#or maybe im having extremely poor emotional regulation stemming from continued added stressors throughout my life

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Can’t say I’m a big fan of flip flopping between catastrophization and optimism based on whether or not something Bad has happened to me but….. mm

#tags cw: suicide ideation #i think the former started happening because of well… -gestures toward the state of the world- #like i do not think I suddenly developed some kind of specific disorder (… maybe depression if anything ?) #but how the fuck am I supposed to weave through life normally when aware of the fact that living in this country is precarious for many - #- reasons… this planet is carelessly havinf co2 dumped into the atmosphere when we know its going to slowly kill us #many more reasons its difficult to get into #i guess thats depression . Silly (im a psych student i should know this) #or maybe im having extremely poor emotional regulation stemming from continued added stressors throughout my life #i heard that can be a facet of adhd (fun…) which.. i guess so lol #it used to be so much more worse until I got adderall and any time I made a mistake that stressed me out it was like. instant Ideation #adderall used to make me feel elevated which was nice but now i just feel normal (which is better) #*(which is better than it was before)