#okay yes i recently moved countries which resulted in meeting nnew people but also i have only met like 2 gay people and neither were singl

[dream-launch]

It is possible I have fell into an emotional pit of despair solely because it has finally hit me that in less than two months I will 19 and I have never even had my first kiss or experienced any form of romantic love, fuck I've barely experienced platonic love

#okay maybe thats not the only thing making me sad lately but its what i cant help but focus on #but like i generally dont know what i meed to do to go about getting a girlfriend #like i rarely meet new people #okay yes i recently moved countries which resulted in meeting nnew people but also i have only met like 2 gay people and neither were singl #though to be fairthe last proper crush (and maybe only like proper crush) i had was on one of my best friends #and ahe now has a girlfriend #and never liked me like that #like i say best friend but i dont think she ever really cared for me as a friend let alone anything else #i didnt have any other friends at the time tho so #maybe im just unloveable #no but actually what is there to love