#so funnie that im going to have to bring this up next therapy sesh and shes gonna go. this is a traumatic event that we should probably

[dragonji]

being a student is always going so well until it Isn't .

#j.txt #vent #think i am going to drop this class that ive already had to put myself through and fallen short on twice. round three is looking Bad folks👍 #I genuinely just. do not know what I am supposed to do anymore. it always seems like I understand the material and have vision of what- #I want to produce and then I go to execute and Bam. severe demand avoidance hit you like a knife in the ribs #I am simply So Tired of it. hitting my head against walls. being told I need to “experiment” without any explanation. having resources #offered and then never followed up upon. advice of I just need to buckle down and do it.being unmedicated lol. it's just Too Fucking Much<3 #like its to a point that I am seriously and desperately considering changing my entire major. Over One Single Class. but I dont Want to not #be an artist it's the best thing I've ever been and I Know im good at it. just not. this part I suppose. #so funnie that im going to have to bring this up next therapy sesh and shes gonna go. this is a traumatic event that we should probably #deal with. like no yeah I realize trauma is for when things actually hurt you and this situation is so frustrating i could *** #but it definitely doesnt count because it's Me so yknow. we can just pack it up now and Not deal with it for yet another semester maybe<3 #but like Whatever. academia is what you get out of it and all that and if nothing else we have tenacity etc etc o7