#ten does contain 95% of the insanities but also i think martha being a doctor-in-training and driven by helping and saving people

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i feel like ten and martha's friendship is kind of doomed from the start because like. ten kind of needs a friend to be around him lest he go insane (even if he's in semi denial about it). and martha likes and admires him in return. and they both inherently trust and rely each other, because how could they not. but also ten is very much not in a great place at all. he just lost rose and refuses to talk about her with anyone. the guilt is eating him alive and he's trying so hard to ignore it and it's resulting in him becoming more and more reckless and self-sacrificing. and he (unintentionally) puts it all on martha. he trusts her to save him and he also trusts her to sacrifice him in the name of saving people. and at the same time every time he finds himself getting closer to or more vulnerable with her he stops and pushes her away (see: his guilt over rose). and that is so unfair. that is so much to put on one person, especially someone that is in a spot of mutual care and trust. like i wish martha had met ten when he was more stable/healthy/not haunted by his extremely fresh grief but she didn't, and i think they will save each other over and over until one of them comes apart at the seams. basically

#dr who #ten and martha #if my post ends up getting proved wrong or something with the later episodes ill rb this saying 'well i was a clown' #but like atp it's like they are toxic doomed friendship to me. and it's insane #ten does contain 95% of the insanities but also i think martha being a doctor-in-training and driven by helping and saving people #and here's a guy that simultaneously needs saving all the time but also refuses to be saved in the ways that matter. #is definitely contributing to the insanity. #idk. i'm crazy. #there are some very strong issues w how martha is written or treated by the narrative esp in th shakespeare ep #but i think at their core their dynamic is so crunchy . if doomed and set to explode #10 era