#one of Raine's is 'Bleed Magic' by IDKHOW

[infinitethree]

OOC::

So I'm working on putting the Blood & Gold playlist of 5x songs per chapter (for a total of 150 songs, no repeats) into a good order. All the songs are picked out, it's just a matter of making it flow well.

BUT IN THE MEANTIME.

I'm gonna share my two (yes there are two) "credits" songs for Blood & Gold. These are the songs that I feel most strongly represent the fic as it stands at the end of chapter 30.

Things We Lost In The Fire is, to me, Dream and Tommy watching the world around them go up in (metaphorical) flames. Tommy lit the match; Dream can only watch as everything turns to ash around them.

And before he can even process that loss, even Tommy is gone-- taken away, stolen in a split second.

He's left cataloguing everything that he lost in that blaze, Tommy included.

Tommy tries to methodically label and incinerate everything he wishes he could forget. He wants to be rid of all the memories and feelings he has; maybe, even if it was all ash, he wouldn't feel so empty.

Fire being how Tommy destroyed the claims was, funnily enough, a connection I made literally yesterday.

Of the two, "More Time" is stronger. I get emotional every time I hear it, just a lil bit, because I can so so so so SO perfectly picture a shot of the remaining characters as they stand when the fic ends.

Tommy and Innit are gone-- off to a place far, far away from everything they ever knew. Tomm'y's plea for more time is to have more days spent believing he would have everything he ever wanted. He longs to have more time with Tubbo, more time with his mentor before the betrayal, more time sure that the only choice he could possibly make would be to take his rightful place as an admin at Dream's side. He wants more time with a clear purpose, a goal to strive towards. All he has now is what's in his inventory, bitterness, and his wits.

Dream begs for more time to have everything back to how it should be. He wants his server whole again, yes, but most crucially he wants his protege back. He wants to have the quiet surety of Tommy's presence at his side; he wants to have the awe in Tommy's eyes again. He wants to go back to when everything was simple-- he wants to reach through time and shake his stupid, stupid past self, and make him see the light. He wants any light at all. Everything is so cold and dark-- everywhere he goes, it feels agonizingly empty. He wants more time with his happiness. He wants more time with Tommy's happiness, and trust, and warmth.

Sapnap wants more time to understand. He doesn't know what happened, where and when and why why why everything went wrong. It feels like yesterday that his best friends were at his side. It feels like yesterday that he had two boyfriends who he thought were both good people. It feels like yesterday that he and Tubbo would hang out and take some small, cold comfort in each other understanding the strange loss of their closest friends shutting them out and pulling away. He wants more time to somehow unlock the truth. He wants to know what he could have done to stop it all. He wants go back to when he believed he and his friends would be together forever. A time before Wilbur, or Tommy, or even before anyone else joined the server. Maybe if he could go back, he could stop everything from going wrong.

I can picture Dream sitting alone in the empty server (in his empty base, in the ruins of the paradise he thought he could build) and screaming out, begging the universe or the gods or ANYTHING to give him more time. It's an extremely vivid mental image that is likely to cause at least one person psychic damage! :)

The only other song that I REALLY strongly associate with this fic is, funnily enough, another Crane Wives song.

"Margaret" is the anthem of chapter 27. It's Tommy and Innit putting their determination to the test, and of them laying out their plans.

Margaret waits, and so do Tommy and Innit.

#cocochaos #at this rate I should do a music tag lmao #also Daz's playlist got curated up to the H's #and I've chosen 78 down from 328 JUST SO FAR #there's another 445 songs to go #20 of those songs are from the same artist (37 for the full Daz playlist) #Daz has a few artists who I associate with him. but one rises above the others. #Day's playlist is just a few songs off from being the same count as Daz #saying music is important to how I write is like saying a hurricane is bit wet #some of the core ideas that I've built characters around are from songs #one of Raine's is 'Bleed Magic' by IDKHOW #Raine is gonna be a blast because he hasn't gotten as much of a spotlight #but He Is Not Okay #not when he's introduced at the very least #he gets a lil more okay later on. #(he has a much scarier monster in his corner now. one who is offering him a hand and power and a quiet place to sit and watch the rain) #Youtube #musicalmayhem

[tang-wei]

Rules: Answer 21 questions and tag 21 people you want to get to know better. Big love to @shitzun

Nickname: Mushroom 

Height: 163?4?5 cm

Last movie I saw: If we talk about in the cinema, then it’s captain marvel! Wonderful movie, I love Goose. If it’s me on my notexactlylegalstreamingsites then it’s this korean movie called Project Gutenberg (if I recall correctly)

Favorite artists: Music?? Art??? Music: 1D, 5SOS, idkhow || Art: Taozipie (IG), Picolo (IG), Kawacy (IG/ Tumblr), Afterblossom (IG/Tumblr/Twitter), JV (Twitter)

Song stuck in my head: Thankfully no big ear worms, but the song I’ve been looping is 11 minutes by YUNGBLD and Halsey 

Do I get asks?: very rarely heh, I’m past my heyday 

Other blogs?: my ons side blog ( @onsbloodyblades) and a rant blog

Following: 289

Lucky number: 6

What I’m wearing: CCA camp shirt (which is steve x bucky - the story is that the camp theme is superheroes, but the senior who designed the shirt was a shipper, so there’s an amazing stucky design on everyone’s shirt hehehe)

Dream job: Rich 

Favorite Food: Fried hokkien mee, risotto, briyani, anything super sweet or super savory (and spicy) tbh 

Dream trip: I recently saw a beautiful picture of Mauritius, so I’d like to go there! I like travelling, so there are very few places that I don’t want to go

Play any instruments: Vaguely able to play the piano 

Languages: English, Chinese, the most weeb of the Japanese

Favorite song: Currently I am vibing very hard with Do It All The Time or Bleed Magic (both by idkhow). Everyone knows I don’t have an all time favourite song whoops

Random fact: 99% chance I’m doing law in university,,,,and im doing law to spite and say fuck you to everyone (im petty bitch)

Aesthetic things: light pink washes // the world after a heavy rain, and the sun is climbing back out and the last few drops of water slide down the dewy leaves // the warm evening sun coming in through the glass windows of that corner coffee shop, the smell of ground beans in the air // burnt gold, the color of conquers long gone 

Tagging: I am bad at this,,,, I tag anyone who sees and wants to do this and the following people || @ignitingthesky (my last note) || @urbuttsmol (your user name makes me smile) || @paws-bells (you are apparently my biggest fan!) || @saltybane (my fav malec blog) || @lordbunshin (for tagging me in the other tag game!!)

#facts about the mushroom #i miss doing these hehe #gosh how have my answers changed oml

[motivationisdying-moved]

Teacup and doll for the ask meme?

Thanks for asking!!!

teacup: what are 5 of your favorite songs at the moment?

It’s kinda hard because I listen to a lot of music these days, but I’ll just list the ones that come to the top of my head.

1. Bleed Magic by IDKHow

2. (Not a) Simple Sponge from the Spongebob Musical

3. Asymptotic by Louie Zong

4. Singin’ in the Rain from the movie of the same name

5. Close To Me by The Cure

doll: describe yourself through a mixture of fictional characters

Well, I guess I have some characteristics of Choromatsu, such as his awkwardness, responsibility and his hypocrisy at times (I’m also the mom-friend sometimes lol). And then I also have a fondness for cats like Ichimatsu. That’s just the characters I have in mind tbh lol.

#ask #eri-writes

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about me tag; tagged by @wampierth​

nickname - i don’t think i’ve ever had one actually ?

sign - virgo

hogwarts house - UHM. i have no clue Possibly a ravenclaw? i haven’t read hp since i was like 9/10 forgive me

last thing I googled - “ear piercing combinations”

song stuck in my head - honestly the entire album ‘ghouls’ by amphee

following - 416

followers - 450

lucky number - it Used to be 3 but it kinda feels like atm i don’t have one? let’s just say it’s 154

dream job - i want to grow up to be a cat

wearings - Bigass hoodie and leggings

favorite song - bleed magic by idkhow

instruments - atm none but i’m looking into getting a viola!

random fact - i’m scared of all dogs except for some reason shibas/akitas/pomeranians/samoyeds/most of the spitz family which is why almost any dog i reblog are usually one of those

aesthetic - raining and/or busy city streets and all black things maybe? god i’m not sure

tagging: oh god i’m way too shy to tag any of my mutuals so open invitation to anyone who wants to do this!

#I TOOK A LITTLE TO GET AROUND TO THIS SORRY #it made me really happy u tagged me tho thank u somuch omg... #txt