#that it engineered the environment the creed and the circumstances for his children's willful tragedies

[meowww-ffxiv]

Awwh the surprise reward of the newest Tataru quest is a portrait of Gaius and his dead children + the remaining one.

Meowdred who despises the ex-imperialist piece of shit and still haven't forgiven him and ALSO hates him like a twisted reflection:

#meowdred surana #he blamed the umbral calamity on Gaius #and he blamed the suffering of Eorzea in its aftermath on Gaius #and he hated Gaius for caring so much about his children yet his philosophies and teachings were so terminal & virulent #that it engineered the environment the creed and the circumstances for his children's willful tragedies #he looked at gaius and feared what he might one day become. had mordred himself not left so much destruction in his own wake? #he didn't regret having to destroy emet-selch and elidibus and the ascians to protect the world as it was now but wondered to this day #who in the future would misconstrue his efforts & victories to suit their own xenophobia and oppression and greed #he despised the idea and the testament of the person gaius was than the man himself #the man himself which mordred knew and acknowledged exist was just a man like any other #so one day he will be able to put aside the wounds. but not today #i like to think about mordred as someone who's scarred and weary but had outgrown those scar tissues rather than someone who's healed #not because he doesn't deserve to but because he's still only got the one life #and the injuries that cut so deep they reforged him and defined his background will always be there