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Pspspspspspsps plz describe to me what Jacks's reaction would be to getting catboy cursed (throw in any of Chrysi's bfs actually cause like 👀👀)
he’s so humiliated, first of all. he has this tail and these triangle ears and he can purr, and he’s not totally in control of it?? you’re telling him that if he’s happy, his tail’s going to move on its own and he can’t stop it???? he literally just wants to die. this is so fucking embarrassing.
but then chrysi’s delighted (she’s trying not to seem too happy, since, like, yeah, it’s a curse. she should want to break it. but he’s purring rn and she thinks it’s very, very cute), and jacks is like. well, at least i have her affection…. he wants her soooooo bad. eventually, he gets used to it—but he’s still not very happy abt his tail. it’s annoying dressing around it, and again. he doesn’t control how it moves sometimes :((( ppl are making FUN OF HIM!!!!!
versus azure, who got cursed and was like. wouldn’t even notice with the type of shit going on. out of all the curses to be affected by, this one’s p minor. plus, chrysi likes it. he likes it. it’s nice being able to purr :)) he’s a lot more catlike than jacks, so he doesn’t care at all.
i think mordred’s… less humiliated by it, but he’s not rlly happy abt being turned into a catboy?? more like he’ll endure it stoically, but it’s not ideal… he’s happy w chrysi’s attention though :) it’s a good consolation prize.
archie’s rlly trying to pretend like it doesn’t faze him, esp since he needs to seem better than jacks, but ummmm, he can’t lie! it’s very weird! not having a normal one, at the moment!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he’s holding chrysi’s hand very hard and waiting for her to actually get up and break the curse. she’s taking her dear sweet time though ://
gil’s screaming, crying, throwing up. he purrs on accident and then he bursts into tears. this is a very, very bad day, and he genuinely wants to die. this is awful. why did god curse him like this…. chrysi feels sad since he’s so upset, esp since she thinks he’s soooo cute :(( but okay, she’ll break the curse… i guess…..
despair’s jst like, yk what! i’ve had weirder! doesn’t even matter anymore, bc this is a p mild curse. and also chrysi’s more inclined to nap w him :3
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also,, this means chrysi and despair have horror movie nights <3 they get together and get snacks and watch random horror movies. there are cats in laps. they are holding hands, despair keeps complaining over how unrealistic possession scenes are + chrysi’s looking at him like ??? :)
#memorie.txt#s.chrysidespair#havent talked abt them in a while.. they make me sad bc they were so happy and now they are NOT 💔💔💔 they need to kissi think
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🌹 x5 :3c (I’ll send in some WIPs when I get home 👀)
🌹 “You remember everything.” The world wanted to crash all around him. It did nothing of the sort, but to Gilbert, it felt the same as if it had. “You knew…?”
Chrysi’s smile tightened. Pain paled her eyes. “I did.”
He was ecstatically happy. He was agonizingly betrayed. “You… lied to me.” His words sunk in and a surge of hurt turned his tone accusatory. “You lied to me.”
———
🌹 Chrysi caught his wrist, though she couldn’t bring herself to look up into his face. It still brought about turmoil in her chest, so hot and furious and helpless that she wanted to vomit from it all.
But she still said, “Thank you.”
Archibald paused. He kept his hands studiously by his sides.
“You don’t need to thank me,” he said. There was a smile in his voice, like there always was, this time with a self-effacing bend. “I should have told you sooner. I have been a coward.
“Yes. You have.” Chrysi finally dared to look up, her face wiped clean of emotion.
That made Archibald’s smile brighten, more self-hating, but unfairly angelic on his face. “This is why I like you, Mademoiselle Executioner,” he said. “You are ruthlessly honest.”
She arched a brow. “Well, we can’t have worked if not for transparency on both our parts, Archie.”
———
🌹 The empty black hole of Daeshim’s cloak tilted to the room over, then returned its hungry, empty gaze to Jacks. “Make that three favors you owe me now, Prince of Hearts.”
He looked up at him hazily.
Jacks could owe the Assassin all the favors in the world and he wouldn’t give a damn. All he cared about was Chrysi in the next room over. Her anger and grief and horror mixed with his, melding together into a twisted sculpture of their hearts. He didn’t even want to speak with the Assassin.
But he knew that owing the Assassin a favor—singular—was bad enough. Jacks couldn’t be owing Daeshim three of them and allow them to be on bad terms when he ultimately decided to cash them in.
“Thank you,” he mumbled, eyes roaming the room around them. It looked unfamiliar. Pale, tall Grecian columns and elegant crown molding. He saw some potted plants, a welcome hint of color in the white room. “Where are we?”
The Assassin stared at him with that black hood.
“Somewhere safe,” he settled on saying.
Jacks doubted the truthfulness of that statement, but he didn’t care. So long as they were away from the Undead Queen and whatever other secrets Mistress Luck had uttered, it was good enough for him.
“Thank you,” he said again, and he meant it a little more this time.
“The Prince of Hearts thanking someone,” the Assassin commented in that flat tone of his. “What a treat.”
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🌹 Not daring to take a breath, Mordred gently laid his hand on her side. The delicate edge of her rib cage and the angle of her hip bone framed the opposite sides of his hand. Small finger to thumb, the reminder of how fragile and small this girl to whom he’d pledged himself.
Underneath his palm, her breathing stilled. Mordred could feel an invisible surge, like lightning sparking underneath her skin and underneath his in tandem.
But she didn’t move away.
He didn’t either.
Mordred peered over her tangled mess of curls and into the tree line. He hadn’t sensed anything from his horse—she would be sure to wake him if need be. And he so wanted this lowering of his guard. He wanted to curl closer, tighter around Chrysi and see if she felt the same spark he did.
The thought of her rejection terrified him, though, and so he withheld himself. They were close enough for their purposes—they needed nothing more.
He wanted something more.
———
🌹 Despair pushed off the ground, desperate to reach her.
Thwack!
He crashed as a jolt of agony split his head and his vision with white-hot pain. The floor scraped at his hands, at his knees.
He tried to push up from the ground again.
Another jab, right at the base of his spine.
He crumpled with a groan. His body spasmed without his permission.
A wordless cry of anguish tore from Chrysi.
Femt clicked his tongue. “Not so fast, Caeruleus,” he said cruelly, voice sing-song, and taking great amusement at Despair’s huddle of pain on the floor. “I can’t have you ruining the show before it even starts.”
“Don’t,” Despair gasped. “Don’t—hurt her.”
“Aw, why not?”
His body protested as he twisted his head to find Femt looking down at him once again, his cane hooked over his arm and his chin in his palm, grinning horribly down at him.
At Despair’s attention, Femt’s smile twisted unnaturally. “She’s dying anyway! We may as well have some fun with it.”
Ice sheeted over him. Emptiness yawned where his heart should’ve been.
He looked at Chrysi once more, agonized, panicked.
She stared back at him with a twisted expression—but none of that worry was for herself.
Despair wanted to scream, wanted to cry.
“If you kill her,” he snarled, and it was to cover his sob, “I will hunt you down for eternity.”
Femt cocked his head to the side. Hope—that traitorous thing—began to bloom in his chest.
But then Femt crooned, “At least it’ll keep things interesting” and Despair’s whole body shuddered.
#.asks#m.filly✨#s.chrysijacks#s.chrysigil#s.chrysidespair#s.chrysimordred#s.chrysiarchie#ONE FOR EACH OF CHRYSI’S BFS#GOOD NESS.#ANYWAY.#i can’t remember if i’ve already posted that despair one so forgive me if i have 💔#w.mine
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👀👀 yip yop
👀 - looking at this BASTARD. i hate him. i’m biting him as we speak. he runs away every time i approach because he knows i’m going to maul him. i’m going to attack like a wild animal. got that homeless boy fashion and he’s STILL arrogant and vain (and he has REASON TO BE). he incites a rage in me. his hair is so touchable. chrysi and he are kissing each other on the mouth. biting…….. >:(
👀 - he looks like knife cat.
#.asks#m.grey🩹#s.chrysiarchie#s.chrysidespair#chrysi likes despair a lot….. she’s kissing him a lot#her knife kitty boyfriend….. also like her soulmate but that’s beside the point#anyway YES i WILL kill archie if given the chance. BITING HIM.
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Then he’s heading up to Sally’s apartment, and Filly is wandering around the lab, not touching anything, and trying very hard not to strain her ears for bits of conversation.
It shouldn’t be this hard to wait, she rationalizes.
It shouldn’t be, but it is.
Because Sally is Arthur’s childhood friend, and now she’s grown, slim and beautiful, and Filly is waiting downstairs while the two of them talk. Alone. Why is it so important that they be alone? What’s so special or scandalous that Arthur thinks it should be kept from her?
Why is she so bothered?
His expression looked akin to a pleased cat as he’d taken her hand in his cold one and, as he pressed a kiss to her palm, informed her of the little amusement park he’d happened across recently.
“You love amusement parks, don’t you?” was what he’d said.
Chrysi didn’t entirely recall a time when she informed him of that, but she had to admit that many people loved amusement parks.
“I suppose I do,” she said lightly. She adjusted her hand so Despair’s chin rested squarely in her palm.
His eyes fluttered closed. His fingers brushed over hers, leaning into her touch until she didn’t even think he felt cold against her anymore.
He looked so peaceful.
Which was precisely why her lips twitched up and she added, “It’s particularly fun going on my own. Thanks for telling me about it. I’d love to check it out.”
A rumble of indignant disagreement fluttered through her fingers, through her wrist, all the way up until it connected to her heart beating with the frivolous twirl of a ballet dancer. Despair’s eyes fluttered open with a disgruntled red shine.
“That’s not what I mean.”
She giggled. “Oh, is it not? I thought it was pretty obvious—”
“I am being obvious,” he complained. “I could not possibly be more obvious.”
With that, he pulled away from her hand. Chrysi tried not to let the disappointment she felt filter through—made much easier when his arms wrapped around her waist and he pushed her back into the bed.
“Are you?” she bit back playfully. Her hand carded through his messy gold hair. “And here I thought you were being petulant.”
Despair let out an exasperated sigh. “I’m being both, Chryseis. That’s a possibility, you know.”
The wry tone of his voice startled a laugh from her, so bright and shocking that she had to lay her head back on the tangled pile of blankets they’d been curled up in just moments before. She locked her hands behind his neck and pulled him down with her.
Despair gave a strange, strangled noise.
He hovered so close now.
Just a breath away, and Chrysi knew for a fact they’d be kissing each other into oblivion all over again.
#.asks#w.mine#w.other#m.filly✨#s.chrysidespair#THEY LOVE EACH OTHER SM... anyway ARTHUR LOVES U. SALLY MEANS NOTHING TO HIM NOW#sounds like you two need to kiss abt it smh my head
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despair gently holding chrysi’s face in his hands is deeply romantic and almost painful. he does it often, when he can’t believe he’s able to be with her again. when he remembers her bleeding out in his arms thousands of years before. when that familiar empty ache fills him. chrysi’s his charm, made to chase away the pain by nature of her existing in his hands once again. he’s very, very fortunate, he thinks, to be able to retry his love story with chrysi again.
#s.chrysidespair#memorie.txt#sobbing wailing crying etc etc etc#despair will do lots of things to remind himself that he’s not dreaming—that he’s actually with chrysi again#lots involve kissing her or holding her or curling around her#do NOT separate them
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2, 3, 9, 10, 12, 13, 15, and 16 for Roses and Thorns?
2. when in canon does your self insert come in? do you have a scene in mind for your entrance?
Welllll, technically she comes in thousands of years before the events of the anime start, but she also comes in about… oh, a year? Six months? Before the events of the anime occur as well! Then she shows up probably around the halfway point of the anime as well—as one of those episodes where Leo meets one of the strange people living in Hellsalem’s Lot! She’s definitely the weird person of the episode, and she’s deeply amused by being considered the weird one. She is, though. Extremely, extremely weird, but very nice :)
Her entrance would probably include her somehow causing a massive accident of sorts via her chasing down some creature, only to just barely avoid accidentally killing Leo in the process. Because of that, she loses the creature and she almost begins to yell at Leo—before losing all the anger she had immediately because Leo seems like a nice young man (direct opposite to her doing the same with Despair, then immediately calling him a bitch-bastard to his face. Despair’s a lot easier to be mean to than Leo). Hijinks ensue as Leo and co end up seeing Chrysi again and again, with her chasing some new case each time. She goes through, like, 13 cases over the course of the episode.
3. how do the other characters generally feel about your self insert?
I think Leo would just think she’s insane, but ultimately very kind! He doesn’t see her a threat—just a convenient friend in the city :) I think you’d be able to sense that there’s more to Chrysi that she’s not saying, which makes you a little wary, but ultimately the same conclusion is made!
Zapp tried to flirt with Chrysi exactly once, before she tried to break his wrist. He backed off after that. Zed is like “Finally, some good fucking conversation.” KK AND CHRYSI ARE BESTIES, IDK HOW IT HAPPENED EITHER, BUT THEY LOVE HANGING OUT WITH EACH OTHER. Klaus and Steven actually don’t really notice Chrysi, which is intentional on her part—she wants to keep her organization secret from everyone, even those in charge of Libra.
Daniel treats Chrysi like his little sister 😭😭😭 But she keeps blowing him off, and he’s a little sad about it (but he’s never going to admit it out loud). He just feels protective of her, since she had a breakup so nasty that she quit her job to cope :((
9. who are your self insert’s closest friends?
YOU and also Adam <33 Adam knows too much about her health condition to NOT be a friend at this point, tbh. OH, also Connie, because I want to give Despair one of Azure’s besties as one of his friends too—which means that Connie’s Chrysi’s new bestie as well!!
10. how do the other characters feel about your self insert and f/o’s relationship?
NOT GREAT. Everyone thinks Chrysi can do so much better than Despair.. Plus, her boyfriend kinda almost completely destroyed the city?? UHHHH, girl, maybe you should turn him into the police? Unfortunately, Chrysi and Despair are soulmates :///
12. how would the fandom view your character?
I can see it being 50/50. Lots of people would think she’s cool and funny and pretty, and others would hate her because she’s dating Despair :// Out of the people that hate her because she’s dating Despair, half don’t like her because she chose to be with the villain even though she’s a “good” person (because the messy emotional journey Chrysi’s going through would be glossed over), and the other half don’t like her because they don’t want Despair to be dating her.
13. does your self insert have any information about their family?
Chrysi has a mother (Aria) that slowly faded over the course of her life, and who is now under the care of Atticus (Immortal Librarian). Her father (Clarence) went missing before she was born, and he is presumed dead. She wound up being raised by her older sister, Nessa, who doesn’t like Chrysi much. She loves her like any sister would, but she doesn’t like Chrysi. She’s got complicated feelings, but she would do anything to protect her sister (ruh roh, she would not like the fact that Chrysi’s dating Despair). Chrysi’s niece, Emery, on the other hand, adores Chrysi! Only an 8 year age difference between them, which makes them feel more like sisters than aunt and niece. Then Chrysi has two nephews who like their aunt, but they don’t see her much :)
15. how does your self insert play a role in the plot of the story? do they help directly defeat the villain, support the heroes, etc.?
Um. Hm. She’s a side character, I suppose. She tried to help stop the Second Great Collapse, but she didn’t want to see Despair hurt, so she wasn’t exactly giving it her all. She mostly helps Leo whenever she shows up though, since she tends to have nothing better to do—plus, she does like to help people a lot :)
16. freebie! name a fact about your self insert you want everyone to know.
Chrysi’s memories of her past life with Despair come back very, very slowly, and they’re all super fragmented!!! She doesn’t get the whole context most of the time. She just knows that Despair loved her deeply and he would do anything for her. Most of the time, that’s all she feels she needs to know. The other part of the time, she’s deeply curious about everything that she did back then—like being an oracle of the gods. Like, that sounds cool as hell. She wishes she could remember more of that.
#i feel like chrysi is in a grey area when she’s in a relationship w despair#like she’s a good person but she allows bad things to happen regardless#and i think that nuance would fly over ppl’s heads#.asks#m.filly✨#s.chrysidespair
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the first glimmer of hope after despair’s failure of the second great collapse and the separation from chrysi is when her cats prove that they still love despair. they still walk up to him and rub their faces against him and purr. it doesn’t matter that he’s in an entirely new body now, nor does it matter that their owner still has lingering feelings of anger towards despair—chrysi’s cats know that he’s meant to be in chrysi’s life. they know that chrysi and despair are linked. they know that they can never be undone.
plus, despair would always give them double the treats that chrysi would. they’re certain they can exploit him in the same way now.
#memorie.txt#s.chrysidespair#i’m such a cat person and it comes through so strongly in everything i think abt jdkskckdksckdk
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despair loves chrysi so desperately because he knows how it feels to lose her. even though she’s in his arms again and he knows that she’s alive, he remembers a time when she was in his arms and she was choking on her own blood. he will do anything and everything to keep that from happening again.
#even if it means destroying himself to protect her#it doesn’t matter—keeping his chrysi safe is important above all#memorie.txt#s.chrysidespair
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DO THEY PLAY CHESS AND IS THERE ROMANTIC TENSION (You know what that goes for ChrysiJacks too... honestly you can answer that with any of Chrysi's bfs I'm heavily interested 👀)
OF COURSE THEY PLAY CHESS, AND OF COURSE THERE’S ROMANTIC TENSION 👀 you just know chrysi’s messing with him the entire time, letting him take some pawns, a bishop or two, all while they’re discussing some diplomatic things that miiiight possibly have a double meaning regarding their relationship. then when archibald gets a little too arrogant, chrysi hits him with a smirk, a planted chess piece, and a declaration of “checkmate”.
archibald can’t even get mad when she leaves. he’s watching her walk away with a mixture of pleasure and delight. he likes that she keeps him guessing <3
(with chrysijacks, they play chess, but jacks doesn’t hold his own against chrysi quite as well as archibald can. that said, the only good thing from ouabh was the concept of “kissing chess”. i’m going to tweak it a bit so that every piece taken from the opponent’s side means they get to choose the kiss :3 jacks likes this game, even though chrysi always wins.)
((other bfs: with gil, he tries to play chess, but he does so poorly that it’s mostly just a way for chrysi to get time to talk to him. with mordred, they are almost evenly matched in chess—their wins are split 50/50. with despair? the only person to consistently beat chrysi. that’s alright though, because she loves despair so very much.))
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hmm this is jst for me, but the way i view all of chrysi’s bfs are:
despair: angsty, beautiful lover. held onto his love for chrysi for thousands of years. he adores her. i cause him pain to counteract all the pain he caused during all those years, but by sheer tenacity, he’s holding onto chrysi. i respect him. 7483848382/10, they are LITERALLY soulmates. not much else to add here, other than the fact that their love for each other makes me want to cry because they care about each other SO MUCH.
jacks: god, he’s like a little dog that thinks he’s a threat, but you could actually punt him across the street when you happen to accidentally kick him. self-absorbed little bastard, he thinks he’s sooooo cool. he’s not. fuck you, jacks. i like seeing you be a sopping wet little rat. i love you though and i’d keep you in my pocket and feed you crumbs. 4/10, he loves chrysi with all his heart but he’s fucking annoying about it. i have literally negative respect for him.
gilbert: he’s literally The textbook definition of pathetic little meow meow, even though he’d hate being compared to a cat. i’m so sorry i make fun of you for being pathetic. but it’s true. and you’re really cute when you’re pathetic. i’m gently teasing you though, and i’ll put you in a nice little terrarium and poke holes in the jar lid in the shape of a sun. kissing your forehead rn. 6/10, he’s still kinda fixated on oz too much to be a good boyfriend most of the time, but i can acknowledge and appreciate the fact that he cares about the well-being of everyone around him (esp since nobody else will take care of themselves). also he’s not a cat person, so. that detracts from the score as well.
archibald: fuck you fuck you fuck you, you are THE most throttleable man i’ve had the displeasure of meeting. soooo vain and careless. i hate that he’s so cocky, but it’s even worse because he has good reason to be. on top of all that, he struggles with commitment issues and can’t handle maybe, possibly, hypothetically having deep enough feelings for chrysi to marry her. i hate him. he’s awful. why the FUCK does he have to be so charming? HE STOLE THE DRAMA FROM CHRYSI DYING TO HER DISEASE BECAUSE HES GOT THE SAME FUCKING PROBLEM. -7/10, he takes the angst out of the relationship that i like to write and instead created his own fucking angst because he couldn’t be honest with himself. i hate him.
mordred: the prettiest boy ever. i literally am love him? he’s so smart and cunning and charming and passionate. he’s a great actor and sword fighter and strategist. when he loves someone, he gives them custody of his whole entire heart. he is so very talented and pretty and sweet—how could you not love him??? he’s been neglected a little, but that’s alright, because chrysi’s going to pick him up and dust him off and give him so much love that he literally starts dying frm it (since he’s the son of the green knight and chrysi’s a wraith witch and their energy doesn’t meld well ;;; ). BUT ITS FINE, BECAUSE HES ALSO A CHRONIC PAIN BF AND HE’LL DEAL WITH AGONY IF IT MEANS HE CAN FINALLY HAVE A HAPPY ENDING. 17/10, he’s still a little caught up on his ex, but it’s okay because he’s deeply in love with chrysi and he’s the BEST BOY.
#memorie.txt#s.chrysidespair#s.chrysijacks#s.chrysigil#s.chrysiarchie#s.chrysimordred#it’s so funny because (barring despair) i’m like ‘dark-haired lover: 🥰🥰🥰 blonde lover: fucking BASTARD’
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🎶🎶🎶 (If it's okay) for Chrysijacks, Chrysi and Mordered, and Chrysi and Despair <3
🎶ChrysiJacks🎶
El Tango De Roxanne from Moulin Rouge
🎶ChrysiMordred🎶
Endless Dreams (Midnight Ver.) from Deemo II
🎶ChrysiDespair🎶
Verses by Tamino
#.asks#m.filly✨#s.chrysijacks#s.chrysimordred#s.chrysidespair#YEAH imagining the anguish jacks experiences during that scene in my moulin rouge au….. i like seeing him in agony 🖤#and tamino’s sound is so *buries face in hands and SCREAMS*#endless dreams is chrysimordred because dreams… and rain…. the vibes
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snuggly bf!!!
#a.mine#s.chrysidespair#its now firmly summer but i miss wearing long sleeved shirts 💔💔💔 and also not being sick#lets hear it for a full week of having a fever yayyy#i’m reading books like i need them to survive and tbh i feel like i’m going stir crazy
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chrysi and @paper-star-ships love to torture despair <3
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Okay not a ChrysiJacks ask but like... if you got any Chrysi/Despair rants to spare... 🥺 I miss them<3
YES, I WILL TALK ABOUT CHRYSI AND DESPAIR. I ALWAYS WANT TO TALK ABOUT THEM.
So much of the way that Despair will treat Chrysi the first time they reunite (while he’s still in Will’s body) is him trying so hard not to tip Chrysi off to the fact that they’ve known each other before. It kills him every single second he’s with her, because he wishes he could act like he used to with her. He wishes she could call him by his name. He wishes they could have the same inside jokes as before. He wishes his Chryseis would remember being his Chryseis.
Chrysi’s not dumb. She picks up on his sadness and the way it eats at him from the inside out. She tries her best to help him, but it only makes everything worse :(((( Because Despair is only reminded of their past more and it’s killing him.
In addition to all this pain over the past half-remembered, Despair’s also really anxious over the Second Great Collapse. He’s not actively working on it anymore, because he has Chrysi now, but Femt is not backing off (I actually have a writing post-Second Great Collapse, when Despair’s in Azure’s body, where Femt decides to hurt Chrysi as a way to find the fun Despair kept from him). Time is not Despair’s friend—the past hurts and it haunts so much, the present is limited and he can feel time running out, and the future doesn’t hold any good tidings for him and Chrysi.
He’s constantly scared that some cruel god is going to take Chrysi from him again, as punishment for his entire existence. They did it to him before, and that was back when he’d committed far less crimes than he’s committed now. He’s so tense that every time they sleep, he wakes up in a cold sweat, about to throw up, remembering the past and dreaming up a new, worse future.
That’s why it’s almost a relief when Chrysi finds out about his plans and breaks up with him. It’s a weight off his shoulders, knowing that she won’t be struck down because of how close they’ve gotten again.
(Underneath it all, though, he’s shattered. He’s hurting, he misses her already, and he still wants her to love her as unafraid and openly as she did before)
He throws himself into his work, because in some twisted part of himself, he’s doing it to keep Chrysi away from him and safe. If she doesn’t get too close to him, nobody’s going to be able to take her away from him. And now he gets to finish his big plan, his magnum opus, and Femt is finally off his back about it.
Obviously things don’t pan out the way he wanted them to. He’s fine with it, once the panic and irritation wears off.
But then he wakes up in a body that looks just like his old one and he is not okay. More proof that time is going to repeat itself? Well, then he supposes he’ll just have to break the universe and the loop of time so that his Chryseis will be safe in the end.
(For all he knows, she could be dead. He hopes she’s not. He doesn’t know. It’s been almost two years now)
Meanwhile, Chrysi’s built an organization of her own, something respectable enough to be considered on par with Libra or LHOS, but it’s so much more underground, undercover. Nobody knows how to get in (you can’t get in if you try. Only Chrysi decides if it’s worth it). Nobody knows the leader (just as well, because if anybody finds out their leader is a 22 year old woman that’s dying, they’re all fucked). She barely exists anymore.
Despair thinks he’s about to start crying when he sees Chrysi again at the hospital (he’s still being watched, because his body is fragile, and he hates it). She’s alive, but she’s not well—he can tell, because he recognizes all the warning signs from their past—from Ancient Rome.
He doesn’t realize Chrysi’s remembering snatches of memories too, and when she sees him for the first time, he doesn’t expect her to recognize him. He’d been hoping he could sneak into her hospital room and then lie and say he lost his way when she woke up and demanded who he was.
He was not expecting her to say that Caeruleus is a horrible name, and that she prefers Blue more.
He was expecting her to throw things at him, though. He takes his leave.
But they’re soulmates—bound by time, despite the fact that time took so long to return her to him—and they keep being dragged into the same business. What else to do, but fall in love again?
Despair isn’t complaining. But all he wants is Chrysi to be safe.
He doesn’t know if that’ll happen. He doesn’t know if they’ll be getting a happy ending here, in Hellsalem’s Lot. He doesn’t know if they��ll get a happy ending anywhere on Earth.
But he does know that if she dies, he’s going with her this time. He doesn’t want to leave her alone again.
#jst word-vomiting abt chrysi and despair. don’t mind me 😭#i hope this makes sense. i jst think. so many of the ‘happy’ scenes i write w/ them#despair seems somewhat jumpy. or melancholy. he’s got so many secrets he’s keeping from chrysi#that they can’t really relax and be happy together#.asks#m.filly✨#s.chrysidespair
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o my gosh it's been so long since i've watched kkss but ur recent art post reminded me what prosfair was NVM THAT WOULD BE EVEN HARDER THAN 5D CHESS WITH TIME TRAVEL😂. still living for despair being tortured tho <3 hilarious
LITERALLY, I LOOKED UP THE SCREENSHOT FOR PROSFAIR AND WENT “😶 maybe despair jst can’t wrap his brain around time travel, that’s why it’s hard” <<< unconvincingly
what i’m saying is bf that can’t understand accounting for time travel in chess x gf that can’t comprehend adding spatial anomalies into chess
#‘why can’t you play prosfair like normal people’ ‘why the HELL would i want to play PROSFAIR’#.asks#m.moon🎀#s.chrysidespair
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