#please ignore me im typing this through tears i just watched the monsters reflection dean edit again for the thousandth time

[tsurangaconundrum]

for all that juno steel and dean winchester are mirrors. are parallel characters. they have the opposite problem with their parents in a way that makes me froth at the mouth. dean winchester can’t stop putting his parents on a pedestal, can’t stop seeing the humanity in his dad. meanwhile juno only saw the monster in his mother, condemning her. it’s SOOO interesting because like. they both struggle with becoming their parents and with finding traits of their parents bad, but dean (for all that he condemns himself) justifies his father, while juno condemns his mother WITH himself. like in this singular respect i would call dean benzaitencoded, except that juno is definitely dean if john had actually shot sam (which is a whole other post. but.) maybe the point is juno is less repressed than dean? able to let his feelings out, hate his mother, which is still a thing he had to work through, but different than the dichotomy that dean exists within? it really is absolutely no looking at the pieces of yourself hours in dean winchesters mind. the cognitive dissonance is so insane. this is all to say that sam can should must do the monster’s reflection monologue if supernatural was good. instead because they didn’t commit to sam being like john and it would feel wishy washy, while dean has to do double time and have the absolute cognitive dissonance of hating his father’s traits and forgiving his father. 

#please ignore me im typing this through tears i just watched the monsters reflection dean edit again for the thousandth time #maybe ill rewrite this coherently another time but i know if i drop it in the drafts it iwll never escape. so instead im publically weird #han talks