#physically emotionally etc. just completely raw and wounded. and i have no energy left

[babyfairy]

very very hard and painful day. one of the hardest i’ve ever endured. i don’t know if/when things will get better but i shared with some of my loved ones how i’m feeling and i was honest about feeling like i’m at rock bottom. love is the only thing that can carry me through. i can’t do it on my own

#i hope i get to a point someday where life feels worth living and i don’t wake up every day wishing it was my last. genuinely #i want to see the beauty in life so badly. i want to know what anchors everyone here #because right now i just don’t know how anyone can handle it. or how it’s worth it for anyone #anyway. i’m fine just tired i cried a lot and my entire face is swollen and i still had to work (lol) so i’m just like. worn ragged i think #physically emotionally etc. just completely raw and wounded. and i have no energy left #but for now i’m safe. so i guess that’s all that matters because that’s all i can control