#the amount of anger and rage I'm trying to suppress this afternoon is phenomenal

[jedi-bird]

Mother in law called me fat today. I'm literally done helping anyone in this family ever again.

#the amount of anger and rage I'm trying to suppress this afternoon is phenomenal #i keep having to remind myself that i can't fit an old woman and that we live in the house she owns #i literally just walked away trying not to scream #but of course I'm being too sensitive because 'she's an old lady and can say whatever she wants' #like yes i know I've gained a lot of weight in the last 15 years #I've had numerous health issues some of which have bedridden me for months at a time #there's been a pandemic that kept me confined to the house #I'm on medications that all have weight gain as their top side effect #i had surgery which probably saved my life but kept be inactive for months #I'm starting to lose weight very slowly now but I'm never going to be back to what i used to be #15 years ago i was at an unhealthy weight and felt sick all the time #i was also severely anemic and used to pass out a lot #normally something like this wouldn't have hit so hard but after the dream this morning I'm in a bad place mentally #i don't know if i want to scream or cry #I'm seriously done helping and she's on her own from now on