#that on top of latent feelings of :/ wrt like my mental state and self imposed forgetfulness in that regard

[aspoopalypse]

feeling weird today probably got up too early/had a dream

#felt very disproportionate not very body-y also been lingering on a conversation with my mother that reminded me that i was abused actually #which is a weird thing to think i could forget but its like idk very hard for me to observe in aggregate even though i know it internally #and re realizing how bad it was especially compared to my siblings feels so gross and idk if thats worse #than the doubt of whether or not it was real or if thinking about it is how i lose really huh it sucks #that on top of latent feelings of :/ wrt like my mental state and self imposed forgetfulness in that regard #oh well my day got a lot better since i started typing this actually i saw the first half of the nic cage is nic cage movie with my auntie #it was very very good we were losing our shit