#so much casual dean criticism is predicated on ignoring everything from his perspective and well. that shit hurts.

[monstermoviedean]

listen season 6 dean takes a lot of shit for how he treats cas and i'm not disagreeing with that. it sucks the way he treats cas. however most of the conversation is "dean sucks" and well. shocking i know but i'm not good with that.

dean has spent the last year isolating himself to try and fulfill sam's dying wish of him living the apple pie life. bobby is the most stable support person in his life, and they cut each other off so dean could "get out." similar situation with cas - they both cut each other off. dean because he thinks he has to quit everything from his old life "cold turkey" and because he thinks cas has better things to do than talk to him, and cas because he does genuinely have work to do and because he probably takes a cue from dean and bobby distancing themselves from each other. if dean has any other friends (and that's a big if), he cuts them off too. he throws himself entirely into this new role with lisa and thinks no one will miss him.

and then sam is back and everything comes back with him. and dean wants to go back to hunting but he's afraid he's rusty or won't be good at it. but wanting to go back also makes it impossible to commit to the apple pie life. so now he's screwing up both his old life and his new life. no one seems to have missed him. he feels like a burden to everyone around him. this is all to say that in season 6 dean feels like he has fucked up every good thing that has ever happened to him. he broke his old life. he broke his new life. he's trying to repair his old relationships but it only seems to make them worse. he has no one to talk to about any of this. bobby calls him selfish when he asks for help (the request is badly timed but it's still valid for him to ask for help).

so when cas only shows up sporadically and reluctantly and talks about how busy he is, dean hears what he's hearing from everyone else in his life: not "i am too busy," but "i am too busy for you." cas doesn't know this. cas is genuinely busy. it's not his fault. but it comes across to dean that he is losing yet another person he cares about. the only relationship he didn't completely fuck up. so what does he do? he pushes cas away. better to get it over with now than to fool himself into thinking someone will stick around for him.

the whole point here is that dean WAS there. he wanted to be there for cas but he thought cas didn't need him. he wanted his best friend but didn't know how to ask for help. he had no idea cas was watching him rake leaves. neither of them ever knew but they were right there for each other all along.

#so much casual dean criticism is predicated on ignoring everything from his perspective and well. that shit hurts. #yeah he does some fucked up stuff but like. look at his life. look at all the shit that is happening to him. #look at how little support he has and how he gets treated when he asks for it. #spn #i'm leaving this long. fuck it. read it or scroll it but please for the love of god. be nice to my boy.