her or anything she was just very hot. I’m this close to just saying “ok dyke” to myself at any given moment

#sorry for oversharing do you still think I’m hot or whatever #elli rambles #the first friend thing was like. SUCH a stereotypical moment holy shit #I literally brushed something out of her hair and was like huh what’s this feeling. WAIT SHIT DO I WANT TO KISS HER #like OK DYKE. #fanfic ass moment 😭😭😭 #delete later #<- probably #the thing is also that I’m arospec (ig demiro might fit as a label but I just prefer the vagueness/inclusivity of just ‘aro’) but not ace #And I’m terrible at telling apart feelings (autism 👍) so it’s like. is this romantic? is this sexual? is this platonic? is this a secret #fourth thing? who knows! certainly not me! #anyway. I should probably vent to my sister about this when she gets home instead of on tumblr dot com #god knows she’s vented to me about boy troubles often enough