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jameypants1-blog · 7 years

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I think I've liked it I never thought I'd have to go through getting gut checked like I've been and it's had lows but overall it was good for me. I'm a hard learner, authority doesn't work on me so gently explaining to me that I needed to change when I'm the One on the mainstage assembling all this that my select inner circle ought be clamoring to beat each other to be first to get me private and plot our revenge with a five act concert, me between four bands, I was stunned when first tr told me he saw the hell I put myself through and to fuck off used up washout I was highly offended at not only the rude insubordination but especially the cowardice I read into it. We had this if we got together and took it on the road. And after all I was offering him! Fly outta this scorched Earth dump with me VIP fucka rolling with King again give you the privilege of performing live for me cruising space for eternity and all you gotta do is grow a couple testicles and be thankful the bands back together. Instead he flat fucking punked me for NO reason, just a fraidy bitch. Closed the spiral which only a month in to my one year membership I'd spent $25 dollars to join. I gave up drug money, bc if it wasn't rent or bills it's always drug money bc that's the excelerent lights up my genius and it's for the good of the world I'm back to save it's not $25 which is nothing to me as demonstrated by the setlist I'd sent him, me to burn all the money I could get given for the cause to open my spoken word nonsense I'd pulled out my ass, a year or two later the dark Knight came out and there was joker burning my pile of cash blatant theft which actually flattered except how skewed it was as if it were an act of chaos and it wasn't it was to be liberating, everyone in crowd burn theirs with me and later I was gonna let him close the show and burn the biggest American flag ever knit as backdrop to head like hole, the ingratitude! Hot after he closed the spiral and gave me the slip for free, stealing my $25 bc I had 11 more months of talking to girls and arguing with athiests on his shitty threads he married his wife and called her dariqueen and threatened to kick his ass and fuck him anyway I got this not long after found myself even angrier at mm bc that bitch ass motherfucker was on an awards show I was watch for dio bescheeing everyone to rally around Damien echols and friends who were wrongly convicted of murdering three 8 or 9yo boys bc they were metal kids when clearly they had done it sure their trial was a railroad but in a more urban area where the lawyers and jury wouldn't have been so lynching with the evidence they had, ie damien and his nitwits speaking aloud, Damien writing alistar Crowley love letters in his cell, that I'd recognized it and he did too so if we ever crossed paths best have his wallet, purse that is, handy bc I was getting my money back for albums concerts shirts lighters keychains one way or the skull fucking other,. I was MAD. How dare he champion child murderers to be let out of prison. Teen or 80 he went through with something that was a real red flag, sat in court explaining to the judge that Crowley said child blood magic was Power sure he'd read it but didn't see why that pertained to him being involved in the mutilations and sexual violations he stood falsly accused of. Found the guiltiest child killer he could find and him and his dipshit cosponsers bought them out of prison. It was Astonishing. Makes lots more sense now, lot of things do but between those two fuckers tr and mm I was really enraged, Yahoo shut down my email account over it and so what I hadn't really listened to his half assed albums in a long time anyway, tr was the thunder he was always tr light and after he got Antichrist superstar handed to him, nin album with him croaking and wheezing singing then bailing, id lost respect so this echols thing him and Depp did well fuck em, and I understand now and I hope Damien and his friends are doing well, the pain and trauma they've experienced I pray is healed and they do deserve forgiveness. This fucking world is run by ghouls destroy three young boys as part of dinner party entertainment and I was mad bc I'd almost done something murder ritual planned in my teens with two friends too. I used to think it was obscene to let him out, other children be subject to being killed by him he'd done it before and do it again was my thinking. No he won't. Sorry about how I came after him, really illustrates how unformed I was, fucking stunted by anticipation of how much fun was ahead condemning the world for letting the evil elite make murdering whores out of them and back then I still didn't know the half of it, didn't know how deeply steeped in black magic they are thought they were just cruel as sport. When I heard, really listened and focused on the lyrics that was it pretty much, dw on my ass like that way different than tr or mm, dw is father figure magnet my band, I'd grown from magnet like a child does being parented and the music was straight to me, early on it used to make me wonder if I had Manson madness like his Beatles thing and I reckon the correlation is valid except I wasn't Manson it was really me had too much confirmation, tr confirmed it even by rejecting me, mm too. But when daddy renounced me whole other reaction, he'd guided me through my life I really cracked, and I guess bc I am a hard learner thats what it took to make me question myself in ways no one else was going to penetrate, even you s didn't wound me like bc well you're a gov hooker and it was just like fuck im up against more than I'd been expecting with her, I was HURT but consoled myself she's tainted I'll find a way with her, it was like s is fucked up not me I'll rescue her asap however I can. Titan who cried like a baby fucking devestation. Then Mastermind after a yearish into listening to I finally caught the lyric hey baby focus I'm talking to you, and there was daddy again spanking the living shit out of me, I soon discovered the Lord's Hotel is the homeless shelter in eugene, SMILE JESUS LOVES YOU in ten foot tall letters over the doors. And by then I was fucking despondent, how did this happen why I laid so low I marveled. It took a lot to knock the shit for brains self superiority out of me. You have stuck it out and here I am, pain and trauma rehabilitating good boy, not an undeserving jerk, not full of shit and self importance. S I'm in your hands and I'm yours, please let's get private now.

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