#the experiences differ tho so i can't say that this is like a common denominator for all queer filipino teens

[thewhizzyhead]

actually yea i Will ramble about the confusion of being a queer filipino teen who is very socmed savvy because like. so i learned to more fully come to terms with my bisexuality on here right? And right now, so have many of my classmates and schoolmates and friends that my twitter feed is filled with gay shit thanks to them. and even my schools have made an effort to showcase that they (or at least, the student government) support and stand for queer communities. so woo, not only do you get exposed to the progressiveness of the foreigners in stuff like this, but you also see your generation trying to catch up with them and push for LGBTQ+ people to truly be accepted and welcomed like we've seen in other countries. and so I get so immersed in that WOO WE ARE MAKING PROGRESS in terms of like what goes beyond basic human decency that I forget the fact that I have buried my rainbow pride shirt that my mom gifted me deep under the clothes in my closet because I know that I Can't Wear That Shirt In Public If I Don't Wanna Get Stared At Demeaningly. The realization of the stuff that holds me and other queer filipino teens back hits me like a brick, even moreso when others with similar backgrounds and experiences as I look at everyone else express how far we have progressed.

And so, we are caught up in the middle - knowing who exactly we are and what can and should be done, but also not being able to fully join in the fun because of other stuff holding us back - some out of fear, some out of obligation, some out of shame, and some out of love for those that still hold disdain.

Long story short, it's complicated being a queer teen in a country whose attempts at progressiveness is being looked down upon by many of its own people - some of which are our own families.

#sO UM YEA NO WONDER WE DON'T HAVE A FILIPINO TEEN SHOW WITH A QUEER STORYLINE YET GJXJJX #because um There Is So Much To Unpack Here I Don't Know Where To Start #the experiences differ tho so i can't say that this is like a common denominator for all queer filipino teens #but it is a denominator all the same so jdjsc #yeaaaa social media can make you forget like the reality of a situation huh #like look i really wanna wear that pride shirt in public because like well it'll be a shame if i just keep it in my closet #(there is a metaphor i can write about somewhere there) #and my mom even encourages me to like wear the damn shirt #but um. some people just Aren't Nice and I don't wanna feel like hiding the shirt while wearing it in public #so um bbfjsj there's more complicated shit but i'm sleepy so wah #personal shit #Philippines #philippines stuff