#sorry for going on a tangent I keep seeing their url in my dms with the deactivated thing and it makes me :’)

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#random post #ough head is very feeling today hgkg #I should have <3 been screenshotting <3 nice tags in my art <3 as I got them <3 #it’s been a passing thought in my mind for like the past month cus one of my mutuals deleted their whole blog and so now #the only way I can see their drawings now are if me (or someone I know) has reblogged em and das so sad </3 #I liked seeing it on THEIR blogs man.. ye it’s more that one guy that’s been lost to the fog fsvsbd #I’m totally NOT sad about it NOR am I sad about never seeing the nice things they said ever again </3 not sad absolutely not sad about it #I experienced it in the moment and loved it as it happened I totally did not nor do I continue too #go thru my entire art tag just to read the nice things people say #like I’m reading the daily paper nope. I’m not addicted to it I like it a normal amount and in moderation #I still remember what they said anyways it’s not like I’ll ever forget but also what if I do haha noo #my brain wouldn’t do that to me 👉👈 it’s too sexy and smart and has many neurons and connections and wrinkles #sorry for going on a tangent I keep seeing their url in my dms with the deactivated thing and it makes me :’) #there’s so many.. friends lost to time I suppose #at least they’re not (to my knowledge) ACTUALLY dead cus that would be FUCKED but yea I haven’t drawn not a damn thing #as this has haunted my thoughts the thoughts of old online friends </3 #I hope they know I loved them. that I still do in a sense #ough I think my adderall wore off I am. seven hours have passed 👀 #ok ok I’m done writing about my weird nostalgia feelings I’ll be fine I won’t die I literally remember everything even if it’s from 3 years #ago at this point <3 that’s just how often I looked at it GANABSNDK