#so fun to think about how deeply vel was shaped by her upbringing in either scenario

[fellhellion]

The Durge Vel thoughts got me acting unwise

#oughhhhhh going insane rn <- still in act 1 for her (grimforge) #it makes me sossosos insane oh my god #so fun to think about how deeply vel was shaped by her upbringing in either scenario #and how being robbed of memories affects that now #RAGGHHGGHGH <- explodes #also obsessed w the way she’s *more* honest right now because the lack of self preservation doesn’t quite carry the *same* thread of #arrogance (as a sorcerer tho she’s still arrogant lol) #makes me crazy insane #also like. not to make it abt sex but makes me crazy insane to think abt how vel would’ve experienced a pleasure seperate to that from #killing #granted - pleasure disassociated from Bhaal’s influence is core to like. all of the friendships she builds #but given murder under Bhaal’s thrall is likened to ecstasy I think the comparison isn’t unwarranted #also just. RAGGGGH gives you such a good connection to the antagonist trio #like damn we can give more of a personal fuck abt Ketheric now lmao #tunes talks bg