#so even if every other factor aligned i think that would frankly be a barrier

[trans-cuchulainn]

i think i might be experiencing an attraction and it's very strange to me because i think it's the first time irl that i've been drawn to someone's looks while finding nearly everything else about them unattractive

#he's a very appealing-looking young man. he's just also hella disorganised in a way that stresses me tf out #and also 5 years younger than me and like. I'm old enough now that it's not inherently Problematic™ #but the maturity gap between 'just turned 22 and still essentially in undergrad' #vs 'will be 28 in 4 months and has had multiple grown-up jobs and is going to do a phd' is... noticeable at times #so even if every other factor aligned i think that would frankly be a barrier #but the other factors do not align #he just. has long curly red hair and looks like a medieval hero to me. that's all. I'll get over it lmao #22 last week... it's too young for me. even if everyone here thinks we're the same age or I'm younger #the looks when they find out I'm 27 i stg #personal