#smth like his perserverence is what keeps getting him back on the bull every time he hits the ground because he knows what he wants and he

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i wish brokeback mountain fics entertained the idea that jack knocked lureen up and thats why they got married more often

cause in the short story jack mentions the fact that he'd never wanted kids or anything like that, so i think its highly plausible that bad luck jack, whos life never seems to go the way he wants it to, would fool around with some rodeo queen one night and he winds up getting her pregnant. and what else can he do but marry her? he's been taught to do the respectable thing, and her daddy would probably find and gut him if he sullied his little girl's reputation and left her to deal w it on her own anyways.

but i just think it would add an extra layer of sadness to it all...the idea that jack, whos pretty much only interested in men, probably only messed around with lureen because he was pent up and lonely and sexually frustrated, and heres this beautiful, rich rodeo cowgirl whos giving this poor ranch boy the eyes and making him feel wanted for once in his sorry godamn life. making him feel like someone sees something worthwhile about him. he doesn't prefer a woman, but he's desperate, and she chose him. she could've had her pick of the bar because shes a big deal and any man would've been lucky to have her, but she chose him.

and now this thing—that was supposed to just be a quick fuck in the backseat of her car to help quell the need for human contact until the next motel cowboy came along—is going to define his entire life.

hes going to do right by her and get married. shes going to have his kid. hes going to be a dad.

his whole life has been laid out before him and the one time he said fuck it and had sex with a woman is all it took for everything to be set in stone. its just so. fucking. sad.

#i think jack is such a sad character #a lot of fics lean into this idea of his endless optimism driving him to think that things could really go his way if he tried hard enough #despite getting the short end of the stick time and time again and its just like. ughhhh its just so heart breaking #i forget where i read this descriptiom at but it said #smth like his perserverence is what keeps getting him back on the bull every time he hits the ground because he knows what he wants and he #believes that if he just keeps trying he can wrangle life and make it bend to his will #and its just like :( like life just delt that boy such an unfair hand and he still didnt bend to it. he still felt like things could still #go his way till the very end. i feel like his hope may have wavered for awhile there after he mistook ennis' divorce for the sign that they #were finally gonna start a life together #but finally after his final meeting w ennis he just realized he was holding onto a lost cause and finally said fuck it. im gonna take life #into my own hands and im gonna try and get his new guy to come up with me and maybe it wont be the guy that i really want but maybe #i can grow to love him and finally stop living this half life. and just as hes about to try and make that happen he dies #guhhhhhhh #still brokeback posting #brokeback mountain