#she kept mentioning my taste in classics throughout the date like. ok!!!!!!

[dykekakashi]

girl from date yesterday told me she got more of a friend vibe, which is fine, i'm still just like having that bad 'it's because you don't fit in with queer people' feelings lol. doesn't help that we went to a queer bookstore and i honestly just felt so out of place.

#saying this also because she seemed like. annoyed/taken aback/whatever my fav authors are classic lit guys #she kept mentioning my taste in classics throughout the date like. ok!!!!!! #i'm sorry i don't read more feminist contemporary authors i don't have time in between reading 34979 books #on religion and political economy and my fav books are books i've had to read for classes usually #same feeling at queer bookstore like i'm looking through all of these books just feeling like #man i'm not. in any of these #like even when there's like oh cool a latina lesbian character it's just. it feels so like catering #i don't want to feel identified with some char because they share a few labels with me #i can get that from a government form #i read literature to feel smthn and it doesn't HAVE to be tied to being queer #imo gombrowicz' trans atlantyk is the book that best reps my own queer experience #and i don't think the fact he was a bi man or polish takes anything away from that #idk ugh sorry i'm in my weird i'll never be actual part of the lgbt community thing again