#sad that we’re both mentally ill svshsvsjs she tries so so mych harder than me though likw shs works so hard and does what she feels she nee

[saddvamain]

It was my cousins birthday the other day and I know how much she’s going through but she’s so exhausting to be around and I didn’t hang out with her on her birthday bc I didn’t want to and didn’t know it was her birthday and spent a lot of time with her the last time she was in town and I just was like ugh no I can’t and ignored her and now I feel really really bad

#i know im the only one whos like really supportive of her transition and can talk to her about it without being weird or a dick abt it and i #just know i should he there for her like she was when we were kids and i hust igh i feel so bad im sucj a pussy i dont even wanna text her #sad that we’re both mentally ill svshsvsjs she tries so so mych harder than me though likw shs works so hard and does what she feels she nee #ds to do meanwhile im just like lol just gonna quit my job and abandon all my plans yolo #AND I DONT EVEN HAVE THE DECENCY TO FUCKIN SPEND TIME WITH HER ON HER BIRTHDAY #God i wish her writing was better though im so sick of reading absolutely trahs fantasy shit and i havent even read THAT much of it ive just #heard abt it way too mych #ugh im just honna text her i hope she isnt mad st me and knows how much i love her