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thoughts abt fic so far mainly consist of me wondering how drdi ranboo does it. im currently thinking abt dropping out bc my classes suddenly moved online and so half them are online and half arent and its a nightmare of running around and i would rather die! (i am joking dw im fine lol) but im just thinking abt how ranboo would just. do it. and if i had to do all the things ranboo did,,, i would simply die. i would just! pass away! but then i think abt all the things im trying to juggle and maybe im not being soooo dramatic. but seriously hows his schedule like that??? im almost jealous i feel like he could have my schedule and get everything done and  be chill lol

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reading kale’s fic (drdi) day 1: ( part 2)

ch. 3

phil and wilbur are like: tommy has adhd and we know it

tommy and ranboo in english class are literally my only two flavors of adhd in class. either i’m fully not listening or i am writing down every single word said because i cannot retain a single thing i have no idea what’s important and what’s not also i need to color code AND draw diagrams

i’m throughly convinced tommy’s characterization is based on me at this point. even if he’s not i’m claiming him as my self insert character. he has adhd probably, likes sugary coffee, and has daddy issues.

ch.4

once again curious who the mystery person that never shows up is. i would think it’s schlatt if i didn’t know schlatt was already another character. i’m confused.

my job is mentioned in this fic : )

ch.5

MORE evidence that tommy is a pigeon-insert: he’s on financial aid. i KNOW i’m pulling at straws but i claim him. i claimed him before i read the fic and i claim him now ok

i want pizza now :,(

ch 6

i keep not having anything to say abt the dream scenes simply because he sucks and there’s not much more to say abt it.

tommy being good at math surprised me i forgot is he had a major or not???? ranboo not getting it also relatable. kales dropping some hot takes abt tha american education system via this scene and i’ll drink to that. also cheating!!!!! yay!!!!

oh it’s not a lead up they elect somebody new?? ig that’s still a lead up. i seriously don’t know who this could be. everyone’s already there. stopping dsmp when ranboo join prolly puts me at a disadvantage to guessing D: i don’t even get a hint based on the position bc tf is a graduating senator?

wilbur likes the person. hmmmmm. trying to remember the lore of dsmp tbh

WAIT IS IT TECHNO???????? geniunely figured that out as i typed this if i’m wrong i will be so sad

naming tubbo tuberculosis is of course something kale would do. i knew about this. but i still hate it.

#another one #pigoenhome can read #uhhhhhhh idk what to say abt this one

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reading @leafcabbage ‘s fic (drdi) day 4: ( part 1)

CHAPTER 19

I HAVE A NIGHT OFF IM BACK BAYBEE

i knew that kale would write dream doing nice stuff like this but still, i appreciate so much that the antagonist isnt portrayed as inherently evil or like he just absolutely hates ranboo for no reason. we love 3 dimensional characters!!!! idk i never expected a 2D character from kale but it is…. pretty common in fics for that to happen so !! definitely appreciated : )

also it’s so confusing when somebody taking advantage of you or manipulating you does something genuinely nice for you. it’s so easy to convince yourself like.. YEAH i am overreacting

bad is nice in this fic

the tonic clonic seizure… i desperately want this kid to get help. please don’t go to bed. please go to the hospital!!!!!!!!

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reading kale’s fic (drdi) day 2: ( part 1)

i skipped a bunch of chapters because at some point i stopped writing and just was reading

ch. 14

literally shut up ranboo i am already hating this train of thought he’s having. tommy and tubbo like you plenty!!!!

GO TO A DOCTOR!!!!!!!

sigh i knew it got worse. i just don’t have words. i half expected dream to call immediately after this with more dumb requests lololol

why wouldn’t he just go talk to them jfc. he’s so!!!!! ugh!!!! i’m trying not to be upset with him bc he’s going through it and is Very Traumatized but seriously ACTIVELY pushing people away who are so desperately wanting to be a part of your life and help you is just kinda toxic like now everybody feels like shit!! accept help!! i say this as somebody with an avoidant attachment style. so i’m allowed to complain.

(i would also like to read the version where he didn’t run away but i cannot find it. does it exist? i’m aware that this is also not happy)

sorry i feel like you are all yelling at me for being so harsh on ranboo, i’m just annoyed that he won’t do the SLIGHTEST amount of self advocacy and looking into accommodations for what i assume (/know) is a documented issue with his memory and stress causing physical health issues. or telling dream like hey if i’m not being paid i can’t take on more projects. or telling anyone about anything dream has done so far!!!!!!! of just like. i don’t know EATING ANYTHING? i get where he’s coming from i just hate it.

kale is doing a great job at like. writing a character that has so little self worth that he’s lighting himself and everyone else on fire and i don’t understand how it’s only 14 chapters in and there’s many more hundreds of thousands of words to go he sounds like he’s going to fucking collapse and die instantly

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reading kale’s fic (drdi) day 1: ( part 1)

ch.1:

in this first chapter i’ve learned more abt what student government is like n what their job entails then them explaining it to me

also thinking?? the missing senator??? i feel like that’ll be a reveal but who D:

ch. 2

i already know dream is a gaslight gatekeeper girl boss from what i’ve read other people say and kale and also just how canon dream acts so this is not a surprise to me

off topic but i thot the university name was a dick joke but i forgot how other than it has the word penis in it

wait i just read that back, pennensula is what i meant (u can’t spell)

i already feel seen by tommy clearly having adhd. me too.

kale had already nailed ranboo’s voice i hear it in his voice. specifically:

tommy’s too

there’s no way that diner isn’t based off the diner in our home town. seeing directly into the kitchen? peeling booths? it’s *****’s for sure.

FRIES ARE GOOD IN STRAWBERRY MILKSHAKES TOO. im equal opportunity fry milk shake. and chocolate.

i just realized the chapters only get longer from here meaning that there’s no way that i can keep writing this many thoughts. or i’ll have to break these into parts.

xoxoxoxo

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reading kale’s fic (drdi) day 1: ( part 4)

Ch. 9

i also relate to feeling like i might throw up when i’m tired. i thought nausea was a normal symptom of not enough sleep!

bruh why doesn’t this kid (ranboo) have accommodations

i’m just imagining phil watch tommy and ranboo have this insanely off topic conversation like *standing emoji*

oh he interrupted

them going to wilbur’s studio space was very sweet scene to me. also i cant wait until i have a studio space on campus when i get into the cool people program. i too will house crying children overwhelmed with life.

the drugs thing was funny. drdi wilbur prolly does mushrooms lets be real

Ch. 10

I KNEW it was techno. and also? this scene maybe me geniunely laugh out loud. pretend government. amazing

ALSO we are finally to the medical shit i knew was going to happen. honestly i know we are meant oto feel bad for ranboo here but ive watched somebody straight pass out before and from a standerby its so fucking scary ur like tf do i do????????? so i just ended up being like oh god i know exactly how tommy and tubbo feel. 

like I GET that money is an issue but seriously everyones fucking worried!!!! go get some help!!! theres doctors who have sliding scales. please. 

unrealistic thing in this fic: how early tommy and tubbo go to bed. it SEEMS like they go to bed at normal times and i do not buy that for a second. kale is the only college stufent on earht on that schedule / jay

OKAY I THINK???????????? IM CAUGHT UP WHO KNOWS

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reading kale’s fic (drdi) day 1: ( part 3)

haha im at work this is fun theres nobody here because class is online why am i here may as well read

ch.7

all i have to say abt this is it’s funny when i can see where kale pulls experiences we’ve had from. like i am unlocking their POV to experiences we have had together. this city trip reminds me of various stops on the roadtrip we did shortly before they began writing the fic

also i have bad auditory processing and relate so hard to getting like frustrated borderline angry when i can’t hear/understand something that was said!!! idk why it’s such a frustrating experience D:

also the other roommate. lmaoooo

ch.8

finally some tubbo struggling with school like the rest of us representation. he’s being so on top of it before i’ve been envious . i had a moment where i was like why am i even reading rn i should be doing homework! it’s easy! see! drdi tubbo does it! and then i remembered tubbo doing his homework is as simple as kale saying they did his homework. kale can you right abt pigeon doing his homework and getting straight a’s? thanks. (editing my notes: you did it ty i cried.)

this fic is just: being neurodivergent in college: 3 ways

kales just calling out Certain tubbo viewers at this point lol.

bruh i wish anybody would just call dream out i feel like they all know it. 

#pigoenhome can read #ive read so many words the last 12 hours #ive read more words than ever before #except maybe when i read the entire hunger games serious in like #a week #i AM able to read!

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so far so good

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reading @leafcabbage ‘s fic (drdi) day 4: ( part 2)

CHAPTER TWENTY BITCHES

i love everyone noticing that ranboo is clearly not medically okay and being like “…okay, if you say so” when ranboo says he is okay

RANBOO GET OIT OF UR JEANS FFS you’d sleep BETTER IN COMFPRTABLE CLOTHES

I don’t! even have anything to say. y’all wanted my reaction i have none except AAAAHHHH and that’s it!

i can’t wait until ranboo opens up abt his literal disability and gets help for that too,,, wilbur and them don’t even know the HALF OF IT by looking at that planner god.

i knew i wouldn’t be able to stop reading after i read this chapter and i was right i’m on the kitchen floor making mac and cheese at 10pm like…. hmmm it wouldn’t be THAT late if i started reading the next chapter… and maybe the one after,,,,,, ALSO ive been yelling to kale abt how ranboo needs pjs and then tommy said the exact same thing abt him TOMMY IS A ME INSERT  aHHHHH is all i have to say

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reading @leafcabbage ‘s fic (drdi) day 3: ( part 1)

ch.15

kale would do the cookie thing to me in high school. just dump a bag of cookies except i never got to eat them all bc my nana loves their cooking and would fight me for them lol

this scene between dream and ranboo reminds me of the time my great uncle sat down next to be and was like “what motivates you (pigeonhome)?” and i was like….. what.

i like plain cheese pizza…. we are getting pizza today… i think it is just cheese…. yum.

thank you techno for walking him back, jesus

there’s the trauma.

ch.16

bruh ranboo still taking tutoring from tommy without even sitting with him in class?????? ranboo is like. i will take tommy’s help! there’s no logical fallacy in being a burden that way! but a mutual friendship? no no no i could never do that to him!

lol yeah. she took the money. very pog champ.

the bad scene: yeah….. you don’t need the disability center at all. you idiot. lol is that mean to say in this context? on a related note i found out my school Cannot test me for adhd and to find that out i had to make a phone call, ask, then have a phone call meeting with a social worker later lol. why???????? couldn’t they have told me when i asked in the email?????? ig i need to find a specialist now because i am. drowning in school work and could really use DOC lololol 

NO i didn’t WANT HIK TO QUIT TUTORING I JUST- ugh

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