#she's MAD at uoser!!! that he would imply she doesn't care about the lives of the people in barlock's rest and has no qualms

[guidingsbolt]

i think fen's relationship with uoser is crazy... she really respects him and wants his respect in turn but hates that she had to rely on him to help max instead of being able to handle it herself and she hates that he's sick and she can't help and she's balancing a desire to make things right with him and following through on all her promises she made to her little group and herself and her party whom she likes and trusts and respects and doing the best she can to help people while knowing captial chews you up and forces you to make extremely hard choices where no one wins but she knows as long as she's still standing she has the means to help someone else. and she's angry that he doesn't seem to see any of that in her intentions and is just disappointed in her. headinhands.

#he's literally right that it's bad so many people are in danger from the hatchling but it's not like fen disagrees! #she's MAD at uoser!!! that he would imply she doesn't care about the lives of the people in barlock's rest and has no qualms #with using fabiano as bait #and that she hasn't thought through this situation and isn't aware of how bad it is #but mostly she's mad that he would imply those things AND suggest that the hush ignore the problem alltogether and let the swampers #handle it #if she and her party don't handle the hatchling then who else? who else will die while the swampers search for the hatchling? #who else at barlock's rest would die if the delved with uoser today instead of waiting for the hatchling? #i don't think fen actually cares about the derogatory nature of the term ratcatcher but she IS offended that uoser called her one when #she is only trying to help #fen takes problems into her own hands she can't stand relying on someone else to get something done #she WON'T let this be someone else's problem when she's sure they can handle it tonight. and GOD i hope we fucking finish this thing #fen is in captial putting herself in mortal peril basically every day because she knows she can provide for her little community #she is building her strength and her magic and her connections so she can continue to do so #so one day her little group won't have to live in the stacks and they won't have to rely on favors from more powerful people and groups #and she CARES about people she wants everyone to have as much autonomy and respect that she thinks she deserves #and so anyone assuming she is being careless or thoughtless about lives or that she isn't making the best she can of a bad situation #something she is ALWAYS doing #then she's mad! #i wish i had the exact wording of that conversation so i could read it over again but that was one of those moments where playing fen #was So easy. she's thought this through. she will do whatever she can to save as many people as possible. the situation will end because #she knows she can finish it #and if she's wrong well. grimace emoji! #ch: fen