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uhbasicallyjustmilex · 15 days

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So I’ve been meaning to ramble about the beauty of four walls for so long now but am only just getting round it so i really apologise because the amount I’ve enjoyed reading every chapter and just the pleasure the story has bought me I should’ve been leaving huge appreciation on every chapter. You’re so talented.

I’m just gonna start by saying that four walls is one of, if not the most, thought provoking and intimate things I’ve ever read. I don’t really have the vocab to explain what it is about it, but the way you portray emotions and just the delicacy of every situation, especially in chapter 8 where they finally get together, is just something else. There’s this underlying yearning and carefulness in each chapter that’s just so realistic, and seeing it written down and feeling that ache in my chest whenever something you’ve written just encapsulates that so perfectly is just heaven.

Also the way you depict insecurity ;-; Alex thinking miles is suddenly going to start looking at him differently. And that possessiveness of miles and confusion he feels about Suzy because she’s more than just a fling and is in Miles’ personal space and bubble that Alex sees as his but now includes her. I just can’t because it’s so relatable and written SO PERFECTLY.

And the little details? THE LITTLE DETAILS! These tiny bits of intimacy like the mixed jackets and the shoes next to the door and the description of miles’ belt buckle and how it moves with his breathing is just- omg. And the little addition of Alex always trying to unlock each door with the wrong set of keys? And the ‘where’s home’ ‘here’ ’me too’? SOBBING. It’s honestly a little scary how perfectly you depict that kind of lostness that can be common for people who are constantly moving about and find that security in that one person who’s always been their person no matter where they are. Sometimes I really think you must just be one of them writing their actual story just pretending it’s fanfic xD

And the nerves, and that doubt, like even though Alex must know deep deep down that miles feels the same he just needs to provoke it until Miles breaks and he can be sure. And that ‘c’mon al, it’s never just you, is it?’ That miles says because it’s just them, on the same wavelength, overthinking themselves into being convinced the other doesn’t want them. And the HURT omfg the hurt. Miles thinking Alex is just pushing to see what happens and to get his own way like again I can’t explain how incredibly you do that and how realistically you portray it and without seeing inside Alex’s mind it does seem like that’s exactly what he’s doing. But Miles’ perception of him vs the way Alex sees him as home (like ‘just the two of them alone in the room Alex most often sees when he closes his eyes to escape other rooms’)just ASGDKFLFOENDB. Babies.

I’m really really late going somewhere and this isn’t nearly the appreciation I want to show for you or four walls, nor is it anywhere close to highlighting all the things that are just phenomenal about the way you write and portray these characters. But the way you write has honestly introduced me to this whole new world of how characters emotion’s should look, and how it’s this simmering beneath the surface that you do absolutely incredibly that makes the characters so much deeper and more vulnerable and just perfection

So thank you so so much, honestly love this story and your writing beyond belief <3333333

hii 💖 oh my GOD where to start??? this is so unbelievably, UNBELIEVABLY lovely i don't even know what to say 😭😭 genuinely, i can't even begin to tell you how much this made my day (scratch that. my whole WEEK) when it popped up in my inbox 🥺

writing four walls over the past year has brought me so much joy, so to hear that this little world i've created has been bringing other people joy too is truly the most special feeling in the world ✨💫

your kind words about how i portray emotions and inner workings is just - god, i don't even know what to say 🥺 that's always been one of my favourite things about writing, but when you immerse yourself in a character's headspace as much as i have with alex in this fic, it can also make it really challenging. like i definitely spend a LOT of time going back and forth and worrying that i haven't got it quite right to make sense for his character, or that i've spent too much time on the introspective side of things vs dialogue. so yeah - to hear that when you're reading it all the emotions feel that real?? aghhhhh. that's everything i could possibly want and makes all the challenges of writing it feel TOTALLY worthwhile 💗 (also, i love that you feel that ache in your chest when you're reading, because that's what i feel when i'm writing them in this fic too 🥺)

i'm also so glad you think all of alex's feelings of jealousy/insecurity around suzy work - that's been something i've really enjoyed writing actually, it feels like her presence is (slowly 🤦‍♀️) helping him unlock a lot of doors that it might have taken him a lot longer to notice otherwise! it's been really interesting to write that dynamic.

AHHHHH as i'm sure you can tell, i'm an absolute sucker for little details, so it makes me SO HAPPY that you enjoy all those elements of the fic 💗 also all your comments about chapter eight specifically and how everything unfolded there have made my heart absolutely sing 🥹 i was actually really nervous about sharing that chapter and worried that it wouldn't measure up, so hearing your lovely words about that scene is just - thank you 🥺 it truly means so much💖

honestly it's not the first time someone has said that they think i must be either alex or miles writing this, and each time i hear it it just leaves me speechless because that is just the BIGGEST compliment ever??? 😭 obviously we only get glimpses of what they're like from interviews, lyrics etc - but they have *such* a special dynamic and are such fascinating people, so to feel like i've managed to capture even a semblance of who they are is truly so special, thank you 💗

i'm going to stop flailing at you in a moment because i feel like i've rambled on quite long enough now, but this: "the way you write has honestly introduced me to this whole new world of how character's emotions should look" THIS??? this has to be one of my favourite things someone has ever said about my writing 🥺 i want to print it out on a post-it note and stick it above my desk ✨

thank you so much for taking the time to leave such a thoughtful and generous comment - i truly can't begin to tell you what a gift feedback like this is, and how much it inspires me and keeps me going through the tougher moments of writing 🙏 you also sent it at a time where i'd been struggling particularly with self-criticism and doubt around the chapter i'm currently writing, and honestly reading all your kind words just restored so much confidence and joy in my writing. thank you so very much, i'm wishing you the most wonderful day and sending all the best vibes your way 💜💜💜

(PS the next chapter is nearly ready now! 💖)

#sorry it took me a couple days to reply to this!#i wanted to wait until i had the time to sit down properly and give it the attention it deserves 💗#thank you for being such an utterly lovely human 🥺#asks #four walls

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queenofnohr · 2 years

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Asha’s player gave me permission to simp for him on main 🥺 Anyway if you haven’t seen my past couple posts that mentioned Asha offhand he is a dear friend’s WoL and the dude Aias is primarily involved with (yes yes I cannot believe I am saying that but I Am Not Immune To Asha and by the end of this post you will not be either, hopefully)

This is my introduction to him unattached from Aias...... I will be making posts later detailing the Themes between them 👁 but for now You Will Stan Asha And Asha Alone.

I’ll be talking about his character growth through the story, but I won’t be talking about any events in particular so this is completely spoiler free! And yes, both the lizard and bunny are him and both are canon 😊

Asha was borne of the Steppe, but his sickly mother fled by ship after the splintering of Xaela clans due to Garlean occupation. His mother died late into her pregnancy aboard the ship/while going into labor, but miraculously he was pulled from her corpse and granted life. He was raised by the Roedagyn sailors upon that ship with no contact with others like him basically until he started his journey as the Warrior of Light.

He is...... both favored by fate and a slave to fate. He is a boy that should not have lived, yet thrives anyway. Conversely, he is the chosen hero that does not know for whom or what he fights, simply playing the role of Warrior of Light because that is what is asked of him, and because people look to him with hope in their hearts.

If there were to be an image attached to him, it would be a man drifting in an empty sea, staring down below at the indiscernible and unfathomable depths. (”Hey Dei, aren’t those exactly the words you used to describe-” shhhhh shhhh shhh do not perceive Aias right now. Eyes on Asha, we will get to that later.) To him, the world is a place in which he is constantly drowning, where everything is unknown, requiring him to ponder deeply before committing himself to anything, but conversely an ocean in which he cannot fight the tides that pull him to and fro. A vast and implacable sea in which he is alone.

There is actually a canonical reason he’s a bunny but that gets a little into spoiler territory so I’ll. Maybe make a separate post for that. (Or maybe add it under a cut in a reblog?)

Anyway by the end of Endwalker, Asha has both become jaded in his journey and has found pride in himself and his role. His character development can be summed up as going from “people want things from me :(” to “people want things from me :)” And as you can see from the last couple pictures, he’s leaning very hard into the reaper/voidsent lore...... Fully embracing his voidsent and feeding on others’ aether/emotions, he consumes the hopes and wishes and wants people place upon him as food. That which once bound him now sustains him. He’s become a veritable demon, indiscriminately feeding on people, yet still maintains his role as a hero because those very feelings directed toward him as a hero nourish him, the relationship between himself and others like an ouroboros eating its own tail. No longer does he drown in the sea, but looks toward the stars scattered in the night sky, infinite in their possibility, curious about what other delicacies the universe has yet to offer him.

#ffxiv #ff14 #ffxiv au ra #ff14 au ra #'deirdre why are there 10 whole pictures of asha' because i needed to showcase the full spectrum of asha. it's important to me #.......also because i have so many more pictures of him saved than even aias LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO #anyway if a single nice thought has crossed your noggin please let me know either in an ask or reply or tags or whatever #asha's player doesnt have a tumblr and seemed rly excited that im so into asha i'd share him with my followers so...... pwease #it doesnt even have to be deep or anything and it can be in relation to aias or whatever #id like to show them something nice....#no i am not above ebegging as long as it's for asha #your name like a song i sing to myself #......im also hoping i got everything right/i didnt miss anything major bc every single thing i've learned abt asha #feels like it was engraved in my heart. and i know there are some side details i didnt mention but i dont wanna like. overload rn LOL

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