#omg theyre able to be so studious its insane like they just sit down and do their work for like 8 hrs

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i am presented with two ppl + one option. one appears to like me very much and we have great chemistry and they're witty and ambitious and studious and have similar goals in life and they write beautiful poetry about politics and people and they seem very kind and want to make a difference in the world. they text me to make sure i've had a good day. the other one is none of those things but they are so hot and evil and also they don't like me even a little bit and i've told them that i genuinely wanted to kill them, a lot. i'd give everything and anything for one of them and not the other

#lobotomy time?? #meeting the first one today btw #were going to study tgth #omg theyre able to be so studious its insane like they just sit down and do their work for like 8 hrs #the first one is a few months younger than me the second one is a few years older. the first one is full of sunlight. older one says they #have a tainted heart. these words will speak themselves i can feel them in these blankets and theyre surrounding your figure #braced in the quilts. i've tasted both of their lips. one wears cherry chapstick and one wears strawberry. i forgot which is which. #one taught me a lot about riots and chicago and the mountains and it felt like i was with them in the big fields of their childhood. #we opened our eyes and there we were again staring at the conference of the birds in a london bookshop arm against arm. #the second one knows the relief of laying on a cold marble porch as a kid in the middle of a hot iranian summer. #all of us have shot big rifles when we were kids. both of them say theyre good at letting go.