#the guy im w/ now is polyam (its just us rn tho) and im like. hm. okay! yeah i could roll with this with you!

[genetic-emancipation]

hi im gonna get a lil personal on main rq, hope thats okay

(this isnt a vent or anything but im still gonna put her under a cut okay thanks <3333)

its such a weird experience to go from identifying as VIOLENTLY aro/ace to just. kind of. not either of those things.

like. oh, wait a minute, i DO actually have attraction to people! its just that the last folks i dated did me so bad that i just. full on thought i Didn't. which is actually SO funny to me tbh. like how repulsive do you have to be for someone to think they're aroace ENTIRELY bc of u. this is peak comedy to me, someone else pls laugh.

anyways shout out to my current bf for actually being normal w/ me and not constantly smothering me with love (but in a bad way) or making me feel like a sex object (in a bad way.) <333

#this is how i feel on the topic of polyam too tbh #like i thought i was VIOLENTLY against being in a polyamorous relationship bc of my last experience w/ one but #the guy im w/ now is polyam (its just us rn tho) and im like. hm. okay! yeah i could roll with this with you! #part of me is still like “NOPE KEEP HIM AT ARMS LENGTH” but shes just a trauma response so i should like. Not do that #UGH that reminds me of a big ol conversation i had w/ K ages ago where he informed me that i do. in fact. need to actually Trust ppl. #yknow. to like. have a healthy relationship #shocked pikachu face #u wouldnt believe how much of a shock that actually was to my system tho. like it was so sad. but i had my breakdown abt it & im normal now #anyways shutting up now. ty tumblr for being my diary #maybe i should tag this shit #personal #sure tht works for now. i'll set up a tagging system one day maybe