#or continue where you left off

[kindlyanni]

hi, i hope you're well today.

i watched your sketchbook tour video on yt (from like 2 days ago) and so, i wanted to try to ask for advice, if you want to give it ofcourse, no pressure to.

you see, i love sketces so much, there's just some special beuty about them. i really enjoy seeing artists' sketches, including yours, ofcourse. i love seeing them on tumblr & yt.

also, even though i'm 26, i'm a COMPLETE begginner at drawing. i'm struggeling with the basic boxes-in-correct-perspective things, drawing faceless heads and motionless torsos, and.. yea, that's it. i know practice is the only way to advance in drawing, but i can't bring myself to. i see artists like you filling your sketchbooks with characters you're passionate about and honestly that's all i've ever wanted to be able to do, but i literally don't have the ability to do so.

just to be clear, i'm not asking you how to motivate myself to draw. the thing is, even though people are telling me that maybe it's not meant to be and i should give up, some insane part of me refuses to let this dream go. my question to you, as someone who somehow got there, is: do you think it's doomed? do you think that me struggeling so much with the drawing itself AND the motivation, means i won't be able to do it? do you think if i'm not having fun with it now, than i'll never get to a point where it will?

it might sound dumb, but it's a thing i'm nervous about. and after seeing your sketchbook, filled with so much characters and stories that i could see are so dear to your heart and so fun for you to draw, i'd love to hear (read) youe 2 scents about it, if you're willing to share. again, no pressure to.

thanks in advance, though.

Hi there Anon!

I'mma be frank and honest here: "maybe it's not meant to be and you should give up" is the absolutely stupidest thing someone can say to you. What the hell?? Dear Anon, if you feel even the tiniest bit of "I want to draw" then you should draw. You don't have to be good at drawing to draw, that's what's great about it. Anyone can find something to draw with and something to draw on. And just draw. If the act of drawing scratches some itch for you, then that's all you need. It doesn't mean it has to be fun all the time, though. Sometimes I can't get part of the drawing right, or even the whole drawing! Sometimes I hate what I finished drawing. Sometimes I want to draw but nothing comes out. But the itch is still there, it doesn't go away completely. You say it's your dream, then you should follow it. Everyone starts somewhere, and it's never too late too start. It's never too late. When you're dead it's too late.

If you don't feel the itch for drawing anymore, then you know it's time to move on to other things. And that's okay too, and it's not giving up. And don't let anyone else tell you that you should give up, if it is your passion.

In case you have sketchbook anxiety, don't think a sketchbook has to be one big art piece with each page something instagram worthy. I know it's become a thing where artists share their sketchbooks on social media and it's so Aesthetic™ that it's giving anxiety and pressure for everyone to have a sketchbook that pretty, but it really doesn't have to. You don't have to show it to anyone. Or you don't have to even have a sketchbook. Draw on random paper and put them in a folder. I did that for ages. The ones I use now aren't really sketchbooks either, but sketch pads with spirals. And those work the best for me. I have a few books but I haven't finished any of them.

If stiff figures is your issue, I suggest figure/life drawing as practice. Drawing tutorials about boxes and circles and proportions can only get you so far. Gather images of people in different poses. Dancing is really good for this. Sports too. And the less clothes the better. Draw what you see. Do it in 1 minute, 2 minutes, 5... Focus less on getting details right and more on the flow, the movement of the body. Tracing the image is lower effort and not as beneficial, but it still helps get the idea of how things are shaped and connected etc. And remember you don't have to show these practice drawings to anyone.

I know thanks to social media there's this pressure to show everything you make. But you really don't have to, if it makes you nervous. When I started drawing, we didn't have tumblr, twitter, ig or facebook. I drew a shit ton! I bought so many drawing pads, and no one has seen most of what's in there. I drew for myself. I had a webcomic idea and I drew so much of the characters and what would happen with them in the comic. I've drawn So. Much. And just recently I'm at a point where I can show my entire sketchbook to the entire internet. I wouldn't have done that maybe like 6-8 years ago. And I still skip some pages I don't want to show, for one reason or another. And that's fine.

Gosh, this became a longer reply than I intended. I hope it helps! Find that thing that makes you want to draw. For me it was the story I wanted to make and the characters for it (I started the webcomic but never finished it lmao). For you it can be your OCs, or some other characters, it can be a pet or a band you really like, it can be Nicholas Cage, or flowers, or anything! Find the itch and scratch it real good.

Let me share a drawing of mine from 20 years ago (I was 16):

#black and red stabilo88's were my best friends #everyone starts somewhere and it's never too late to start #or continue where you left off #draw whatever you want however you want whenever you want #there's no wrong way to draw #I could start artist affirmation image blog with these lmao #good luck Anon! #ALSO everyone I know I have a bunch of messages in the inbox waiting and I'm so lazy to reply and I forget!! I'll get to them some day..... #Someone saying to give up drawing made me so furious I had to reply to this right away lmao

[moonpaw]

Fighting DEMONS rn trying not to get invested in one piece to figure out wtf you're posting about!!!!

come here cyber.... we have this thang

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#mp answers #i've been trying so hard not to be annoying to my bnha friends but if you will allow me to push this for this ask let me say 🙏 #if you're afraid of the episode count for one piece the manga is a lot quicker read while being just as enjoyable because the art style is #an actual delight. its great its fantastic im absolutely in love with it #the series is soooo good and i know luffy can seem unappealing to people before they start but he's just SUCH a great character & continues #to be even now. the story is SO GOOD the characters are SO GOOD... theres so much lore and world building that its insane #if you read the manga we get 'cover stories' on what's going on with previous characters to see what theyre up to even though we moved on #from where we left them. a lot of these cover stories blend into the main story so well its just seamless #there's one where we get introduced to a character we dont see hundreds of episodes into the anime and they show up like; during the second #saga. the series is about traveling to other islands and every single arc has been tied to another in some way or form that shows up later #even if its sagas and sagas later- it still becomes relevant again!! it's a huge ongoing story and there isnt a single arc that feels like #it has no purpose (sans filler in the anime-but even then!! some filler arcs are really entertaining!) #it's emotional! its sad! its downright stupid and silly but GOD... you can feel the love that oda put into this series and his characters #and the emotions in the expressions and the messages the story gives off it just makes me UEUHGHHAHGHH!!! #it's all about the adventure and the romance of it all! its about the freedom it brings and bringing freedom to others! #its a series where treasure should be a focus given its pirates and the its a giant treasure hunt for the one piece and yet! and yet so man #of the characters treasures are things that are not coins and gems but people and promises and family and and #im going to EXPLODE i love one piece

[blinkpen]

found another old one i never posted enjoy

#hhhhverse tag of spite #the first clue that viv cannot write entirely removed from Discourse Factor exists in the hazbin pilot #where vagina pulls AD aside to tell the audience so much badly written self-aware exposition instead of. idunno. #'how do you not know who he is?!' and then being cut off before she can exposition dump at us #the scene continues as normal but now neither AD or the audience knows why to be on edge but that there is reason to #and then AD and the audience get SOME answer when he does that OP shit at the end and then is like lol moving on #there! you answered AD's question without a paragraph of bullshit AND left INTRIGUE for the audience too for wtf all thats about! #wow! #a highschool english teacher would have pointed this out if you handed this to them for a grade! #but you decided you're too good for critique before graduating #and now you get pissy when people say this shit reads like a highschooler or someone still in highschool in their head wrote it #the math is very simple here or did you decide math is also for nerds and not worth your time as well

[expelliarmus]

#mine #doctor who #dwedit #matt smith #karen gillan #jemma redgrave #can you believe series 7 started airing 10 years ago?!?!?!?! like EXCUSE ME #i continue to be baffled by the passage of time #anyways giffing this again because i miss you kate #and you too eleven and amy #i went to my classroom today and listened to most of gallifrey war room ahhhh #i'll finish it off tomorrow #it was so hot in my room though it was horrible moving desks around #2 more days of summer vacation left before the long weekend sigh #summer went by too fast #but also get out of here summer!!!! WHERE'S THE COLD WEATHER #edit: hmmm okay i think my new laptop and monitor's colours are different #because the colouring looks washed out on my phone but i like how it looks on desktop??? #and i think my old laptop matched what i saw on my phone.... #oh well

[sun-e-chips]

In your waterpark Au... Do Sun and Moon let high school students volunteer as lifeguards during the summer? I could see Sun and Moon proudly bragging about their students to random people at the park and said kids behind them trying to get them to stop or just plain groaning in embarrassment. Have a fantastic day! (or night?)

Without saying too much (I am currently writing the au shhhhh) I will tell you unfortunately for most the past and the current present there are no human staff and the waterpark is entirely run and maintained by animatronics.

Sun and Moon as well as all the Tiki bots were designed to also fill the role as the park’s lifeguards, many robot eyes are constantly surveying the premise’s. The tiki bots are able to pull people from the water but only sun and moon are designed to perform CPR (I talk a little more about this in a previous ask)

Butttttt If the boys did have human staff they would absolutely be bragging as well as messing with them. The teens would especially be embarrassed by the boys praises and smothering in front of all the parks guests while they’re still on shift. The boys have no shame in expressing their fondness for the staff. All employees would be family no matter how short their time there may have been, Sun and Moon will always remember. They never forget a face after all hehe.

#hello hiiiiii thank you for the ask!!!! #I know I have other asks and I’m answering out of order but I’m still saving them to answer later #it makes me so happy to read everyone’s questions and comments about the au! #but yes sorry no human staff #as of currently… #gosh can you just imagine though the inside jokes the boys would play with the lifeguards #the summer would be their favorite season because that’s when all their friends come back and they get to catch up and leave where they #left off #the boys are very good with that #the game will continue #dca au #waterpark au #WP au asks #waterspark #Waterspark au #Waterspark Bay

[pickled-flowers]

Rereading the Mysqueery Gang and like. Who let me post this. Worst writing I've ever done like heck I'm so sorry to all my readers i should have been better 😭 these kids deserve a better story

#cringing so bad like oof #good ideas! good concepts! terrible execution #this is why i havent continued it from where i left off #if im ever to pick this project back up #i would need to redraw and rewrite the whole thing #at the end of the day i was 18 😭 my brain was NOT developed enough #the dialogues....... they are so flat like kdjfkshdisbfjdhsibdjdbc #I have to trust my writing is better now 😭😭😭😭 because BOOOOOOOOO #anyways once more im so sorry to all the people who were readers im so very thankful for you all #one day!!! one day theyll live again #and ill put them through so much you will no recognize them #ive had the time to listen to tma since then ok #also i made them swear so much #its because thats how i speak 😔 ive got a nasty mouth sorry #the story is still the same in my mind tho like i still have the ending ready

[musubiki]

i also like the idea that the merchant is usually singing when hes not selling things. like random strange songs either no ones heard before or no one has heard for hundreds of years. and you can usually HEAR him nearby is how you know youre close to the merchant, like in botw when youre adventuring and suddenly hear cass's music in the distance

#several times mochi and lime walking to school and she suddenly stops and goes (shushsuh do you hear that??) #and after a pause starts running in the direction of the distinct voice of rhe merchant #hes not like. an especially good singee but is passable and confident #like sailor voices #continues his song right where it left off after packing up shop #he sings like. sea shantys but its land /normal things instead of ocean things #no instruments just voice

[naffeclipse]

More about Mer!SJ time! >:D

Aaahh, I simply cannot stop thinking about what comes after the final confrontation!

Like so many things! The image of Eclipse suddenly realizing what he's done, hearing and seeing his own trident going into Sun, his brother looking down at the weapon and slowly looking up at him in pain, hurt, incredulous of what Eclipse just did.

How where Eclipse usually relishes in the smell of blood in the water, right now it means to him what it means to most people. Death, anguish, grief, fear.

The brief but no doubt intense argument of wanting to reach out to Sun but being furiously stopped by the vigilante and his other brother who might be directing at him the worst look he has ever given him, before they have to accept that there is no time to argue if they want Sun to make it.

The feeling of dejavu at the urgency of hurrying towards the surface as it's the only hope of saving a member of his family. Seeing Sun slowly fading away right in his grasp as they go.

The conflicting feelings of seeing many mer people, no doubt a lot who have been helped by his brothers, rush to the help of a twilight mer, and it's a slight relieve because Sun might make it, but also indignation because why did they not help her too? How dare they all suddenly act the good guys when it was much too late for those who needed it before?

And then the wait.

He must be known around the reef. Moon hides his resemblance for a reason. So it's not only dealing with the wariness around him which would be delightful some other time, but now there's too many eyes on him at the worst moment. When he's unsure and afraid his brother will die. He's too exposed and among those he loathes here in the light.

Then there's knowing the wrong move will get him kicked out and unable to know the fate of his brother, the vigilante pointing a trident at him at all times. There's Moon's scathing looks, full of accusation and distrust. One of his brothers who begged him to just leave the life he kept choosing and come with them, now seemingly looking at him like there's nothing he wants more than for Eclipse to go back and stay in the darkness like he's always done.

Maybe at one point when Sun has passed the worst of it, Eclipse finds a moment to slip in unnoticed, to check in on Sun while no one is in the room. And he has to see him, covered in every measure they had to stop the blood, breathing weak, like his chest is barely able to expand enough, like inhaling the clean water he needs to keep going is currently the hardest task for him.

And maybe he reaches for him. But Sun, in his semi conscious state both from the blood loss and the medicine he was given, minutely flinches back. Because the last time he saw his older brother with his hand extended towards him, what followed was sharp awful pain.

And there might be a twinge of indignation in Eclipse at first. Because this is him. How could Sun ever be afraid of him. Afraid that he would hurt- And then remember that he did. He did.

Words from long ago, and an instruction to protect his brothers echo in his mind as he looks at Sun fighting for his very life.

Emotions he hasn't experienced or that he thought himself above of for years and years now flood him.

I do have to wonder how even approaching after that would work. You said Sun still wants Eclipse in his life and it's what might be keeping the vigilante from trying to figure out a way to spear Eclipse into a wall and give him a last diminute chance to fix the mess he made. But there's also Moon who refuses to have him close. I'm veeeery interested in what might make Moon accept any attempts from him! Because hurting the vigilante in his pursue of them was already a betrayal knowing how much Sun and Moon cared for them. This? This was crossing a line both brothers were at least somewhat certain would never be crossed.

AHHH CHAOTIK I AM EATING UP EVERY WORD OF THIS IT'S SO GOOOOOOOD!!!

It's really hard to imagine it going well after such a devasting blow, but, Eclipse made his bed, he's gonna lie in it now.

Once the sand settles and Sun is tucked safely back into their coral reef home, on heavy medicines, and no longer in danger of bleeding out, that's when Moon lets Eclipse have it.

The vigilante keeps watch from the passageway between where Sun rests and where the fight unfolds. Moon wants Eclipse gone. Eclipse refuses to leave until he knows Sun is going to be okay. Moon attacks Eclipse.

It's freezing waters as the two brothers duke it out. Moon is completely undone by this—Eclipse is their big brother. He was their protector. He cared for them and raised them when their parents were gone. It is absolutely unfathomable that Eclipse could do this to Sun.

Eclipse lets Moon get it all out, taking his blows and wearing him down until they're both exhausted and the chamber is a wreck. The vigilante simply stays on guard, trident in hand, ready to finish Eclipse like they so desperately want to—they just need a reason, a better excuse to give Sun when he asks for Eclipse.

Moon punches Eclipse and his hand catches on his venomous spines framing his face, several breaking off as they puncture Moon's flesh. In a knee-jerk reaction, Eclipse rips off the nautical shell on Moon's head where it's thrown and shattered against the wall. The vigilante reacts badly, but they're quickly told that Eclipse's venom won't hurt Moon because they're blood-related. Which is great news among the recent damage done.

The water temperature drops below freezing, and Moon and Eclipse look at each other, floating in the wreckage of what's supposed to be their family.

That's when the vigilante persuades Moon to go and stay with Sun. He better not have been woken up by their battle. Eclipse glares as Moon disappears, and the vigilante prods Eclipse towards a lightless chamber in the coral reef home. Eclipse goes. The vigilante studies his broken quills while they explain something. They make it clear that if Sun wasn't so concerned about Eclipse, even after he skewed him, they would have killed him. They still will if Eclipse doesn't stop and doesn't control himself. They won't watch him hurt his brothers anymore, in any way. The vigilante is done with Eclipse.

Eclipse says that Sun and Moon have their mother's eyes. The vigilante doesn't know what prompted that. Eclipse says he can't leave until Sun is recovered. He has to survive.

The vigilante asks how Eclipse how could do it. How could he react so terribly and hurt his brother?

Eclipse asks in a soft voice how the vigilante could have killed a mer-child, his golden gaze burning through the sunlight zone mer.

That ends their conversation in a snap of tailfins as the vigilante abruptly leaves Eclipse in the dark chamber and returns to Sun's side. They tend to Moon's bleeding knuckles and whisper about finding him another nautical shell. They carefully watch Sun's chest rise and fall with weak breaths of water and pray that no more red wisps leak into the chamber from his many bandages.

#hahah i have fish sleuths brain rot :) #chaotik i'm biting your ask so hard right now ahhh!!! #it's everything! #sorry i kind of just continued where you left off but ahhhh yeah #eclipse is gonna squirm and accept his consequences and deal with his brothers' anger and angst #he's gonna repent with blood and suffering #sleuth jesters mermay style #pearl eye #chaotikanvas

[grapejuicegay]

Li Ming is so painfully aware of how much he doesn't fit in. Not with his mom so now he lives with his uncle. Not with his uncle with them fighting all the time. Not with his friends when he has to go back home and work at the diner. Not with his friends when they discuss their plans after graduation. Certainly not with his friends when they discuss dates they want to go on and girls they find cute. Not with the work and study program he aims towards, not with his poor English skills. Not with the one friend he has somehow made in the middle of all this - although that one gets close.

In the middle of all of this, where you can see his physical discomfort at standing out and a yearning desire to fit in somewhere, he still makes an active effort to stand out with his bright red watch worn on his right hand while everyone around him wears theirs on their left.

Given the opportunity to fit in somewhere, he chose to stand out. All Li Ming wants is to fit in while being himself. All he wants is to feel like people around him would accept him.

#there's also a slight chance that it is an active effort he is making #there's a singular shot where he wears his watch on his left hand #ep 4 1/4 in the classroom after he spots jim in his school #and i cannot tell whether that was a continuity error or a school rule #it has the potential to be ayan's hoodie level of rebellion #god i love this boy #i just wanna give him a hug #moonlight chicken #moonlight chicken series #and i love YOU p'aof #for giving me the chance to analyse the watch of yet another closed off boy with a scarily expressive face

[midnightcowboy1969]

this is how Michael & Joey watch movies when Nicole's not home

sorry for putting rich & mike rlm on your dash

#but anyways #it's interesting how quickly Michael & Joey become comfortable in each other's spaces (again) #it's the touching and Michael resting his head against Joey's shoulder #it's like yeah they fight and they're tolerating each other they say #but there is still a visible sorta love there which came about rather early so you get the feeling that they're not just tolerating #and this sorta love thing they have comes about early #because they're not just learning to like each other #they're learning to love each other again #and in doing that they're reentering the dynamic they had before the break up - which did involve being handsy #and there are these existant roles which is the reason this happen so quickly #i feel like i make no sense #I mean it's just that when you have a best friend and you're apart for a long time and reunite it's like time has not passed #we can continue from where we left off #this space they left when they parted is still there when they reunite #they just gotta find it again #maybe fix it a little

[pitske]

long fucking rant about the joy of reading a good book. (not at all accurate title)

I just finished reading Felidae! incredible book I really love the story and- okay bear with me. I got the book a few years back because my mom mentioned reading it when she was younger. I told her I'd want to read it as well and she went through the painstaking process of finding it (which was not easy because the Author is a right fucking prick so his books aren't really sold anymore.)

so we found it on ebay eventually.( god knows I am not givin that author my money) I left it alone for a few years, had other shit to read and actually did not read much at all during that time...

right fast forward I decide I should read it because one of my terrible habits is starting thousands of things at once and never really finishing any of em. SO AND THIS IS WHERE IT GETS INTERESTING! I read the first 3 pages or so n talked to my mom and brother about it shortly, saying I liked the way it was written, the characters, the exposition, etc etc- AND at the mention of the plot my brother goes "oh! I've heard of that! it's the book that some german studio made into that horrifying animated movie adaptation!" AND IT ALL CAME CRASHING DOWN

because I remember what he meant because you KNOW tiny me with unrestricted internet access had seen some clips of the gory , disturbing cat-movie before! and you know what? I was unfortunate (or maybe fortunate , seeing how I'm a massive horror fan now) enough to watch "Watership down" as a kid so when I saw Felidae being ranked even HIGHER than that movie in those "ooh horrofying disturbing kids movieees ooh" lists, I swore I'd never watch it..

and here we are, I read that boook so fast and it is actually incredibly entertaining (i also just have never read a "krimi" before so I definitely have a high appreciation for the genre now)

I am incredibly excited to watch the movie. JUST AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH a 2D animated thriller-detective cat movie with horrorfying scenes and absurd amounts of gore??? COUNT ME IN TL:DR : I realize that reading is fun if you actually have a good book to read and obsess over the story of a cat solving a series of cat murders

#I hate that this happens so often #where I find a great book or show and then the creator/author suck massive balls #looking at you jk rowling #either way I should read more good book. I had a lot of fun reading this one I should really read more Krimis #if anyone's got horror / thriller book recs feel free to throw em at me #please no stephen king tho I dislike how he writes (still forcing myself to read Cujo tho) #this is BY FAR the most incoerrent of my rambles #and since this is tumblr and I doubt I have anyone who wnat to read trough all of this #I am very much going to neglect checking my LRS in this #dyslexia is kicking my ass and today it is WINNING #pitskederdoenerhaendler #just. if kid me saw that I am actively deciding to watch this movie rn they would take me by the shoulders and shake me violently #I fuckiiiinggg love good books. I'll either continue reading Moby Dick where I left off or his majesties dragon (2) where I left of #you see I have a ton of started boosk #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH I actually have to rewatch Skinamarink so I can rant about it here

[flyingspicerack]

guys.... guys... GUYS ITS HAPPENING

#spice.txt #spice.ososan #im just back at work continuing where i left off yesterday with fic #its the ********* and ********** chapter and i know for a fact only one of you knows what these words are #and im getting to the latter part.... #woag guys the whold thineg hadbent lesaidng ugrdpgfs ddto tsyufyhis

[saintlesbian]

hiiiii i just had a really good job interview this morning so i am in a GREAT mood 2day ^_^ and now im really in the mood to draw so. I’m thinking i might stream l8r

also i wanted to do a 48 hour zine challenge so. im makin a lil sprina fanzine 4 fun lol... here’s a sketch i did 4 tha cover so far

#pentababbles #pentadraws #general hospital #art #fanart #sprina #i had an interview with this commercial trailer company this morning and i knocked it outta the park #they see a lot of potential in me and think i'd b a good fit 4 several positions so. YIPPIEEEEE #aside from that tho. ive been saying i wanted to make a sprina fanzine for a while now so. letsa go #specifically im doin a 48 hour challenge bc this weekend is the sprina fan meetup in nj #and i wanna be able 2 give nic and taby physical copies of the fanzine #and maybe have them autograph a copy 4 me? #also i'll def release it digitally when i'm done with it. prolly post it on itch.io or smth #i chose the NYE britch fest almost-kiss for the cover bc i thought that was such a cute scene #i'm still trying to think up a good quote for the zine title tho. #maybe ''you mean too much to me'' or ''is this what you want?'' #idk! im happy working on it tho and doing such quick sketches #anyways i'll probably work on the zine on stream tonite if yall wanna watch me work #and i'll put on some eps of sunset beach as well so we can continue the story where we left off

[danganronpa96]

Hey sorry for asking about Danganronpa 69 and all instead of Danganronpa 96 (both are MASTERPIECES imo) but at the end of Ultra Despair Gang, you said you had ideas for how it would continue but don't want to or something... if you don't mind, can I continue it? It's okay if not! Anyways, you've been a great inspiration and I appreciate your works! Keep going and don't rush! Have a good day!

I assume this anon message was also you due to it's similar wording (please forgive me if this is actually someone else haha)

Since I've already spilled the rest of the plot of UDG69, I don't mind if you want to make your own fan-made continuation! Although past me would prefer it if you stuck to the plot, I'm not too miffed if you have small deviations (I'm not that attached to it anymore so I feel like I won't be so critical about it lol).

The only thing I ask is that you specify that it will be a fan-made thing and not an official continuation. Before I was very iffy with people wanting to write it themselves and I'm sure if you asked me a few months back I would've said no. But now I really don't mind as I just don't see myself going back to it haha

Also tyvm! I appreciate the kind words in both messages! ^^

#also since ch6 is already half written #erm its up to you if you continue from where it left off or start it yourself #also if anyone else wants to make their own too please just ask me first #i'll most likely say yes but i just want a heads up first just so i know youre doing it with good intentions

[ikishima]

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#the amount of compassion you have to pour directly into a bad-faith asshole's mouth without knowing whether there's even a point #in order to get them to the point where they're willing to engage at a level where they actually take your feelings & words into account #the point where they even start hearing you and seeing you as a potential equal in conversation #the point where learning and growing becomes a possibility #is fucking exhausting. and i understand why a lot of people refuse to do it. i understand why some people dont practice what they preach #because sometimes the congregation in question is just there to throw tomatoes without any intent of listening #but idc! idc! im not gonna let a bunch of assholes close my heart off. id rather be naive but kind and get taken advantage of #if the alternative is leaving people behind or making a single person feel the way i have felt #having good intentions but being unable to express it w/o negative emotion or without the correct words or not being given a fighting chanc #to never be seen as a person or heard or listened to is so hurtful #i never want to do that to someone #and if i have parted ways with you or made you feel like that at any point please know it is only when i have no other options left #i know it's an autism thing to be so utterly gutted at being misunderstood and i'm most likely giving energy to people who don't deserve it #but i dont care! i dont care! #my compassion IS a renewable resource because i keep feeding it hope and humanity #i get mad sometimes but please know every angry word i've ever said has stuck on my mind like a glue trap #i remember every fight i have been slightly too aggressive and potentially awful in since the fifth grade and i continue to ruminate #on harm i have caused however big or small #i feel so surrounded by hate and anger and i just want to be that person who doesnt get caught up in it and can be compassionate no matter #lots to think about today ... #x

[karlyboyyy]

Why the fuck is my dash being so jumpy 😤😤😤

#scroll scroll scroll *jumps forward by 10 posts* #scroll back scroll back scroll back. continue to scroll from where I left off. *jumps back to post I already saw 20 mins ago* 🫠 #it only used to do that on the ‘for you’ feed not on my normal dash #but now it’s doing it all the time and it’s so fucking annoying #Karly overshares #tumblr #on mobile