#ponniyin selvan X Bahubali

[houseofbreadpakoda]

Naatpu-3

Ponniyin Selvan X Bahubali Crossover.

Vandiyathevan woke up with a jerk. A slight noise had alerted him. "It must be those pindaris, to hell with them" he cursed as he pulled out his sword from its sheath and slipped out of bed. He waited for a while for any other sounds when he heard it. "Nanba?"

Arase? At this hour? He sneaked upto the window where he heard Aditha from and threw it open.

Aditha jumped onto the sill he was hanging from and into the room as vandiyathevan quickly shut the window behind him. "My lord vanthiya, took you a great deal of time to hear me."

"Arase, why did you have to slip in through- are the pindaris waging a war?!" Aditha shaked his head in denial waving his hand as he caught for breath.

He was interrupted by a knock on the door. Aditha sleekly slid under the bed before vandiyathevan could comprehend what was happening. He trotted towards the door still hazy at being subjected to so much so early into the day. He opened the door to see Devasena, who quickly barged into the room and shut the doors behind herself.

"Where's Aditha?" She sternly asked him, and before he could act clueless he saw Aditha slip out from under the bed and stand upto his full stature.

Vandiyathevan stepped back from infront of Aditha. Why was the Arase here at this hour? And why was Yuvarani here? Rather how had she come to know?

"Aditha are you out of your mind?" Devasena shrieked yet whispering every syllable.

"I mean-" Aditha said smirking at her making her throw a pillow at him. "You saw me from your anthapuram? Was I so loud?"

"You were pretty loud, I'm surprised our soldiers weren't alerted. All the training sessions, constant boar hunts, nothing can teach them to be alert. And then the pindaris attack and we lose a thousand of them. I can't-"

"Devasena...." Aditha said getting closer trying to calm her down. And Devasena got the cue. She exhaled relaxing her shoulders, looked back at Aditha trying hard to smile. "How are you? It's been a while."

"I'm very well!" Said Aditha grinning, "I've also heard that you've been doing really really well." Devasena scrunched her nose trying to figure out what Aditha was speaking about and her eyes widened when she realised. She glared back at vandiyathevan. He shook his head grinning. And then he saw her smile. He knew what the yuvarani was about to bring up. "Mhm, then I guess you would also know how vandiyathevan was doing."

"Ohhhhh Rightt. I completely forgot." Aditha said smiling at vandiyathevan bewildering him further. He quickly tried to change the topic.

"Arase you could've very well brought your troop and yourself through the main gates with a great degree of pomp. Why did you have to sneak in through-"

"Trust me Nanba my ego would've loved that, but entering the kingdom at this hour? That too unannounced? It wouldn't seem right. But I needed to talk to you after the message you'd sent me! So Parthiba and the rest stayed back in the tents at the outskirts of Kuntala. A post might reach the kingdom authorities in an hour or two about my arrival and then I can enter back with the rest of them tommorow morning."

So much, just to know about the yuvarani's love interest a few hours earlier. But again, this was Aditha. And the yuvarani in concern here was Devasena. Devasena had fallen for someone. And that had clearly gotten Aditha excited enough to ride down to Kuntala in a matter of less than nine hours. The poor horses.

For the next few hours, the three sat in Vandiyathevan's chambers speaking about everything they had piled up in their heads. Devasena spoke about the last boar hunt they went on which ultimately led to shivudu, making her fluster and the other two giggle. And just to make things light on Devasena, Aditha asked Vandiyathevan about how his spying mission was going on, which he himself led to Kundavai even though his nanba very evidently tried to avoid it. Both Devasena and Vandiyathevan knew better, than to bring up Nandhini, so they remained mum.

The sky had slowly begun to turn a lighter shade of blue, when both Aditha and Devasena realised it was time they sneaked back.

"Try not to get caught." Devasena told Aditha before opening the chamber doors. "I'll try. But you're soldiers are a little too good." Devasena tried to respond assuming Aditha was mocking her kingdom's army. "No seriously" Aditha responded "Your general found me sneaking in. But then he let me proceed after recognising me." Devasena sighed

"Devasena you're doing just fine, so is your army. Just.......just calm down. You're good. You're really really good. I'll see you in a few hours with my soldiers." He waved and smiled at Vandiyathevan before jumping out of the window.

"Get some sleep" Devasena said before leaving. "With Aditha here, today will be one long day, I can promise you that."

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I didn't think people would read this, but seeing people still write fics about rrr, bahubali and kgf, i couldn't help but churn all my thoughts into this story. So regardless of the number of notes this gets, you will get chapter after chapter on this crossover until I'm done with it thank yoooss!!!

Also HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

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[houseofbreadpakoda]

Naatpu-4

Ponniyin Selvan X Bahubali Crossover

It had been more than an hour since Devasena had sneaked back to her anthapuram, and all though she'd forcefully shut her eyes several times in an attempt to doze off she could only think about him. And the one time she was successful, she dreamt about Shivudu and woke up frantically. In an hour her maids would come by to wake her up. She wasn't going to get any sleep tonight.

Devasena felt love-sick, but what was supposed to be a joyful queer feeling, made her feel ill.

Kuntala was a very small kingdom, which was surrounded by enemy troops and also infested by them from within. Several of her own ministers would jump at the opportunity to rip apart the kingdom for their benefits. Yet she and her brother had held it together, through wars, through alliances, through compromises. It was clear that when Devasena would marry, it would be for a political alliance. That's how her parents had been married, and after them her brother. If despite the alliance, by the grace of Kanna even a small feeling of love blossomed between her and her husband, she would be grateful, she had convinced herself. After all, she was dedicating her life to her kingdom.

But now Devasena had decided to fall in love. And she'd convinced herself time and time again, that it would never be possible. She was a princess, and he was just......Shivudu. She remembered very well how the rulers of Thanjavur, a well established kingdom had reacted to Aditha falling in love with Nandhini. Her ministry in a kingdom like Kuntala too would react no less subtly, if they came to know about her feelings for him.

"The princess of kuntala has been swept off her feet by a common man." No. She wasn't going to prioritise a man over the kingdom she loved so much more. Her kingdom. Her motherland.

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"Uyir ungaldayathu devi....uyir....ungal-"

Vandiyathevan had repeated to himself a million times in the past hour. Vandiyathevan had fallen for women, so many of them. But never in love. Never the way he had fallen for Kundavai. And as much as it made his heart flutter, he also tried to keep a check on it.

"This can't possibly work out." He'd tell himself every two minutes. A princess of such superior lineage as the chozhas would never get married to a mere soldier from the vallava clan. The uproar it would have if the kingdom came to know.

Vandiyathevan too was a soldier, one of the most trusted in Aditha's battalion. The one who'd galloped from kingdom to kingdom, spying and escaping. He knew just as well as Aditha did, nobody could perform a mission as well as he could. His pursuit had always been to showcase his skills as a warrior and to win back the land of the vallavas one day. Marriage, children, family; these were never things Vandiyathevan was meant for. Or so had he thought. For how long could one live and work for material pursuits. Afterall Aditha had himself set him up with Kundavai.

He could see the light illuminating the silhouettes of the palace walls. The sun had painted the sky in an ombre pallete. Vandiyathevan decided to postpone his internal argument. He'd talk to Semba about it on his ride back to Thanjavur, maybe he could help.

He slipped out of bed, and went in to take a shower. By the time he had finished and changed into a new set of clothes, he could hear the faint clatter of metal. He walked out of his chamber to see the yuvarani practicing her swordsmanship in the courtyard. Devasena dueled with precision, constantly shifting her weight from one leg onto the other. The commander in chief of Kuntala, Manohar, himself had faltered his steps at times, but Devasena had continued to wield in an invincible pattern.

Vandiyathevan watched in awe as his eyes wandered around to a figure. Ah, Shivudu it was! But unlike a lovesick fool, he was looking at the yuvarani with pride, in a composed demeanor. Something so ironically shady about the man. "Where have I seen this man?" Vandiyathevan muttered to himself. In a moment he saw Shivudu smirk slightly and before he could wonder the reason behind it, he heard the clang of metal on the stone floor. The commander in chief had lost grip on his sword and been forced to surrender, lying on the floor. Devasena smiled and retreated while Manohar stood back up with smile plastered on his face. "You're the best warrior in the kingdom yuvarani, must you still keep at it so hard?" He asked her as she gulped down a tumbler of water.

"Yes Manohar, after all there are warriors from other kingdoms much well trained than I am, take Vallavarayan Vandiyathevan from Aditha's battalion." Devasena said looking up at Vandiyathevan who stood infront of his chambers with a smirk.

"Good morning to you too Yuvarani. Although it would be a horrible comparison to compare your swordsmanship to mine." Said Vandiyathevan, trotting down the stairs towards the courtyard. "But spying, you see that I might excel at."

Devasena laughed along with Manohar. "True that."

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Devasena and Vandiyathevan sat down for breakfast after she had freshened up. The palace had recieved Aditha's letter. The king and the queen had left the kingdom early to talk to the civillians and listen to their plights, so they could be back before Karikalan arrived, leaving just Devasena and Vandiyathevan at the table.

"Yuvarani if you don't mind may I ask you s-"

"Vallava please don't be so formal. And first please drop the yuvarani when you address me."

Vandiyathevan smiled uncomfortably.

"How have you not been given the position of the Commander in chief? It was evident in the duel that Manohar was sweating against your wielding."

Devasena's expression turned stern, something Vandiyathevan hadn't witnessed

"A woman is never appointed official roles on the battle field."

Vandiyathevan winced. He was not new to this. He knew very well about the practice. But while admiring Devasena's war craft, he had forgotten the discrimination of women on a battlefield. He had forgotten for a moment that a woman with the same if not greater proficiency than a man would still be sidelined in a war. He looked up at her, the guilt running through his veins.

"The very fact that I was even allowed on the battlefield had raised strong opposition. But this is my motherland, and if I'm given the freedom to live on it I must also be given the freedom to fight for it."

"Must you not be given the freedom to lead your people in a war then?" Vandiyathevan knew he was walking on egg shells.

"A great warrior such as you, fighting along with the other soldiers-?" He silenced himself, his eyes still looking at Devasena pitifully.

Devasena smiled slightly, her eyes tender

"On the battlefield, a soldier and a commander are both warriors nonetheless. A warrior stays true to the pledge. To dedicate our lives to the kingdom, to fight until our last breath. And an appointed role won't change that."

Vandiyathevan knew that it was unfair, that Devasena was forced to subdue herself only because she was a woman and felt that she should've fought for the position she deserved.

Yet he knew that Devasena had faced her own backlashes, and wherever she was, she had her reasons. What was expected of him during a battle was something she was reprimanded for performing.

So as a reply, Vandiyathevan subtly nodded and continued to eat his breakfast, while Devasena ate her's.

"Aditha will be here in sometime." Devasena said trying to break the silence.

Vandiyathevan looked up, when he heard the blow of the horns.

Devasena and Vandiyathevan both looked towards the bastions. "Looks like someone's early" Vandiyathevan said chuckling.

"Man won't even let us eat in peace." Sighed Devasena dramatically, leading the two to crack up.

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[houseofbreadpakoda]

Naatpu - 1

Ponniyin Selvan X Bahubali Crossover.

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Vandiyathevan was leaving to Lanka in a day. The orders of the devi herself. His devi. Poonguzhali, well versed with the route to the lankan shore had agreed to take him.

"We'll leave tommorow afternoon" she mumbled biting off a piece of coconut. "Tommorow? What am I supposed to do till then?" Groaned Vandiyathevan. "Well, you're in Chozha Nadu. One can find many things to do around here" she replied walking towards the harbour. "Remember to meet me at the harbour tommorow by noon." Vandiyathevan knew what he was going to do.

Aditha had spoken about a certain Kuntalan princess, who he'd met while returning from his first war. He and a few other soldiers, had halted there for a day. In the short span he'd gotten to be around the princess, he'd developed a liking towards her. "She'd understood me and healed me like no other. I gained a true friend that day."

Someone capable of understanding let alone healing Aditha? Now Vandiyathevan was too intrigued to let go of such an opportunity. The kingdom was four hours away, he'd make it just before sunset if he rode fast enough.

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Vandiyathevan had begun to churn stories to convince the princess as to the reasons for his visit. He could say he ran out of water, and although he was fine, his horse was about to faint of thirst. Or rather, that he had fought the Pindari soldiers on his way to the palace and was injured.

He'd now reached the bastions of the palace. He hopped off his horse and introduced himself to the soldiers "I'm Vallavarayan Vandiyathevan, Aditha Karikalan's nanban."

The soldiers face immediately turned sober, "The yuvarani was expecting you" he smiled sending a nod to the other soldiers who opened the gates for him, confusing Vandiyathevan.

The palace was much smaller compared to the others he had seen. A young boy took Semba into the stables, as a daasi led him towards the meeting chambers of the palace. "Yuvarani Devasena will be here in a moment." She informed him. The kingdom was a heavy contrast to thanjai. The walls of the palace were made of marble. Agriculture seemed to be the major occupation. The palace itself looked quite whimsical and fable like.

"At last, we meet!" He heard a voice behind him. In a moment he knew what Aditha had felt. "Made us wait a little too long hmm Vanthiyare? Please do sit!" said Devasena leading him to a settee, seating herself too. There was something so warm about her aura, that made one feel, seen and included. "Karikalar had informed me that you'd be visiting. We've been eagerly waiting for you since then."

"Ilavarase knew I was coming? How- I myself hadn't planned on visiting until today morning".

"He'd informed me, that you were in thanjai and you were likely to come here if you got into any trouble. What he also told me was that he wouldn't be surprised, if you made up an excuse, just to come to Kuntala." said Devasena, a smile now playing on her lips.

Vandiyathevan winced. Aditha knew him too well.

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The two had gobbled up a scrumptious meal which compensated for all the running and falling and dancing Vandiyathevan had performed. "Aditha has spoken quite a bit about you" Devasena said drying her hands. "Oh I can say the same! Ilavarase believes you changed him as a person, for the better. He told us that you understood him when nobody else could. Rather, that was what drove me to meet you."

Devasena's smile faltered, her eyes fading into melancholy. "He was so happy. He'd met the love of his life then. One would never guess a man like him to be so extremely mushy when it came to love. Oh and the way he took her name. As if it were a prayer, or a chant rather. Nandhini." Her eyes traced back to Vandiyathevan who looked almost bewildered.

"Nandhini?" He asked gulping slightly. "He hasn't mentioned?" Asked Devasena, a tinge of concern slipping into her voice, "Oh why did I have to bring her up after so many years. He has probably moved on. Must have, if he hasn't mentioned her to anyone. Back then, he wouldn't stop chirping about her for a moment."

"He hasn't." He spoke breaking his silence, "Atleast, I don't think he has. I always wondered what drove him to the insanities he committed. It isn't common for one to think about conquering another kingdom, while still washing the blood off their hands from the war of the previous one." He looked back at her, eyebrows furrowed. "And i don't think she's moved on either."

"Who, Nandhini?" Devasena's gaze grew sharper by the second. "You met Nandhini?" Vandiyathevan nodded. A sharp exhale escaped Devasena's mouth. "Don't mention it to Aditha unless he asks you so himself. And if he does, do not lie." Vandiyathevan understood.

The room fell silent for a moment. "But Karikalan and.......love? To such extents?" Devasena tried to speak, but couldn't utter anything. Things were conveyed, in plain silence.

"Well speaking about love...." sighed Devasena, "How are you doing? Romantically that is."

Vandiyathevan was taken aback and amused all at once. He stared blankly at her, waiting for context, realising immediately that he wasn't going to get any. "I- I'm sorry yuvarani, I don't think I'm following?" Vandiyathevan asked shaking his head.

"Oh please Vanthiyare, I heard you've met Kundavai?"

Vandiyathevan's eyes widened, as a slight blush crept up his face. Is that what it was. Had Aditha tried to-? No. it could not have been.

"Hey, Aditha set you up himself. What are you worried about?"

Vandiyathevan looked around the room uncomfortably, the awkwardness reaching to him. "Yuvarani, I think there has been a slight misunderstanding. I met Kundavai Devi only to spill whatever I had spied and learnt."

Devasena sighed, moving closer to Vandiyathevan. "Vanthiyare, firstly, please call me Devasena. Secondly, why are you in such denial? You clearly like Kundavai. Or, a little more than like i supposee"

"Yuvarani-"

"Tsk tsk"

"-I have no feelings towards the Ilavarasi."

"Vallava! Your face is as red as a ruby."

"No?!-"

Vandiyathevan stopped, as soon as his eyes caught himself in the mirror across their table. His face had turned into a brighter shade of red, than the ink he had painted his face with for the MaayaKannan Recital. What had he done to himself. Since when had he begun to blush? He slightly smoothened his moustache before turning back to Devasena. She had now propped her chin on her hand, smiling wide at Vandiyathevan.

"But I'm just a soldier. With no land or identity. How could one even dream of such things at my stature?

"Why not? Who hasn't heard of Vallavarayan Vandiyathevan? Aditha Karikalan himself sings his name to every creature he meets. Imagine the stature of a man who rules the sky above him and every piece of land he stands on."

Ah, so it was Yuvarani who'd influenced Ilavarase to speak such words of motivation. The similarity in their thinking and choice of words, surprised Vandiyathevan.

"The thing about love is, it just happens vallava. Before you realise it, you've fallen for them. And they for you. People fall in love with souls, not bodies, and definitely not with statures. Knowing you, you must've already charmed her. And knowing Kundavai..." Vandiyathevan's eyes perched up, "she might as well be thinking about you right now."

Vandiyathevan sank back into his chair, exhaling sharply.

"Cause you're a little too precious."

His gaze met her's.

"The only reason I thought Aditha had moved on is because of how cheerful he was the last time he'd visited. But now that i think about it, i think it was all because of you. He'd gone on and on about you. So much so that Nandhini would be jealous if she were present."

Said Devasena breaking into a fit of laughter as Vandiyathevan joined her too.

"Before you know it you've fallen for them...." Repeated Vandiyathevan. "Who is it?" He asked abruptly, interrupting her thoughts. Devasena fumbled, her eyes blinking vigorously.

"Sounds like you speak with a lot of experience yourself."

Devasena smiled thinking about the love sick fool she'd fallen for. Vandiyathevan grinned jumping back into his element.

"So.....?" He asked bending forward resting one palm on his knee while the other held up his chin, raising an eyebrow, mockingly. Devasena chuckled throwing a pillow at him.

That day, he'd gained a new friend. A true friend.

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If Devasena wasn't Devasena i would've made her fall for Vandiyathevan. I'm not kidding.

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[houseofbreadpakoda]

Naatpu - 2

Ponniyin Selvan X Bahubali Crossover.

The sun had set a while ago. Vandiyathevan was left in his chambers to rest before dinner. He'd tried hard to find the man who'd made Devasena herself fumble, but to no avail. What was his name again....ah Shivudu! He'd been hit by a bull, oh no to be precise he'd been stood infront of a bull to fight. Yuvarani had assumed that the man was walking around masquerading. And well, then he got hit and was now resting in his chambers. It was absolutely necessary to let Aditha know about his dear friend's new *ahem* interest, thus he had sent him a pigeon post hours ago. Devasena had left to prepare for a Krishna Pooja, leaving behind a daasi to serve to Vandiyathevan's needs. Oh and was he served.

"Yuvarani is not the kind to fall in love and bleh bleh, but something has happened to her in the past week."

"Oh I heard that too."

"She refused a proposal from a massive empire and-"

"Let me guess. And people assume it's because of Shivudu....?"

"Exactly!" The daasi exclaimed immediately shushing herself being aware of her surroundings.

Vandiyathevan smiled at her. Wasn't this all he needed after weeks of spying around? A friend to spill some tea with. Vindhya had been Devasena's Sakhi since they were children.

"And what does the yuvarani have to say about that?"

"Of course she denied it." Vindhya said huffing and stretching her hands towards her knees. "But of course the blush across her face betrayed her."

Vandiyathevan remembered how Devasena had teased him about Kundavai that very evening.

"But I agree with the yuvarani, Shivudu definitely looks like he's playing around. Especially his uncle. His antics give everything away."

She was interrupted by the blow of a conch. Vandiyathevan immediately drew his sword close. "No no, that's alright. It's just the Krishna Pooja. It must be starting now." The sound of the conch was immediately replaced by the sound of a flute and then a melodious voice. He moved towards the balcony to hear the melody better. He suddenly turned back. "That's....the yuvarani singing?" He asked, receiving a small nod from a grinning Vindhya.

Vandiyathevan looked back to grab a glimpse at Devasena but instead caught someone else trying to catch a glimpse. Shivudu and his mama were out resting against the pillars grinning at each other from time to time. Oho so the attraction was mutual. Of course it was, how can one not fall for the yuvarani. The man looked familiar. His uncle not so much. He informed Vindhya and scurried downstairs towards the men. Shivudu wouldn't stay put for a second. He'd sprint all around the palace, wherever the melody flowed. The Pooja finally came to an end and so did the song. Shivudu had now dozed on a branch under the moonlight. Vandiyathevan waited for the surroundings to clear up. After a while, he slowly tiptoed to the branch, whispering "Shivudu....heyy Shivudu.....".

Amarendra opened his eyes to see Vandiyathevan up close, and almost drew out his dagger. But soon remembered the act he had put on. He pretended to roll off the branch before Vandiyathevan caught him. "Heyyy!!! Arasan. Arasan. Don't be afraid." Vandiyathevan whispered looking around to make sure he hadn't alerted anybody else. He rested on the branch signalling at Shivudu to relax as well. "I heard you hurt your hand today morning, how are you now?"

" I- I'm well s-sire" Shivudu replied. Vandiyathevan sighed. This was so obviously a play. The man fumbled his words, but didn't have an ounce of fear in his eyes. He shook his head down repeatedly, but his shoulders remained stiff and sturdy. Even when he was woken up suddenly, there was no fear rather he was in a posture of defence. And to top it all, Shivudu hadn't shown any signs of an injury until he brought the topic up. Even now he was only slightly cradling his "injured" arm.

"Good" Vandiyathevan muttered after several moments, "Why don't you go to your chambers and rest. First of all you've injured one of your arms. Now if you'd fallen off the branch and hurt the other? No no that shall not happen. Come let me help you to your chambers." He now looked at Shivudu to see him gazing up. He looked up to see Devasena finishing the final Aarti to the moon. "It was a beautiful lullaby wasn't it?" Vandiyathevan asked suppressing a giggle. "Absolutely" Shivudu answered still under Devasena's spell, which was broken by a giggle soon after.

Shivudu tried to return back to his character, but was so speechless by his view that he just stood there trying to speak while still staring at the yuvarani. Vandiyathevan had had the time off his life seeing all this. "That's no problem, I absolutely understand how much you loveeedd the lullaby, so let's get you to your chambers now shall we?"

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