#saturday nights Are for marinating some quiet distress about billions [in that when it airs an ep releases at midnight...]

[unproduciblesmackdown]

classic saturday night activity for me to speedrun [marge simpson laughing to marge simpson concerned / pensive groan] on my own post by kicking things off like “haha it’s funny how potentially the thing for winston is if he has a crush on anyone he just has to hope they like him back b/c Appealing Winningly to anyone is not an option for him XD” to “oh right, actually that’s sad b/c i’m Earnest about this character” lmfao & then catch me 5 min later getting quietly upset about the moment where winston is reasonably visibly discouraged by rian, with inebriatedly mysterious intent, specifies that a quality of winston’s is only attractive to her Abstractly when coming from him in particular, & yet there is not really any recourse for him but to either give up on this crush completely (probably extra difficult at that moment anyways, what with the collective lack of sobriety) or just kind of keep the pace with trying to appeal to her whether or not it’s hopeless which it might be b/c it also often comes back to “if we’re supposed to recognize that nobody could just Like winston” i’m bitter lmfao even if one does bring it upon oneself simply by caring too earnestly about any billions character......the quant may be somewhat insulated from the [emotional hurt & tumult] shredder but on the other hand his feelings may not matter at all due to them potentially not mattering to any other characters & me resenting this possibility b/c well it matters to me b/c you took your wouldbe one off joke character & were (wisely & righteously) like actually he’s very human & since i’m posting the gif i gotta bring it around to that moment, like, first of all of course i’m always noticing & considering all the instances of “winston getting outwardly discouraged / put out at the end of an exchange” & going :[ about it b/c it happens so often without much balancing it out re: being even a small, unmitigated Win for him, & this Moment with rian is one of the few times we see him thusly discouraged by someone’s response to his efforts to have a positive interaction but then also just sort of forge ahead vs just withdrawing & if this is all some extended “well of course nobody Likes winston or much likes him either” i’m going to be like what tf billions. but if it’s also like “once again if someone does like winston in any way, it must be In Spite Of him, really” i will also be unamused. like makes sense if rian has to warm to someone she just met & who Did try to antagonize her upon their first meeting but what’s the point if it’s like “well, rian just dislikes winston in a different way from everyone else” l o l. tl;dr [i think about winston for 10 sec, &/or humorously comment on his L’s, & then become genuinely put out myself lmao] classic saturday night like i said

#saturday nights Are for marinating some quiet distress about billions [in that when it airs an ep releases at midnight...] #winston billions #kneejerk approach like I Apologize For Caring About This Character So Much but then going wait tf no i do not lmao #To Whom! no one but myself ig & i accept that fate. hence the [everything since march 21st 2019] #if anything i'm On The Offensive re: being invested (haha) in the quant #grr i hate [the potential that winston as As Much A Person as any other characters / winston's feelings are not regarded Seriously] #rips a door off the hinges #and again the mystery like. say rian Is just like ''haha god no are you kidding'' re: Liking Winston #and so then winston withdraws in concluding discouragement....would that be the End of that subplot; what would be the point of it #b/c we've seen that [F in the chat for winston] ending to plenty of scenes & that's just The End. he goes back to work presumably #if this is just some elaborate ''let's have winston feel kind of bad about something but n a new way this time via having romantic interest' #seems unnecessary lol #but anyways yknow like. if we could get Confirmation that one character; i.e. Rian whether or not she Likes him in a crushly way; does take #winston seriously as a person who also has feelings......well that would be nice #i remember we do not know that anyone else is at all interested in him like this even as a Regular Friend and i get annoyed / smad