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[soapoet]

Who hurt you?

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01.

Shufflemancy: Feelings by EMELINE

This connection could've been so good and had so much potential to last, if it weren't for their near Machiavellian villainy. A power couple is not a dynamic between the crème de la crème who out of the blue and without warning shifts to through their words and actions make the other feel like a foolish peasant who couldn't possibly know better. To treat another like royalty then knock the crown they themselves laid atop your head down seemingly for no reason. Never at all cautious with their words, and worst of all entirely unreceptive of any feedback. Once told they have crossed the line, instead of compassion and asking for forgiveness, the music swells as they justify and explain as though you are but a child, merely overreacting, too emotional to understand and ought to see it from their high and mighty perspective. A person supposed to love you and be worthy of your trust talking down on you from their throne, and in their eyes you see only a heart cold as ice, unrelenting and certain that criticism is a threat and must be stricken down no matter how they claim to love you in the very next breath.

Now, however, they are really feeling the void you left behind when you walked away. For many of you this departure was originally a back and forth, in which you always wound up caught in their net, then escaped, only to be pulled back again. The final time you walked out they did not even flinch, certain you would come back again as always. Time crawled onwards and you were but an echo of the past, slowly fading, and the more days and weeks that flew by the more the feeling of defeat crept up on them. They tried to run, they tried to hide, denying that they had been abandoned. They filled their days with cheer and diversion, perhaps in part to appear at ease upon your return, though mostly because your silence had become deafening and so very frightening.

They're beginning to grow uncomfortable by the tightening of the noose they placed around their own neck when they hurt you. They feel choked up, and in panic they may be lashing out and casting blame everywhere outside of them and treating others poorly. A short fuse breaking their picture perfect image as they rampage at the slightest inconvenience. Unfortunate are those who bear witness to their disgrace and dishonour, but loyal in their steadfast duty to remain at their side knowing that though they're whipped there is good left and needs cleansing to be set free. This seems written in the stars. An important lesson for them to learn and take to heart. To face their shadow boldly and cut out the pieces that serve neither them, others, or the world. A purge is happening, in which they must overcome their own terrors and transmute them to light and make right the wrongs of the past. This can take some time, but you may hear from them, but not until the apologies are sincere and forgiveness may be bestowed upon them truly.

Additional details: substance abuse, red and orange, spicy food, birds (jays and chickens in particular), pigs, hedgehogs, discord servers and other groups of people (guilds and factions, group chats, etc.), upbeat music, travelling, blocked, disgust, unhealthy push and pull, twinflame terminologies, church, large gatherings, parties, family, parents, ex partners, LDR, Capricorn/Scorpio/Aquarius/Pisces, Pluto/Mars/Moon, 4H/5H/8H, January/April/September/December.

02.

Shufflemancy: Someone you loved by Lewis Capaldi

It really felt like the rug was pulled from beneath your feet. Out of nowhere, no less. You were lead to believe everything was good and fine and sudden the image shattered overnight, leaving you cornered in a room full of broken glass. Paralysed, shaking from anger and hurt and with no escape. It can seem as though your whole life was turned upside down. Like you no longer knew what or who you could trust. The burdens so much heavier on your shoulders as the whip cracks, signaling demands for you to run, run faster than ever before, with no direction other than "away". A door slammed in your face with a pocketful of change and the rains cruelly pouring down on your parade.

But, it had been alright. Right? Scrambling to figure out where things went wrong, at what part of the journey did you stumble away from the path, where did you stray? A search for answers yields only more questions to keep you up at night. Replaying the past like a favourite record, coming to find you no longer remember the lyrics and no song sounds familiar to you. What has become of this person? In your mind they are growing blurry though you hear their words so clearly. Afraid you'll forever be haunted by them and their cruel words and schemes. You look to other people who bore witness to this crime and find wolves in sheep's clothing in every previously kind smile, who now look upon you with disgust and turn away. You've never felt so alone and hopeless, forced to limp away to lick your wounds in the dark where hopefully nobody will find you and hurt you again.

Perhaps little birdies whispered in their ears, long enough to fuel any resentment held within to erupt in your face. Somebody who used to care and be so kind and promised to take care of you, suddenly switching to someone unrecognisable to you. You'll survive, I promise you this, and this ordeal will teach you greater independence so that never will you have to face something like this again. They will journey on with serpents and delude themselves into thinking they did what's right, and one day the little birdies will whisper in different ears to their demise and they will find themselves in your point of view. Perhaps then they will realise their wrongs and truly understand. By then you will be stronger and shine brighter, out in the world living a good life, and you will have the grace they did not and accept closure with no ill will. But until then it is okay for you to cry and scream of how much you hate their guts.

Additional details: Instruments, boxes, CDs and DVDs, childhood nostalgia, baby animals, creaky stairs, the smell of petrichor, rings, social work/healthcare, mental health concerns, sleepovers, long hair cut short, striped or mismatched socks, phone calls, short distance travel, siblings or cousins or other relatives your age, colleagues, brown/green eyes, trinkets/charms, exes and authority figures, Cancer/Sagittarius/Leo/Aries, Sun/Ascendant/Mercury, 4H/6H/11H, February/October/November.

03.

Shufflemancy: Famous last words by My chemical romance

This was messy from the very start. You may think now that, surely, this should never have happened at all. Retracing your steps wondering how and why and where you took this strange and awful detour. And why did it leave you so broken? At the time it was not supposed to be so serious, it was fun and games but you began losing every round. No matter the strategy you could simply never win and it was becoming no fun at all and you wanted out of the game. Yet they continued to cast the dice of your fate, and you were left hopelessly scrambling for even a semblance of stability. In fact, you were the one to provide such things, weren't you? At their lowest you dropped what you were doing to provide solutions to their problems so that they would not slip into despair. You devoted yourself to their issues, and they not at all to yours. Your grievances were inconvenient at best, frustrating and somehow a thorn in their side at worst. For some of you, this could've been a long-term friendship which came crumbling down out of the blue and left you shattered though it may have had more control of your life than you originally thought.

And after all you did, they did not choose you. Perhaps they chose another, or ran back to an old flame, like a moth towards a brighter light when they were done dimming yours through their words and actions, or lack of either. For some, their regards for you were altered or manipulated by people you could consider foes. This severance of ties was quick and left you shaken, even for those of you to whom this connection was very new still, and looking back had not been given the time to fully grow roots. Yet once it was uprooted, you took it worse than anticipated and you really were left wondering how they grew their vines around your heart and mind so fast. For many, there can be an element of extra grievance in the form of having known somebody in their quarters was a problem or a threat to your union. Like you were certain that the vultures would come to get their picking if you ever turned away for mere seconds too long, so seeing this person run into the arms of somebody you had on your radar despite their hollow reassurances could've exasperated your sense of betrayal. It is one thing to feel in your gut what could come and fear it from afar, and another to see it come to pass just as you had feared.

This was by no means an easy shift, but one which lead you to learn many important lessons. Your boundaries seem clearer now and you won't as easily let them be stepped on. Whilst you picked up the pieces left scattered on the floor, you took extra care to pick up only those that would serve you and your future. Any gossip or ill will you have directed elsewhere and chosen not to dig deeper, knowing you would only hurt yourself returning to the depths of obsession. Now you look for red flags they taught you, while they desperately search for you in those they meet, helplessly needing somebody to run their life the way you did with such tenacity and grace. There is no telling whether they ever will realise that the reason why their world falls apart every other Tuesday is because of their own words and actions, and I pity those who fall trap into the place you once called yours as it does not seem to be a position of any stability and longevity. At least you've come out of this stronger and firmer in your stance of who you want around and what you do and do not tolerate, and I applaud you for that. Should this be an old friend who one day asks for forgiveness, you may grant them that without lowering the drawbridge completely.

Additional details: sunshine, leather jacket, tinder or other dating apps, childhood friends, blonde or light brown hair, puppies, instagram, psychology, roses and sunflowers, photography, cosplay, glow ups, new adventures and experiences, growing up faster after time of hindered growth, university, book series, fandom spaces, tumblr, Scorpio/Sagittarius/Libra/Gemini, Saturn/Jupiter/Uranus/Moon, 3H/5H/9H/12H, March/July/November/December.

#pac reading #energy reading #intuitive reading #pick a card #pick a picture #pick a card reading #tarot reading #tarotblr #soapy.post

[darlinglittle]

pls read me!! ♡

{last update: Mar 6th, 2022}

pls follow my backup acct! ♡ @darlingxlittle

u can tip me on cashapp! ♡ $poilxme

the tags on this post are for my main oc categories! (I currently have a tag masterpost in progress)

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rules for interaction

do not interact w this blog at all:

◦if u have no 21+ age indicator in ur bio or pinned post

◦if u are under 21 years old (yes i'm reiterating this)

◦if u have unsourced/reposted porn on ur blog (whether it's posted, reblogged, or in ur likes)

◦if u are a bigot or exclusionist of any kind

◦if u have a hogwartz house, "gender critical", "traditional gender roles", "patriarchy/misogyny kink", etc. in ur bio or rb that type of content

◦if ur a boot or a bastard

◦if u have "sfw" anywhere on ur blog

◦if u are part of any reg communities (yes even on sideblogs)

◦if u are a feeder/feedee/chubby chaser/any other sort of weight fetishizer

◦if u are a sissy/misgendering/detrans blog

◦if u have any raceplay/race fetishization on ur blog

◦if u post abt eating disorders/goal weights or self harm

◦if u post things like "r4pebait/p3d0bait" or sexualize real trauma/abuse

if u follow me, please:

✧always copy my "21+ only" tag on my original posts (even if ur not rbing from my blog directly)

✧be respectful of other ppl's dnis! (u should always be checking every unfamiliar blog for age & dnis when running a nsfw acct!!)

✧do not add commentary in ur reblogs!! (adding stuff in the tags is perfectly fine!)

breaking any of the rules above will get u blocked without warning!!

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about me

✧i go by darling on here ♡

✧i'm 27, i'm married to my mommy, & my daddy now lives with us ♡♡

✧i'm disabled (legally blind, colorblind, neurodivergent, & mentally ill)

✧my little age range is 2-6, my middle age range is 12-14, my fave pet to be in general is a puppy, & my fave pet to be for my mommy is a cow

✧my main kinks & limits are listed at the bottom of this post :)

✧u can call me pet names, but pls do not imply that i belong to u! -> "hi princess!"✔️ "hi my princess"❌

✧i'm genderfluid, but i (usually) prefer fem terms/names

✧my mommy is pre-hrt/pre-op transfem & goes by they/them pronouns online. respect that!

✧my mommy doms me to a degree, but they are much more of a subby switch at heart. i also have a daddy i met thru this blog who is my main dom.

✧i am not looking for more partners! pls do not ask to be my dom or playmate!

✧i am open to making kinky friends, either dommy or subby!

✧i follow back blogs that intrigue me. if i unfollow soon after pls don't take offense! it just means i didn't align w ur blog like i thought i would at first glance.

✧i am much softer irl than some (most?) of my reblogs and even original posts may imply. there are things i only like/crave at certain times. the things i always like are on the softer, calmer side of bdsm.

messaging me

✧my dms are currently only for ppl i follow/mutuals. if i decide to open them again i'll make a post abt it & update this point here.

✧my asks are always open, including anons! i love receiving asks, but do not just send me sexts or i will block u!

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kinks & limits

fave kinks include:

✧ageplay, cgl, littlespace, innocence & corruption, teacher/student type dynamics

✧pet play (puppy, cow, kitten), collars & leashes

✧praise, adoration, obsession, being spoiled/rewarded

✧softer cnc, coercion, drugging, sweet manipulation, conditioning

✧bimboification, dumbification, being treated like a toy

✧sweet humiliation, sweet degradation

✧pee (either peeing for/on someone or being peed on)

✧light s&m, spanking, being groped

kinks i have interest in but never practiced irl:

✧breath play, choking, being gagged

✧bondage, rope play, captivity, kenneling

✧group sex, public sex (w ppl who consent obvs), free use for multiple partners

✧bukkake, creampies

✧s&m using tools (floggers, canes, clamps, etc.)

soft limits:

◦abdl (specifically diapers)

◦rougher cnc

◦harsher humiliation, harsher degradation

hard limits:

◦sibling dynamics

◦leather, rubber, other restricting clothes

◦hardcore s&m, violence, knives, guns, blood, harsh bruising, biting, hickeys

◦body affecting fetishes (plastic surgery, feeding, scarring, etc.)

◦breeding, impregnation, lactation

◦scat, vomit, ass to mouth (etc.)

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#bbytlk #blabbery #blogy post #show n tell #graphixxx #daydreamz #subby space #dommy talk #little thingz #pet thingz #bimbo pride #ickiez #storiez #wet dreamz #sillyz

[sapituscanpvp]

" I'm the Tough guy, I gotta kill everyone. "

Ask Box Status: Open

Active threads: 0

[LAST EDIT: MAR.11.2021]

Intro

This is a roleplay / in character ask blog for C!Sapnap from the dream smp! This is not a Kinnie blog nor am I trying to impersonate the actual CC. Dms and Anons encouraged and accepted! Admin is 20 years old and uses He/They prns. I also run a c! George blog [ @apatheticdaydreamer ]

Tags

#Ashes: General ask tag! You can ask for your own personalized one [ ex: Ashes from 🐼 / Ashes from panda anon ] this goes for specific character blogs as well! By default I'll probably tag your URL or an abbreviated version [ ex: PVP!Sapnap ] You can also just ask for personalized tags idm.

#Sapitus Napitus: General text tag! Usually always In character

#panda prints: threads/reply tag!

#Ooc: like what it says. Means Out of Character!

#Aes: anything c!sapnap "core" or something that fits his aesthetic!

#pandas study: like the above thing but more so for web weaving posts. Or anything kinda about meta/lore!.

#Portraits of a man on fire: art tag! For any Sapnap fanart I rb. Disclaimer: if you only like art posts and don't reblog them I am not Inclined to interact with you! Please support artists♡ if you can rb just don't like it. Liking does nothing to help reach and kind of buries the artists work.

# [TRIGGER] TW / tw [TRIGGER]: this blog will probably have themes of violence,graphic harm,fire/arson or blood. They will usually be tagged as such,but you're welcome to ask for tags too! [Ex: #tw blood ]

#Kinokos sparring room: anything possibly NSFW will go under this tag. By NSFW I don't mean sexual content btw! This blog will usually be SFW but anything that could be mildly NSFW [violence,blood,suggestive themes,etc] will go under here!.Be aware that Sapnap is hot headed. If you bother him on purpose he will either fight or ignore you. If it gets to an uncomfortable degree I might just not answer it♡

Extra info:

This sapnap is a hybrid! Just felt like I needed to clarify that. He's not human,only partially. He's mostly like a demon hybrid. His adoptive father is Bbh as well!

Other than that,that's about it! Shoot me an ask or a dm If you have any more questions or want to rp privately! I'm cool with that too!

Here's some refs to what this c!sapnap design looks like!

Link 1

Link 2

Link 3 art courtesy of @gnfz thank you sooo much

If you like the art please don't just Like it and not Reblog it :)

[Mobile Layout creds]

Banner for this post: Sad-ist screenshot from this animation [all I did was edit the color]

[CURRENT]

Profile Picture: @/lululablette post here

[PREVIOUS ⬇️]

Profile picture: tumblr user Cottaboo/Sapnap-Daily! Linked here.

Jan.24 :Banner and Profile picture: from Jojinswag on Twitter! Found here

#pinned post #info #ooc #ok gonna tag my organization stuff below so people can click thru it here! #ashes #sapitus napitus #kinokos sparring room #dsmp roleplay #oh i forgot to mention OCs welcome too please just clarify ! #aes #pandas study #panda prints #forgot this one too #portraits of a man on fire #<- forgot these tags #adding more tags #[asks] ashes #[art] portraits of a man on fire #[reply] panda prints #[ask game responses] you dont have to do anything he says #[ask game] i like to just swim in lava in my free time

[taruruchi]

˚₊· ❥ And now I'm falling for you . . . ♡

taruchi ☆ local jellyfish/goldfish ☆ co-manager of mostro lounge

she/her・minor・infp・virgo

writing acc: @marshmugii

[ pfp by @/ashipiko ! ]

taruchi is currently ➵ gone missing my wives (azul ashengrotto and lyney) (but also tired... and overwhelmed... spending much less time active on tumblr but will be happy to talk to moots on discord 👍 always feel free to ask for it)

I know some people are worried about this, so I just wanted to let anyone who wants to talk to me know

If you think you're talking to me too much, you're bothering me, you're being annoying, or I probably don't have the time, you are very wrong. I absolutely LOVE interacting with people so I will appreciate every single message I get!! If I take a while to respond, I might be busy but I will find time to reply! Please never hesitate when you wanna tell me literally anything, even just a few words! My dms are also always open, so feel free to talk to me anytime. If you wanna be mutuals, literally just ask!! 💙

ˏˋ°•*⁀➷ 𝘔𝘶𝘵𝘶𝘢𝘭𝘴 𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵 ♪ !!

More about me, OCs, and tag index are under the cut!

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more about me . . .

I'm sorry, my name is not Taruchi irl. I just stole it from a game character (Itaru Chikasaki) for a while then got used to it. But you can call me Taru or any variations of it!! Or girl, dude, bestie, fam, whatever you want!

I'm Filipino (Bisaya) but I recently moved to Canada. I unfortunately can't speak Bisaya nor Tagalog very well (fake filipino, ik 😔) but!! Feel free to talk to me in those languages, it still feels nice to read <3

My birthday is on September 9, meaning 9/9 meaning Brooklyn 99 and yes I'm obsessed with Brooklyn 99. My friends can testify

I'm terribly insane about Azul Ashengrotto (and on the rare occassion, Tsumugi Tsukioka) </3 Aaand I enjoy Taylor Swift's songs! My friends can also testify for this

Fellow and Malleys stans DNI. Also people who hate Topaz or ship her with Aventurine. Please

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ocs . . .

Arietta Marcurio

Taruchi (self-insert)

Esteban Madrigal

Miles Ponder

Rhynstine Feinsince

Achlymna Feinsince

Elpys Feinsince

Nemis Feinsince

Deima Feinsince

Sydney del Mar and Flynn Cyprus

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tag index . . .

☆ taruchi rambles 💬 — mostly random posts aka me rambling

☆ inside taruchi's ask box 💌 — any asks (not from ask games)

☆ friends' ocs! — when i rb/talk about my mutuals' ocs (and previously including yumes)

☆ others' self-ships ❣️ — interacting with other people's self-shipping content :)

☆ taruchi's drawings 🖌️ — my drawings, completed or not (some really uncompleted ones might be under the rambles)

☆ taruchi's writings ✍️ — anything i write

☆ dear mutuals 💘 — any interaction with any mutual, including rb games (this is a new tag, more interactions can be found through a mutual's individual tag) (i also don't really use it anymore so now i'm ??? why did i make this??)

☆ clown hours 🤡 — just me... being down bad. so basically any time i talk about my faves. or ship stuff. or reblogging fics

☆ 💙 — i guess this'll work as the azulchi tag? for my purpose anyway, and so others can block if they want! they're all just for explicitly romantic stuff though, so some may not be tagged if they can appear non-romantic (warning: newer tag, but i'm pretty sure i tagged everything)

☆ tagged ! 🔖 — whenever i get tagged in something (not including tag games and tag lists)

☆ to read ! 📑 — things i plan to rb and add comments to (usually mutuals' posts)

☆ reading sol's smaus 📖 — as it says. i just made a tag bc i love them and i wanna be able to find my rbs again

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additional credits . . .

The dividers that I use that are more than just a simple color (i.e. the dividers that I use for my writings) are made by @/firefly-graphics

#ESPECIALLY MY MUTUALS BC I LOVE LOVE LOVE TALKING TO ALL OF YOU 💞 #Even people I've never interacted with before bro as long as you're nice #Maybe I just really like talking #☆ taruchi's navigation