#so our current unit is like family/concept of the smerican dream

[bubbled-clouds]

i hate what my english class is doing rn.

#this id a vent #so our current unit is like family/concept of the smerican dream #and the problem i have with it. is that it literally had been contributing to me having more nightmares Regarding my family issues :’) #i had a rlly bad one last night (not bc of the english unit) and i’ve had others recently before Bc of our unit #and its like !!! make it stop !!! #bc those nightmares are relatively realistic and i Never realize theyre a dream until i wake uo with my heart beating so fast 😭😭 #and we’re currently watching the death of a salesman and- #its. so. :( bc the family dynamic and the dialougue is VERBATIM what i have experienced /neg #so it’s just making me relive all this shit i have No intentions of even *touching* and that’s js gunna lead to more bad nightmares :( #i feel very frustrated and sad bc of this. it is disheartening seeing my family dynamic kinda replicated and having to watch it #WHILST LIVING IN IT!!!! #it is my Reality !!!! i dont want to consume this type of media when i am surrounded by it !!!! #agh #english fucking me up fr #my teacher is amazing but this family unit And analyzing the concept of the american dream as Well??? literally a double fucking whammy #i feel like it’s just. contributing to me regressing too bc now that i confront this as school as well its just making it harder to ignore #and not? absorb?? #but yeah #bee vents #i needed my thoughts to escape 👍👍