#ooor everything can not work out at all bc life's a bitch and then... hm... well... idk. seriously.

[a-wandering-ghoulette]

It's 1am here and I can't sleep cause tomorrow I'm finally, FINALLY, taking a flight to go back to southern France, in my hometown, to stay at a friend's, potentially find a new job then never go back ever, E V E R, to my parents' (I mean, I might go back for holidays I guess) and I'll see Ghost in 10 days oh putain de bordel de merde de bon sang de bonsoir qu'est ce qu'il se passe dans l'espace please tell me it my plans won't flop for once JUST ONCE-

#is this real life? #is this just fantasy? #seriously I'm both so excited and so anxious about it #like everything can works out pretty well and then I'll leave my best life #ooor everything can not work out at all bc life's a bitch and then... hm... well... idk. seriously. #i want to believe that i'll find a way no matter what #buuut #hum #I- #erf ok I don't trust myself to not have the worst mental breakdown I ever had if I have to go back to my parents #i know that a lot of things I can't control made that i HAD to rely on them #and I am grateful to have them in my life #but #gosh- #things are... weird af and feels so not good about them #so yeah #I wish that I'll soon never have to rely on them again #wish me luck ? #I'll need some lol #and i wish getting out there will bring back the fuego of my passion and get me back to draw #'cause I almost didn't draw in... wow 5months or smthng...???!!! #time does fly fast yet everything feels so slow wow #ok time to try to sleep krrr- #et j'ai trop hâte de pouvoir a noiveau manger des fougasses et des bonnes tartes Tropéziennes hmmmmmmm #I saw I wrote badly some weurds but eh hein euh voilà ok ?? #delete later #?