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October 11, 2020 - Vancouver, BC, Canada

Happy Thanksgiving to any fellow Canadians who read this. As you can tell nothing really has changed, no travel and no real events. Well there have been events that have went on in my life since last month but nothing I feel is worth speaking of in here. I do not know how long or brief I will be with this, I feel I should write though to tell you the truth I don’t feel like it. I feel like just sleeping through this pandemic, I am sure I am not the only one who thinks this.

My life from 2015-2019 has been such a positive one for the most part I feel like life is trying to give me a new challenge to see if I truly have conquered the depression that took me for most of my life. All things considered I am surviving but to say that i haven’t had depressive relapses over this year would be a bold face lie.

I guess I am writing today because if COVID wasn’t a thing this year I would have been traveling right now. Sound like a tired broken record when I say that, I have been saying that all year whether it was Ottawa and Portland during spring time, to trips i may have went to Alberta or wherever in the summer to a trip to Australia I could have made with my girlfriend last month to the trip I could have taken around this time. Of course I didn’t wind up making any plans, with the second wave in a effect I don't feel like it is worth going out of the house let alone out of the city. A month ago alone seems like 6 months ago that has been how gruelling the past few weeks have been for me without end.

Would have went to Quebec City if I did go this long weekend or even Montreal again. I had a decent amount of time in Montreal even though nothing went on during that time that I could enjoy but that was why tickets were so dirt cheap to go at that moment in time. If I went I would probably enjoy the craft beer, poutine and smoked meat sandwiches again while trying to explore the city beyond the downtown area.

Even thought about maybe I would travel to Toronto, that city is so fucking huge I would try to spend most of my time outside of it this time but I am not going to lie Quebec City would be the place I would consider.

The place has always been stuck in my head and not exactly in the best fashion. I remember passing through that city both times and both times being discriminated against by French people. I understand the hate towards English people like me but the racism they display against other cultures disgusts me to no end but I will leave that bit aside.

Thinking about what I would do there would probably involve Jayne hatting and craft beer drinking mostly followed by museums and just getting lost in the place but that mostly what I normally do. I can't say my travels are not so much exciting as they are predictable.

I thought I would have more to talk about what I would do in Quebec City but I can’t help but not want to think about traveling because this pandemic doesn't seem like it will end anytime soon.

Newfoundland hasn’t even opened its boarders yet as I may have said before so there goes at least spending time with my parents this year. With this amount of leave I have I could spend the entire month there this time if I wanted to or at least 3.5 weeks.

One caveat of this year is I have eating more doniars in this year than I have any other. I am sure Turkish Doniar in Burnaby Heights appreciates my service as I am sure his business as taken a hit but he has always know that I loved his doniars and I still do.

What can I be thankful for I guess that Turkish Doniar is still around and his doniars are as goo as ever. Strange Fellows has their El Jefe hefeweizen out which is a good hefe and very drinkable for me.

I am thankful my girlfriend and me have a healthy relationship for the most part I guess. She is still stranded here as her government continues to leave their own people stranded elsewhere like the fuck wits they are.

Thankful my parents are alive and healthy, Newfoundland is probably the safest place in the world right now to tell you the truth. With all the shit that they have went through they deserve to be safe during this time though I can't imagine the crumbling economy worldwide is doing much for them either.

Thankful what few friends I have are alive and well and doing ok.

Thankful that despite not being able to travel and my mental health taking a bit his I am for the most part in ok shape. My eyes I feel are slowly deteriorating and I am slowly getting out of shape. I dunno there are moments where I physically feel in shape, ripped even and feel like superman then there are times like today where I feel like Homer Simpson. I guess it doesn’t help I have been eating doniars like made the last two months stress eating working three positions at once, having a COVID scare that wound up just being that my lungs cut handle smoke no more and the stress at home. I feel helpless, like I can't really do anything and anything I do makes everything around me worse. So all I can do is eat doniars, drink hefes and work on my life playlist project using Spotify.

A goal in my life is to write my own auto biography but when I think about it always comes in vague terms where if I just listen to a song it opens up those memories much better. I have been doing because it helps me remember those times but also see how I can grown as a person through the music on my life.

Where form birth to kindergarten my influence came straight from radio, TV shows and whatever my babysitters would play. The moment Much Music and the ability to own my own CD collection began followed by MTV, power metal, classic folks ,etc. Doing this playlist thing I feel is more of a accurate autobiography than actually writing down though to be honest it is getting harder now.

I am age 17, a lot of the music I listened to from 14 to probably 19 is no on Spotify weirdly enough, even stranger since many of the bands and songs I listened have stuff on Spotify. 1998-02 was such a weird time for music, it is almost like everyone wants to forget that time or not release what they released at that time. Maybe because it was the era of Spears and BSB who knows. it definitely makes those playlists feel incomplete.

I am not looking forward to age 21 playlist, that year will probably be the biggest of any other year but full of very bad memories for me but it is what it is.

Should also try and finish my book, it is actually done but I feel like i need to go over it once more. One of my friends asked me what I want for my Birthday I told her if you need to give me anything give me food but I am not starting to think no just read my book, actually read my book and give me constructive criticism. I know it will be shit, as you can tell I am not well versed in my use of the English language and this is my first (won't be my last) book. I guess i just want someone to read it and tell me if it is worth putting more time in. I have spent around 7 years on this fucking book, to say I am am growing tired of being in that world would be a understatement but I still feel more work needs to be done on it. I feel like GRRM right now with that.

Anyways I got stuff to do, hefes to down and music to listen to today. Shazbot nanu nanu

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