#siyu uq-nãra

[themuseoftheviolets]

the fact that siyu is the sister that becomes the berethnets protector at the end of adofn is actually perfect – they both went through extremely traumatic and unfair situations as teenagers, and neither received so much as an apology for what was done to them. it means so much to me that siyu can be there to help glorian, and i hope that they can eventually become close and that glorian can help siyu in return

their storylines have a lot of parallels, but the biggest one to me is that their daughters will end up following in their footsteps and repeating the same cycle that has hurt them both so much

being a sister of the priory and being a berethnet of course are very different situations, but sabran and lukiri will both grow up in the same places their mothers did, with the same expectations placed upon them

and while i like that siyu was able to leave the priory and hopefully heal elsewhere, that doesn't change the fact that the priory is still the same and that the same things she went through can happen to her daughter

and while glorian is finally free now and her body is hers, her daughter has taken her place as the chain upon the nameless one, and will have to marry and have a child no matter what just like glorian did

#the Cycles man. the fucking cycles #adofn #a day of fallen night #glorian shieldheart #siyu uq-nãra

[brbarou]

adofn dump...i just really love this book ok

#a day of fallen night #adofn #the roots of chaos #art #fanart #tunuva melim #esbar du apaya uq-nãra #siyu du tunuva uq-nãra #canthe (adofn) #wulfert glenn #samantha shannon #books

[themuseoftheviolets]

both characters in the books and readers of it have this view of the different places in the roots of chaos world that i find to be really black and white and also not accurate

characters like ead, tunuva and esbar (at least in the beginning and sometimes even at the end) as well as some readers view virtudom as bad and the rest of the world as good, and the priory as the best place to live in, but it's more complex than that

the problem of being forced to marry and have children that we see with both sabran ix and glorian can also be seen with dumai, who is not from virtudom but rather from seiiki. everything that the berethnets are forced to go through also happens to every royal in the world, no matter what country they're from. to quote glorian in chapter 95: "She saw the cruel truth of it now. The relentless, violent circle of monarchy."

yes, virtudom is bad, but it's not the only place that has these issues

and the priory is far from perfect. in tpotot they kidnap and drug loth, refusing to ever have him leave just because he found out about them

and in adofn siyu's treatment by the priory is horrendous, and she never received so much as an apology for all that she was forced to endure as a teenager. i've made several posts about that already, which you can find in my siyu tag, and i will forever be angry about how she was treated

(also, sidenote, the priory prides itself in knowing the truth about galian while virtudom believes a lie but even they don't know the whole truth about him, cleolind, neporo and kalyba)

the priory needs some serious reform, just like virtudom and the rest of the world does

#again i feel like there was more i wanted to say but. well i am tired #siyu uq-nãra #<- if you want to see the siyu posts #adofn #tpotot #roc #a day of fallen night #the priory of the orange tree #the roots of chaos

[themuseoftheviolets]

i actually cannot be normal about siyu, esbar and tuva. the way the priory works when it comes to parenting is insane. esbar is siyu's birthmother, but she can't act like a mom. especially because she's the munguna. she can't give siyu special treatment, so she doesn't give her any treatment that isn't punishment, because she doesn't want to seem biased. as the future prioress, she's supposed to treat all the brothers and sisters the same.

tuva is basically siyu's godmother, and because she's not her birthmother she can advocate for her more than esbar can, she can leave the priory to go after siyu when she runs away, she can treat her like a daughter even though she says that siyu is her sister, just like all the women in the priory are her sisters.

tuva also can't help but see siyu as a stand in for the child she lost, and in a way siyu must see tuva as a stand in for her own mother. and it's all so complicated due to the way the priory operates. i like the non traditional way the priory looks at family and builds it's bloodlines, and i think it's really interesting to explore, but it also makes it nearly impossible to actually have a family.

#siyu uq-nãra #tunuva melim #esbar uq-nãra #adofn #a day of fallen night

[themuseoftheviolets]

somewhere deep in the back of my mind there is an essay about how siyu is one of the most mistreated and tragic characters in adofn and about how her story parallels glorian's and about how perfect it is that siyu ends up in inys as the berethnet's protector and the conversation that they have at the end of the book

#i need to reread adofn i need to brainrot about siyu and glorian again #siyu uq-nãra #glorian shieldheart #adofn

[themuseoftheviolets]

i will never shut up about how horrible the priory can be. siyu has been so extremely mistreated by everyone around her, every adult in her life (including tunuva) has failed her, and she doesn't even get a fucking apology. all she gets is being blamed for the death of her ichneumon, her baby's father and his family.

esbar blames every bad thing that happened on siyu running away but never acknowledges the reasons why she ran. she (and tunuva) are so blind to all of the priory's faults it's actually frustrating to read.

siyu was forced into isolation throughout most of her pregnancy, not being allowed to see a single person. the priory murdered her baby's father and esbar and tuva tried to cover up and hide his death from her. she has known nothing but pain and suffering in that place, is it really a surprise that she ran away again? that she chose to go to anyso's family instead of staying with her own?

she has gone through so much trauma and yet here is esbar, her fucking birthmother, blaming it all on her. siyu has to apologize to them but they don't have to apologize to her? so much for the priory being a 'loving family'.

#siyu uq-nãra #esbar uq-nãra #tunuva melim #adofn #a day of fallen night #the priory of the orange tree

[themuseoftheviolets]

something so powerful and important about siyu naming her daughter lukiri du siyu rather than giving her the name of another sister

#'you may give her two names [...] one for herself and one to guide her' yeah. yeah i get why she gave lukiri her own name #after everything the priory put her through #i sure as hell wouldn't have trusted anyone else in there to guide my child #especially in a community where birthmothers aren’t supposed to be like. mothers to their kids and the kid is raised by everyone. #which is the main 'thing' with siyu and esbar's relationship #a sister isn't supposed to show favor to her birthdaughter. especially a munguna or prioress. which is the main issue with siyu and esbar #which seems like a whole other can of worms but its really not when you think about it. once again parenting is the most interesting part of #the priory. and the most fucked up as well. despite how much i love unconventional families like that needs reform #siyu uq-nãra #adofn #a day of fallen night

[themuseoftheviolets]

actually the priory is a cage. they can't leave without the prioress say so, they can't be seen by or interect with people from the outside. esbar wanted to kill siyu's baby's father, and she's surprised siyu ran away? 'if she were older, i might listen' she's seventeen and pregnant. i think she should get a say in her own life actually

#siyu uq-nãra #esbar uq-nãra #tunuva melim #adofn

[themuseoftheviolets]

just read the chapter where siyu gives birth

#i am. mentally and emotionally wrecked #siyu uq-nãra #adofn

[themuseoftheviolets]

and don't even get me started on how siyu rebelled against the priory by having an affair with and getting pregnant by an outsider, and that affair being the reason he was killed. and then when she runs away after that trauma her ichneumon is kidnapped and forced into a fighting ring and then later dies saving her. not to mention her baby's father's family being murdered by the dragons after she goes to seek shelter with them and then going back to fight a war. like. the amount of grief and guilt siyu has inside of her is insane

#she deserves so much better #siyu uq-nãra #adofn

[themuseoftheviolets]

that fact that siyu was not a pov character is one of the biggest missed opportunities in adofn actually. like. her growing up not taking the priory's work seriously alongside some of her generation because its been 500 years without dragons to fight and despising being trapped in the priory and wanting to escape and running away so many times because of the amount of mistreatment and psychological torture she endures in the priory, to going back during the great sorrow because thats the only way she has of fighting. siyu wanting to help fight the dragons but the only way to do that is to go back to the place that has caused her so much pain and suffering and seeking forgiveness and trying to do the right thing and never even getting an apology. loving the mother but hating the place she created.

this would have hit SO HARD when compared to tuva's povs (a woman who wholeheartedly believes in the priory and its mission) and wulf's (who was stolen from the priory as a baby and finds the missing pieces of himself and a family there while siyu loses hers (esbar is the munguna first and siyu's birthmother second, and has distanced herself from siyu because of this; her baby's father is murdered in the priory by one of her sisters))

doing a time jump instead of showing wulf's time in the priory is another big missed opportunity too, like. i wanted to see him and siyu getting to know each other and forming a bond, but also what siyu would have felt towards him in the beginning considering that tuva was basically a mother figure to siyu, and seeing tuva become close to wulf when esbar was pulling away from her must have hurt

#smth smth the need for reform in the priory smth smth #not quite the essay i mentioned but i can't stop thinking about her now #i deserve a siyu pov in wild winter #pls samantha i'm begging #siyu uq-nãra #adofn

[themuseoftheviolets]

THE SCREAM I JUST SCRUMPT PLEASE I NEED SIYU AS A POV CHARACTER SO BAD

#adofn #wild winter #siyu uq-nãra

[themuseoftheviolets]

not esbar blaming the deaths of lalhar and anyso's family on siyu running away. why do you think she ran in the first place?

#sick and tired of siyu being treated horribly by the priory and being blamed for every bad thing that happens #justice for my girl #siyu uq-nãra #esbar uq-nãra #adofn #a day of fallen night

[themuseoftheviolets]

i've reached the first time siyu runs away from the priory and i could never blame her for it. she's seventeen and pregnant, and her birthmother and godmother are literally planning on killing her baby's father to protect their secret. and then esbar wonders why siyu doesn't love the priory like they do

#my poor baby #siyu uq-nãra #adofn