#so theyre frustrated and pissed off with themself and uh

[du-hjarta-skulblaka]

One day. One fuckin day without something.

#Alfie's insomnia is flaring up #so theyre absolutly exhausted but are gettibg maybe. 3-4 hours sleep at a time every couple days #so theyre frustrated and pissed off with themself and uh #tbh occurring to me for the first time that hyperempathy is involuntarily #because they get upset and then i get upset which makes *them* more upset and on and on and on #bc i cant fucking stop myself from crying when i feel something #or freezing up or going nonverbal #theyre getting angry at me for trying to hude emotions but like! they arent mine! #i hate myself because i csnt just be normal for 5 fuckin minutes #3 times now theyve come to bed only to get pissed off and get back up again while i just. sit here and sob #its fucking pathetic