#reading this unlocked the memory of how young-me truly wanted to be a volcanologist... until i saw Volcano & was traumatized lmao

[caffeinated-bibliophile]

I'm reading and listening to The Underworld: Journeys to the Depths of the Ocean by Susan Casey and I keep basically coming up for air (i.e. scrolling the dash for a few minutes) after about each chapter so I can process and vibrate with excitement etc.

The abyss fascinates me and terrifies me and I've been anxiously awaiting my turn to read this for months (I placed holds last year shortly after the book was released).

This is going to lead me down more rabbit holes, probably alternating between geology, biology, oceanography, plate tectonics, and volcanology (all of which are things I've previously spent a lot of time learning about, but my interest has been rekindled recently, hence reading The Underworld).

Gotta say, though, there have been some... awkward... moments. This book came out less than 6 weeks after the oceangate incident, and there are so many lines that have made me wince (like how there hadn't been a manned-submersible death since the 1970s...)

#the arctic and space and the deep sea my beloveds #literally feel like I'm vibrating when i think about them #and i have to restrain myself each time i dip into reading etc about them because i will get obsessive again and it will take over my life #reading this unlocked the memory of how young-me truly wanted to be a volcanologist... until i saw Volcano & was traumatized lmao #all my science dreams were crushed by family telling me it was for boys or i wasn't observant enough or i was too airheaded etc #(i was a straight A student in the gifted program but undiagnosed adhd) #anyway. now i feel almost like I'm not allowed to engage with anything like this because I'm too stupid and what's the point in learning #but it's something i genuinely love so I'm trying to ease back into learning for fun #even though i know I'll never be able to use any of this (except maybe in stories idk) #that got out of hand but whatever i needed to vent i guess #now I'm going back to reading about the tonga trench 🍿