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Hi I love your OC’s characters (sorry I’m not full up to date with the characters mental health) were one of the characters has a panic attack (with dizziness, nausea,headache ect) and there parter takes care of them. I’m writing this request just after I had a panic attack. (sorry for any grammar/spelling mistakes.)

thanks for the request anon, I hope you’re okay!! Several of my characters have panic attacks: Zayn occasionally, although not very often now (more so when he was younger), Kaiser is pretty easily freaked out, Tayden suffers from PTSD which gives him a different form of panic attacks than what most people have, Nathan has them sometimes as well, especially when waking up from nightmares.

I have another request for Tay and Juli, and I write a lot of Nath already, so I’m gonna do this one for Kaiser.

TW: depictions of vomit and panic attacks

Also, disclaimer: everyone experiences panic attacks differently. So this fic is a representation of one way that a panic attack can manifest itself. If you experience them differently that’s totally okay I’m not trying to invalidate anyone or anything, it’s just something that depends on the person. But i’m not trying to offend anyone or say that this is the only way that they go.

Jackson should’ve known that going to the fair was a bad idea. Roller coasters made him super sick, Kaiser’s stomach was too sensitive to eat anything they sold at them, and Kaiser hated crowds of people.

In hindsight, Jackson realized, this had been an incredibly stupid decision. But all their friends had wanted to go. It had been Hazel’s idea, which Zayn and Julius had automatically been excited about since they love riding the coasters, so Andrew and Tayden were automatically included as well. So Jackson and Kaiser had agreed to go too, because they didn’t all get to hang out that often.

But now here they were. Jackson had thrown up after the first ride he’d done with Kaiser and Hazel. A few more rides had Zayn heaving up his guts and Nathan looking pretty green as well. Tayden and Jules had wondered off on their own to avoid the puking, for Tayden’s sake.

To make matters worse, the park had filled up immensely since they’d arrived. The sidewalks were packed and the lines were miles long. They’d decided to head back towards the entrance to find something to eat, but they were having to fight the crowd to get through.

“Jaz?” Kaiser said, leaning close to Jackson.

“We’re almost there babe, just hang on,” Jackson said, squeezing Kaiser’s hand, which was white-knuckled gripping his own.

“Hazel how much farther?” he called up to where Nathan and Hazel were pushing through the mobs of people.

“I’m not sure,” she called over her shoulder, narrowly avoiding an elbow to the face from a passing couple. This was crazy.

“I can’t- get me out of here!” Kaiser cried, voice breaking.

“Alright, alright, get behind me,” Jackson pulled his boyfriend behind him, reaching back to place a hand on his waist, “Hold on to me and close your eyes,” he instructed.

Kaiser grabbed onto Jackson’s shirt with one hand, placing his other one on his shoulder. Jackson did his best to hold onto Kaiser and navigate the crowd at the same time, but he was losing their friends, getting farther behind as he was shoved by passing people.

The jerking motions and the summer heat were making him feel nauseous all over again and he could hear Kaiser’s erratic breathing from behind him. They needed to get out of here, now.

“Hey Andrew!” Jackson yelled to the closest person to them.

Andrew turned around, “You guys alright back there?”

“No,” Jackson shook his head, coming to a stop when Kaiser stumbled behind him, falling against Jackson’s back. He quickly spun around to catch him as he let out a sob.

“Woah, shit, what’s going on?” Andrew asked, shoving his way over to them.

“Jaz, my head, ahg,” Kaiser cried, eyes squeezed tightly shut with tears pouring down his cheeks. Jackson held him against his chest, shielding him from the crowd.

“He’s having a panic attack. Claustrophobic,” Jackson explained.

“Alright, you’re okay buddy just keep your eyes closed,” Andrew said, moving to stand beside Jackson to block him from anyone passing on his other side.

“We have to get him out of here,” Jackson said.

“I can’t breath-” Kaiser slumped forwards against Jackson’s chest, his legs giving out from under him as the world spun. His head pounded and spun and he felt like his chest was being compressed. There were so many people, too many. Too many.

“Kaiser, it’s Andrew. I’m gonna help Jackson get you out of here, is it alright if I touch you?” Andrew asked. He’d helped Zayn through a panic attack or two so he knew it was important to ask before doing anything.

“Mmhm,” Kaiser groaned out a sound that sounded enough like an affirmation for Andrew. He grabbed Kaiser’s wrist and pulled his arm around his shoulders to prop him up. Jackson caught on quickly and did the same so he was supported between them.

“Alright, eyes closed baby, we’ve got you,” Jackson said as they began to walk.

They both had to lean over, since Kaiser was shorter than them, but they were able to turn their bodies inward slightly to shield him from the swarm of people opposing them. With both of them helping, they were able to shove their way through the crowd and to the entrance of the park. They didn’t stop until they were in the parking lot, away from all the people.

Jackson would’ve taken him straight to the car, but Kaiser started tugging his arms away from them. “I’m gonna throw up,” he gasped, pitching forwards to vomit onto the concrete. He would’ve fallen face first into the mess if Jackson hadn’t grabbed him around the waist. Kaiser’s head was still spinning from the lack of oxygen.

“You’re okay, it’s over now. It’s just us,” Jackson said softly, trying to reassure him.

Jackson helped Kaiser straighten up once he was finished being sick, then gently led him to the curb and helped him sit. He slumped over, head between his knees as his vision swam. Jackson and Andrew sat on either side of him, a hand on his back.

“Just focus on breathing Kai, we’ve got you, you’re safe,” Jackson said quietly.

Andrew had texted their friends to let them know what was happening, so they were shortly joined by the rest of the group. Tayden and Julius kept their distance, since Jackson and Kaiser had now both been sick today, but everyone else gathered around in worry. Andrew shooed them all away though, not wanting to crowd the boy again.

“You ready to head home baby?” Jackson asked when Kaiser sat up and leaned against his shoulder.

“Yeah,” he mumbled sadly, wiping at the tears on his cheeks.

“It’s okay,” Jackson said, reaching over to wipe the tears away himself. Then he stood up, offering his hands to Kaiser, helping him up to his feet. He kept a hand around his waist, not sure how steady he was, as they walked back to their cars.

“I hate the fair,” Kaiser mumbled, rubbing his stomach, which still felt a little shook up.

“We don’t ever have to go to another fair again,” Jackson chuckled lightly, rubbing at his own stomach, which was slightly upset again after watching his boyfriend throw up. They’d never make this mistake again.

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