#so hopefully ill just get to summarize it to sb

[interstellarbookofflowers]

happy points for yesterday and today (more will be added)

I PASSED MY EXAM!! it was so long, bro was pretty much grilling me for nearly an hour and a half (idk time every time i estimate sth different but it was Long), BUT IM FREE

i met up with my friend from hs n we had a great time together! we went to the bookshop and i bought some adorable stickers

i already managed to make gf bread today which im very proud of! the flour is shit tho so its like eh meh (but it tastes ok!)

my plans for today are being unhinged and doing shit i enjoy for once! mostly i wanna journal and set up my new bujo and then watch something nice heheh

#mine #happy points #im so numb tho #like its not sinking in how awful it was #i have a therapy session tomorrow - with a random lady not my regular therapist #so hopefully ill just get to summarize it to sb #cuz like im still like wow this is a person i trusted how could he do that to me #like on one hand i finally know im not insane - bros i rlly thought i was making shit up when i felt like some shit was not ok #and it turned out that he messed with my head so much that i overlooked the bad shit and devalued my own thoughts and feelings #insane huh #but on the other hand i dont feel much and idk why? #like im still waiting for some sort of an emotional explosion where ill just have a full breakdown #but also - maybe i feel nothing cuz i finally am like yea this was a ride im not crazy #maybe in my head im like yea a lot of it was fake anyway so idc #idk man #im sorta a lil sad i lost a friend #but im done trying to fix shit. its his fight now.