#sorry for the repetitive he but it would be messy if i interchanged pronouns

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Crowley is alone

Watching the ending of good omens s2 made me heartbroken in a way that few shows did before (and I'm a supernatural, Sherlock, criminal minds girlie so that's like a lot) and I'm going to tell you why.

Crowley is alone, completely alone again, after centuries. And it could've been fine before the whole Job thing because he didn't know what it was like to have a friend and you cannot miss something you don't know.

But Crowley knows now. He was cursed with knowledge, since the beginning, Crowley IS the curse of knowledge. And he knows it.

Crowley knows what it's like to have dinner with someone, to work with someone, to trust someone, to have someone. And that someone was Aziraphale, who choose Heaven over them.

The thing he always tried to protect Aziraphale from wasn't heaven or hell. It was knowledge. Because Crowley thinks (and it's a substantiated theory) that knowledge is a curse.

That one of his fundamental traits, (the reason why he fell, the reason why he is always on his own side, the reason why he acts the way he does and hides the way he feels and thinks) is the core reason why he will always be alone, and the reason why it will always hurt to be alone.

because Crowley knew what was like to have someone, and now he has to learn to live alone again.

#good omens #good omens 2 #oh lord give me mercy #and by lord i mean my mind #and maybe Neil gaiman #crowley #crowley good omens #Crowley is alone and i wanna die #sorry for the repetitive he but it would be messy if i interchanged pronouns #neil gaiman #Neil gaiman we will have a talk