#oughhh she’s rly frustrated me w this one

[paincanbeholy]

Why do I feel like I’ve disapounted her? Why am I tearing myself up again? I need to like just not show up fr a bit.

#gonna let Lilith know that she is taking the wheel / showing up from now on #sys #op #like…. #wgoah #he needs time #go fuck yourself . #oughhh she’s rly frustrated me w this one #J #and it’s not it’s not her fault she’s brilliant and I’m just me and #god. I wish I wasn’t a system.. #hod dude I wish I could just keep making the excuses #likeboh I don’t remember what I said last night whoopsie omg I begged for you in my sleep????? #oh??? that was actually the 6 YR old in my fucking brain #yeah sometimes he comes out and we watch cartoons and #why am I so hung up oknit #idk. idk