#the beach is waaaaaay too far away. like by the time i’ve walked there i’m done for the day

[lovemesomesurveys]

Have you ever sold anything online either on Craigslist, eBay, Amazon, etc.? If not, what is your website of choice like any of the above for buying things? No, I’ve never sold anything. I like shopping on Amazon, Etsy, and Ebay as far as those kinds of websites go. If the opportunity arose, would you ever go to a nude beach? Do you think you’d be comfortable enough, being naked among others like that? Absolutely not. I’m not comfortable naked, and I most definitely wouldn’t be naked in public. I’m waaaaaay too self-conscious. I don’t even wear bikinis or any kind of swimsuit. I also have no interest in seeing other people naked. You do you, boo, but it’s not my thing.  What was the last book you read? What about the book drew you to want to read it (plot, title, cover…)? Did you end up liking it? I recently finished a trilogy (The Jack Ryder Mystery Series). Well, what I thought was a trilogy but I discovered there’s actually 3 more. I’m about to start the 4th. I read a few other books by the author and enjoyed them and the description of the first book caught my interest. I was hooked after the first one and had to keep going to see what happened. Have you ever considered keeping a dream journal? If you have one, have you ever looked back on it at all of the odd/interesting dreams you used to have? I thought about it before, but I’ve never done it. I very rarely remember my dreams. I generally forget them soon after I wake up or just remember random bits of it. Do you think regifting is cheap, or is it okay? Have you ever regifted before? I mean, I’ve been given gifts that weren’t really my thing, but I knew someone else would really enjoy them so I gave it to them. I’ll tell them, though. I’ll be like, “Hey, so I got this but I already have it/it’s not really my thing, personally, but I know you like them so I thought you might be interested” or something like that.

How often do you wash your hair? What do you think when you hear of some people not washing their hair for weeks at a time? Is it healthier, as they claim? I wash my hair 3-4 times a week. Weeks would be too long, but I think a few times a week is fine. I also dye my hair, so it’s best not to wash it too often.  Do you think President Obama should stay in office, or is it time for a new president? It’s time for our current president to be out of office. In general, do you like/get along with your mother’s or your father’s side of the family more? I get along well with both sides. Have you ever seen an animal give birth? Have you ever had a pet give birth before? Not in person, no. What do your plans usually consist of on Christmas morning? Are they the same this year? We get up early and sit in the living room while my brother passes out the presents and then when they’ve all been passed out we start opening them. We like showing each other what we got as we go. When we’re done, we mess around with some of the stuff for awhile. Christmastime this year is going to be weird given how this year has been. :( Do you like iPads/tablets or laptops more? E-readers or books? Laptops. I do a lot of my reading on the Kindle app on my phone, honestly. I have access to tons of books and it’s just really convenient. If you don’t get much snow where you live, do you wish you did get more snow? If you do get snow where you live, do you get a lot? Do you like snow? It doesn’t snow here at all, but I wish it did. If men could get pregnant too, would abortion still be as big an issue as it is? Yes. It’s still abortion and people have strong opinions about it.  What is something you want to try to accomplish within the next year? I don’t know. Have you ever had to “come out” to your parents about anything (sexual orientation, change in religion, etc.)? How did it go? No. Do you ever get drunk by yourself? No. I don’t drink. Has there ever been a time where you’ve forgotten something extremely important? Yeah. What’s the most unusual kind of pizza you’ve ever tried? Nothing unusual. If you were given the chance to decorate an entire house the way you wanted, with no limit to cost, how would you decorate it? I don’t have the creativity for that. Like, I’d have some ideas and certain things I’d definitely want to have, but I wouldn’t know how to go about decorating an entire house.  If you could have any kind of lava lamp, what kind would you have? Nah. What movie do you know by heart? There’s several. Has there ever been a time where you thought you were going to be great friends with someone, but it just never happened? Yes. What’s one of your favorite things to touch/feel? Something soft or furry, like my faux fur throw blanket. How often do you wear tights? I haven’t worn tights in years. I wear leggings everyday, though. If you had to choose, what’s the most important thing in your life at the moment? My faith, family, and health. Do you have Netflix? Yep. Has there ever been anything you’ve become interested in much later than other people? Yeah. Like with TV shows or movies, for example. Why is your favorite TV show your favorite? I have a lot of favorite TV shows. Describe your favorite picture of yourself, or post it. My baby photos. Is there a genre of music that some people would be surprised that you enjoy? I don’t think so. Assuming you have a Facebook, if one of your friends posted things that annoyed you, would you be more likely to delete them as a friend, hide their statuses, or just put up with it? I’d just hide their posts. I think you can like “mute” people or something like that on Facebook. Have you ever had a veggie burger? I had one once several years ago. Do you like candles? I wish I were into them cause they’re aesthetically pleasing and relaxing, but I’m not. What’s your favorite video game? Mario Bros everythijng. What was something you liked about today? It’s only 4:43 in the morning. Ask me later. When was the last time you passed out? Never. Do you think “friends with benefits” relationships could ever possibly work without anyone getting hurt? Not from my experience and many stories I’ve heard from other people. Someone catches feelings or you’re not on the same page and someone/both get hurt. It’s just too messy. Do you wear more sweatshirts or jackets? Sweatshirts. What was the last thing you had to drink? Starbucks Doubleshot energy drink. When was the last time you wore a sports bra? Never. When was the last time you went to a waterpark? I don’t do waterparks.  Does your best friend live close to you? My best friend is my mom, who I live with. Have you ever rode a train? Nope. Where did you get the shirt you’re currently wearing? The UC I went to. When was the last time you played Rock Band? With whom? I’ve never played Rock Band, but I loved playing Guitar Hero back in the day. I want to play! What was the last thing that you ate? Ramen. Who last messaged you on Facebook? My aunt. What were you doing Saturday at 1:30 pm? Sleeping. The last time you were intoxicated, what were you drinking? I think it was Jack and Coke. It was 7 yeas ago, so *shrug* Who last walked you home? When I was 19-early 20s I had a friend who lived like 10-15 minutes away walking distance and she and I walked around a lot to nearby coffeeshops and restaurants before she got her license. And to each other’s houses. Anyway, there were times she walked me home. What do you do to help your face from breaking out? I don’t do anything, honestly. Thankfully, acne just stopped being an issue for me when I got older. Apart from a couple pimples every now and then. Did you make any new friends lately? If so, what are their names and how did you meet them? Nope. Would you rather see your favourite band/artist in concert with 2 other people or have a free $20,000 shopping spree to Walmart? I’d take the concert for sure. I haven’t been to one in over 10 years, I miss concerts! Who knows when we’ll have any concerts again now. :( When was the last time you went out to eat? Back in early February. On a scale of 1-10, how anxious are you currently? At this current moment, like a 4. What kind of music do you listen to? I like variety. Various genres and artists across decades. What does your perfect day consist of? A day at the beach. Do you have any online friends? We have an awesome little survey community on here. I read your survey answers and I root for you. I want the best for you guys.  Would you dye your hair red? I do. I’ve been dyeing my hair red for 5 years. If your ex wanted to take you back, would you say yes? Nope. How is the weather? Right now it’s 57 F.

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[universatile-girl]

A letter I might let you read one day (but probably not)

I never thought of all people I would be so in love with you. I was expecting a brand new person, maybe in a few years, who was totally unusual and foreign to my ways. I thought that's what I needed next in my life, my next step. But it was you, in fact, who reached out to me. Someone from my deep past, so far it feels ancient now. Like our history never actually happened. I think we'd both like to pretend it never did, for different reasons, but that works with me just fine. You once brought it up (or maybe I did, because I was fishing for something. Sound like me?) and I remember you saying you messed it up somehow. I know what happened, I remember it somewhat clearly, but I wasn't going to reveal it. It's something I'm willing to look past because we were 14 for fucks sake (actually oh my you were still 13). Who can expect some barely-teenagers to act with maturity when it comes to relationships? You may think you were a foolish boy but I was also a dumb fuck back then. I wore eyeshadow without mascara because I thought it was more subtle... who let me get away with that! Anyways, SOMEhow, SOMEway, you still fancied me and I fricken adored you. Took you a few months too long to actually ask me out though, am I right? Because god knows I wasn't going to be the one to do it. You were so shy though, and I'm sure my face was beet red as a result of literally tripping up the stairs on my way to meet you for you to "ask me a question" and being absolutely trashed by a group of laughing older girls who witnessed it... my god it hurts to remember us back then. Curse my emotionally accurate memory. Let's fast forward? Time goes on, I never see you except for like a total of 5 times for the rest of high school. The ones I remember are: sitting on the blocks in the mall in a group of mutual friends and you were on the other side of the circle, the exact time Jamie decided to point out that my face looked orange, hopefully you don't remember; walking home while you were walking the same direction with that skateboard of yours, me asking where you were headed and oh guess what you were going to your girlfriends, well that's okay cause I had a boyfriend currently living in another country; I was working at target the beginning of grade 12 and you came through my till buying silly string for the grad prank. And then that's it! Not even at grad. Then early December last year I was on a bus and I saw you on the sidewalk. And coincidentally no more than a week later you messaged me out of the blue. And there goes Chris And Tanea Round 2. Here we are one month short of a one year anniversary, and I absolutely cherish the warm feelings I get from looking back on our past year spent together. It's amazing how much nostalgia you can feel for something you still possess. Our first date started a little awkward, but I definitely expected it knowing who we both were. It's strange going on a first date with someone you were once kind of close with. You think you know them, but it suddenly becomes very obvious that 4 years does a lot to a person, especially at such a young age. Here we were, two recently graduated 18 year olds, playing board games just as much as we were playing the game of life, trying to make sense of our feelings. It was a wonderfully unromantic, normal day, and then it became wonderfully romantic in the best way possible. It was rainy and cold and sooo windy, neither of us were dressed for that. We went for a downtown walk, we talked, learned about each other's new lives outside of high school. You were unexpectedly funny, I was laughing the whole time. And you were confident, you knew how to take care of me without me even realizing I needed to be taken care of. If my memory serves me right, you even held my hand that first day? I'm not sure. But you sure gave me your jacket, you paid for our activities despite my rejection, and you put your arm around me on the bus. "I could get used to this," you said. Ahh... I'll admit I was trying my best not to fall for you, because I was weary of your intentions, but let me tell you those worries disappeared once I realized how genuine your actions were. You never did anything with desperation, you just did it and I saw how happy it made you. I went to your house that first day briefly while we waited for a movie time. I met everyone in your house and your dogs, and it was so unexpected from the house I had imagined you called home. Your parents pestered you to ask me if I wanted tea, as they still do. But now they are my family in a way too and if I want tea I just make it. Then we went to the movie, a superhero comedy, and within 20 minutes there was a real good make out scene. I remember getting all nervous and then you looked at me so I looked back and you lifted my chin and kissed me for the first time ever. We held hands for the rest of the movie. That was Sunday, now it's Thursday and I meet you downtown across from your work, but neither of us know what to do so we go to my house. But it's a nice day, so we walk. The whole way. The only times I've done that have been with you, then and this past New Year's Eve, and once with my mom cause she's a fitness freak. But it was such a nice walk. That was march 17th, the day you asked me to be your girlfriend. And you literally said it just like that. We were holding hands and you lifted them while wrapping your arm around my shoulders and looked at me and said it all unflustered and I just... what the fuck. Everything in me tried to think of a way out of it, I was scared. I wasn't sure what I wanted. But (hopefully) without hesitation I agreed and smiled, relieved. That's when I knew I truly wanted it. That day I think I made you watch a kids movie. For someone who never used to watch movies I sure changed that huh? And we made out on the couch. And I think you stayed really late, like so late you missed the last bus and had to catch a cab home. That Saturday you stayed the night though, and we did the naughty. And then my mom got really mad cause she didn't know you. But it went away eventually. We really didn't waste much time getting to that point, but I kind of like that. The whole beginning of our (second) relationship was kind of urgent, as if we were trying to make up for all the time we lost. But it was far from meaningless, I needed you more than I realized and apparently you did too and it just came out in affection. After that point we started hanging out more and more, and all of the other important milestones of ours are so abundant that I can't possible recount them all. But, I have to give some, so first there's the day you told me you loved me. Actually, rewind, I forgot about my period scare. It must have been about a month or 2 after we started banging and I hadn't had my period for 3 months, but I never mentioned it to you because I didn't expect you to think about it. Then one day, with a great solitary view of the city beneath us, you confronted me about its absence. Then I came clean, understanding your investment in us finally. You then proceeded to tell me "whenever I felt like I wanted to say I love you, it would be okay" or something like that. It was ultra confusing at the time, but you later confessed that you were at that point, and you could have said it right then and there. You were trying to not make it something scary for either one of us. Those three words have powerful meaning, and no one should be embarrassed to say it. Not long after that was the actual day you said it, the SAME DAY I tried edibles for the first time. I took waaaaaay too much and completely lost my mind so guess what, I barely fucking remember that beautiful day. But what I do remember is standing on a beach at the potholes, a time seemed to be going immensely slow. I swear an entire lifetime passed, but you said it was only 20 minutes. Still, it wouldn't have been a bad lifetime. So we are talking about something and I probably look like an idiot, but you tell me you really like me. My natural response is to say the same, because I do and I can't possibly think of other words myself at this point. And then you say you might even say that you love me. I don't know what happened then but I said it back and we said other things I think. Then sometime during all those years we were there we found a rock with three pieces, so we held hands and threw one each into the river and while saying "I love you", your idea. I remember thinking where all your romantic shit was coming from, but I loved it. I think I grabbed a lot of rocks that day cause I have too many with that date written on it. I hate the fact that I was high the first time we said it, and I hate that I barely remember it, but I just started thinking that, if that's the way it went down, I might as well accept it. So in a way that high was kind of magical. I wasn't necessarily unhappy with it while we were at the beach (it got worse later when I had to talk to people) so I was able to take in absolutely everything about the scenery. The ripples in the water, the sound of pebbles under my feet, the body of a loved one near me, emanating security, the breeze... it was kind of perfect. The memory I have is like a surreal dream. An intense dream where my senses are heightened but it seems like I'm in another universe entirely where time doesn't move. I can live with that. For someone who overthinks every little detail and becomes self conscious of their actions in every interaction, I must say maybe it was good for me to have a diluted experience like this. Other things I remember are all of our nature exploration days in the summer, cuddling everywhere, having sex in some slightly risky places, sitting in your driveway while you work on your car, house sitting, finding Pokemon, snow days. There are so many qualities in you I didn't expect to find, and I'm so grateful to call you mine. Something about our relationship or my life right now has made me come full circle in a way. It seems like since we started talking again, a lot of the things I left behind in high school have resurfaced. Particularly people. But under any other circumstance it may seem unpleasant, while right now it just seems right. It's like some unfinished things are making their way back. Whether it's because I left high school in a rush, or the person I was with at the time had me isolated from everything I'm not sure, but these recurrences are helping me understand myself. It helps to revisit old people and interests sometimes, even if you thought your business was finished there. Chances are there's still a lot to learn, especially since people change so much from 16-20. Everyone I see now seems incredibly different from how I knew them, and I love seeing the transformation. There can be a kid who gets in trouble constantly and you think will never succeed, and then a couple years later they're putting away their bad habits and putting themselves through school. Well, it seems you and I certainly had unfinished business. Valentine's Day was yesterday and I just realized, it's not the first one we've spent together. That's crazy! 5 years ago we had our first and only date on Valentine's Day. So I take it back, we have had a first date, even though I wouldn't really call that a date. But damn I didn't even realize. I think forgetting is sometimes a blessing. I also have a random memory of you holding your hand out for me to cross the river on the Grade 8 camp out, when we didn't even know each other. So I don't know why I kept that memory. But then that reminded me of a dream journal entry I made also in grade 8. Before or after the camp out I'm not sure but presumably after. In my dream, I had a very intense connection to this young boy. It appeared he was my own, but I wasn't sure. His face was unmistakably yours. As if you were a 4 year old probably, it just wasn't creepy I promise. But that was one of few dreams I've had where I woke up and felt moved. It was important to me certainly. I don't have anything to explain that coincidence but it still means something. I feel something with you that I've never known before. When we were talking about our future that one time and you confessed you spend the rest of your life with me, right now. You knew it in your heart. That broke me, because I knew you meant it. You reach me on another level for sure. And when we watch the vlog together and get all mushy when he boasts about how amazing being a dad is. And when you teared up at the one where a kid with cancer got his wish to meet him... oh my. You are special. You put up such a front but I'm glad you show me behind all that that. I melted when you drove me past a particular front yard that you passed minutes earlier on your way to get me, where a dad was playing outside with his kids. You are such a softie and I love it. You have so much heart.