#points at Eri who killed his brother in an act of self-vengeance and immediately regretted it when he had time to think and when he left a

[toomuchdickfort]

*over-analyzes the stories of my OCs at bedtime until it makes me want to cry while I wait for the Benadryl to knock me out*

#it doesn’t happen too often but. it’s happened often enough that it’s like. Hm. #and like. it’s just Bc I make myself feel bad at bedtime anyways if the brain is left to it’s thoughts and also sometimes I need to know Ill #get sleep so I take smth to knock me the fuck out. and in this case it’s also Bc allergies are kicking my ass #but anyway. looks pointedly at the characters who’ve come close to self inserts and how their lives only get better after some tragedy if #they get any better at all. #looks pointedly at arson sitting curled up on the floor of their room having their third cry of the week and Derrek laying on the floor #trying to kick the ‘experiencing another universe instead’ thing into gear because existing is so much energy and he doesn’t have the energy #to do anything and he also doesnt have the energy to sleep #points at Eri who killed his brother in an act of self-vengeance and immediately regretted it when he had time to think and when he left a #note he chose to paint himself as villainously as he could without lying because he figured it would be easier on his mother #and synaelia who is slowly like. actually being hit with the fact that she’s dead and is most likely going to stay that way for a very very #very long time and part of her wants to ask a father figure how he handled that but he’s ditched town and she blames herself and instead of #dealing with any of that it’s time for a revenge road trip with a sword that needs therapy #and also points at lawrence who I’ve talked about before but. the line ‘he was more of a tool than the sword ever was and now he had no clue #what he was’ with a side of ‘this man came to two different conclusions about who he fundamentally is and then got all his memories back and #those ideas do not remotely align and he feels lost’ #and I could keep going on but the meds are kickin in and I think that this is probably more sharing than I’ll be comfortable with in the #morning anyways. if I remember about it #don't mind me #i’m just complaining