#sorry for the agression I just feel like I'm constantly out of the loop or that people are always talking in places I can't see/hear them

[negativepeanuthoarder]

No, anon, I didn't FUCKING KNOW. I don't stalk people's social media, I almost exclusively use Tumblr, I was under the impression that nothing had changed. No one in this god-forsaken fandom tells me fucking anything and I either have to figure things out on my own or look like a fucking moron asking people. So no. I didn't know.

#sorry for the agression I just feel like I'm constantly out of the loop or that people are always talking in places I can't see/hear them #I have two twt accs I barely use; my ao3; and one (1) discord server #and I KNOW everyone has other places they talk about things in which is FINE I don't have to be a part of everything all the time #but I'm fucking terrified that I DID something and that's why it feels like I'm always on the outskirts or left out of stuff. like I made a #comment here or there and that's why someone blocked me or I was a little too insufferable and that's why someone hasn't been showing up in #my notes or maybe I'm too angry and aggressive and mean and that's why I can't be in discord servers. Maybe that's it. Maybe I'm too much #which fucking SUCKS because I've NEVER felt comfortable doing anything as myself but the minute I do it feels like everyone disappears #whatever I guess I'll go write smut for attention or something #discourse #vent #to be deleted