#prepared to deal with me it makes me feel about 100x more suicide and more hopeless

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maybe this is toxic but i would genuinely rather be unwell forever and spend the rest of my life relying on antidepressants than be the kind of person who thinks every single person should be in therapy

#im not anti therapy i am therapy critical. at the end of the day 1. being able to attend therapy is a privilege (do they take your health #insurance is there a therapist where you live can you afford the copays) but also. are you the RIGHT kind of sick that therapists want to #help. do you know how many therapists straight up will not engage with or are not trained to properly deal with like. cluster b disorders ? #like. im glad therapy helped you with your mild anxiety but wvery time ive spoken to a counselor or therapist who was clearly not #prepared to deal with me it makes me feel about 100x more suicide and more hopeless #and basically saying. oh theyre not in therapy thats a red flag is an incrwdibly privileged and grating thing to say. that was the point of #this post sorry i got depressing there for a minute