#obsesses with the way julian clearly only starts smoking when he meets paul fully aware that he is already missing half a lung

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#going a bit insane over micah nemerevers these violent delights #no i'm not becoming a book blog but I'm rediscovering an old passion #books feel like my first language of fiction and they are #and this one is so beautifully insane and intricate and the characters are so fantastic and their relationship so natural yet wild af #it's like watching two buildings slowly collapse into each other and in the end you can't find which pieces belong where anymore #but they're definitely both shattered and they would probably still be standing if they hadn't been so close to each other #both of them started out with such potential for so many things but brought out the worst versions of themselves in each other I LOVE IT #[their names are paul and julian btw. yes they're gay] #it's like they were waiting for someone to come along and utterly wreck them and they probably were #and if this sounds like they were violent with each other they weren't really at least that wasn't the point most of the time #they loved each other so completely but also so brutally that they fed each others fears and insecurities more than anything else #they'd have done anything for each other AND THEY DID and that was the catastrophe #it is such a fantastic book #obsesses with the way julian clearly only starts smoking when he meets paul fully aware that he is already missing half a lung