#she looks like shit. and when erin disappears and takes memories with her lucky is entirely too aware of the lack of someone there. she’s

[toomuchdickfort]

Nightly character brain

#still figuring out that au and #after they get settled where they are lucky is just. fucking tired of the bs between the boys. #Geryon tells her that he can only see it ending with one of them dead and she punches him and leaves for a week #and as soon as shes back she goes to Larry like ‘do you know the bs your boyfriend is plotting?’ and ‘you have to be the one to talk him out #of it Bc if I try it’s not gonna go well’ #and then while Larry is having a crisis she goes ‘hell’ and then goes off to try and get in touch with Karen to get in touch with Erellise #which doesn’t work but she does end up getting kinda close with Karen over time. but they don’t end up even as close as in canon Bc Sairena #feels like she’s not doing enough #over the years she kinda pulls back from the boys because. both of them feel like it’s a lost cause and she’s only willing to spend so many #years watching them fall into this sort of mutual destruction #and when she stops hearing from Larry she goes to Karen first and when she just gets a ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ she shows up at G’s door next and he says #he’s not heard anything either but they both know he’s lying. or maybe she just wouldn’t believe him even if it was the truth. #she hears something fall off some shelf and break when she slams the door and she does her best to disappear for a while. Karen lends her a #but of help in just. putting distance between her and all of everything there. #she might end up in the same team as raelin and ash and them and this time she’s much better at glaring when the resident Sallow tells her #she looks like shit. and when erin disappears and takes memories with her lucky is entirely too aware of the lack of someone there. she’s #never done great on her own for too long and it’s been too long since Lawrence passed and Karen tells her vague things about people she cant #remember and it makes her skin itch and by the time aelia and ash get a new team she’s ditched the company entirely #when g comes across Larry again he has the news sent to her. which. takes a while. and by the time she makes her way there Larry’s returned #the favor and she isn’t sure what part of it exactly makes her nauseous- talking to the skeleton of a friend from her home-reality or losing #the other friend or the fact that it’s gone both ways now or any other thing but she sticks around for a while. long enough to see him after #Sean gives his like... flesh back. she also sticks around for a bit after he takes off- he’s got a good family and she wants to give him a #bit of space before she goes after him #anyway I’ve been typing for like half an hour now and also this is where the train of thought stops so #elysur #character rambles #au #sairena locke #lawrence nighy #geryon amnes