#okay sorry i can't live without hurting literally everybody around me have you considered euthanasia instead perhaps

[anaalnathrakhs]

mental health facilities looooove to only have inpatient available when it would make things worse

#''you have to be proactive and search for treatement'' I DID #I SHOWED UP A MONTH AGO AND ASKED TO BE HOSPITALIZED #DONT TELL ME NOW ''ooh the only thing we can propose is hospitalization why are you here'' #IT'S MY LAST RESORT OKAY #everything else is blocked off #i have no idea what i'm supposed to do #i absolutely do not trust any of your sections to handle eating disorders in a way that's adapted to my case #this system is fucking hostile to anybody who doesn't have the exact same priorities than the official ones #or who has slightly unusual problems #or who doesn't want to sacrifice all happiness to appear healthy #jesus fucking christ #i'm gonna do it. i'm gonna try to get an appointment for the fucking. psychological center or whatnot they gave me #im gonna try to get back in contact with the hospital nutritionist #but my question is fucking: what for #the plan is like: complete this program of painful things for this goal you don't want and then you're allowed back into human life #okay sorry i can't live without hurting literally everybody around me have you considered euthanasia instead perhaps #i'm not interested in achieving your goals #i just want to be okay and live an okay life just let me go back to school #post cancelled actually i just remembered again the problem is me #the problem is me the problem is me and as long as i live i will be me with me #broadcasting my misery #vent