#so i guess im just going to force myself to go numb for the 80th fucking time this month

[grrrrrrrbarkbarkbark]

MOTHERFUCKER.

#you KNOW im autistic and unless told directly wont do something #so of course i only grabbed my nesscities from the box yoy worded taking the whole box upstairs as a fucking light suggestion #and for your fucking info i did rmember that comversation and went 'oh she probably wanted all of it up here. e #IT WASALREADY FYCKING MIDNIGHT when that thiught fucking processed and i had no reasom to fucking think i wasbeing selfish by leaving it dow #nstairs! and now my brain is fucking screaming at me again to hide in my room for another fucking week and do the bare fucking minimum to #survive but your going to fucking call that 'hiding' and 'not beingable to take critisism' and fucking 'acting like a child' #so i guess im just going to force myself to go numb for the 80th fucking time this month #and try not to get drunk about it because itsgettong to the point were thats the only way i can shut down and still come back up easy enough #vent tw